Isn’t Rejection What You Wanted?

What I can’t have

JARED’S POV

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Never in my life did I think that Cami could be so devious, yet when she explained her plan, I couldn’t stop myself from getting hard. Her devious plan has my balls tingling, and the way she stares at me with dedication and determination while explaining all the ways she could f**k with Derek’s mind has me almost bursting. She’s a vixen, her tongue is venomous and every single word coming out of her mouth is like water being poured into mine. “Are you sure?” I stand with my tongue swirling in my mouth.

Cami nods, her eyes lit up with joy as her shoulders wiggle with excitement. “I am sure, I want to do this.” every word is perfectly pronounced, her tone icy and even I am weary of her idea, because f*****g with someone’s head is like playing with fire, and someone’s fingers is always bound to get burned when they play with someone’s head, but let the Gods hear me, it better be mine instead of hers. I would burn my hands just to protect her from the heat of the flame, because she’s innocent.

Cami follows me down the stairs, wearing a t-shirt, and I don’t know if she’s wearing pants underneath it. I want to know, but seeing her tanned legs and her white painted toe nails makes me want to stare at her bare thighs, I want to run my fingers over her soft looking skin, but it I do that…If I let her into my life, she will become the target of my enemies, and some have already caught on that she’s special. The girls come fun for a fun time, but none stay for more than two days. I don’t run around town with them and I certainly don’t stick my tongue down their throats either.

I whistle loudly, and Mason slides in through the front door, looking ever so guilty while doing it. He glances at Camilla beside me, and quickly looks at me when my eyes narrow on him. “My apologies,” he murmurs, and I don’t even need to look at Cami to know that she’s confused. “Take this, give it to someone who’s off duty and send them to the bar down town, and take cash out of the kitchen safe to have a drink and spend time there until Derek shows up,”, “The guy from earlier?” Mason looks confused as hell, but that’s how I want it.

“Yes, and have him write a rapport, and let him come see me when he gets back.” I demand, and Mason nods while taking out his phone to call one of the men. I kind of want to see what happens, but then again, I don’t want Derek to know that we are on to him. “Anything else?” Mason looks up after texting someone, and I nod, “Make him wear a body camera, a hidden one.” I pat his shoulder and turn around to look at Cami, who’s smiling up at me.

“We’re going to watch?” she raises her brows surprisingly, and I scoff, “You know I like a good show,” I grin, and her smile widens as she turns around, “Where do we watch?” she beams, and I can’t help but wish I could be there for the live show. “In my room,” I nod towards the stairs, and there’s a little pep in her step as she goes upstairs.

“I’ll be right there,” I call after her, and her dark hair whips through the air as she turns and points a finger at me, “Hurry, and bring popcorn!” she trots back upstairs, and for a second my heart stops when she trips, and she bends over when grabbing the stairs in front of her, but then I see her shorts, but that doesn’t stop me from turning to look at Mason, but as a good loyal soldier, he has his eyes glued to his phone and giving orders to men.

Everybody probably fears him like they do me, because he knows everything, and I know that they want to be him, but no one can. Even if Mason goes out, I tell him to take guards, because whether or not I treat him like a friend, he is my biggest ally and he will always have my back, I just f*****g know it. “Have someone?” I fully turn my body towards him, and he nods, glancing up at me with a grin, “Always, sir.” I know that he will never admit it, but he is as wicked as I am. He lives for this job, and unlike some of the people in my gang, he hasn’t touched drugs unless he’s doing a big important delivery.

“Tell them to hurry up, and make sure you have his location too.” I head towards the kitchen to make some popcorn, and I’m sure to grab a bottle of water for her too before heading upstairs, but I place the water into the fridge next to my bed without her knowledge and she sits on the very edge of the foot end, one knee crossed while the other one dangles down the high mattress.

“You can come sit here,” I inform her when I lay back against the headboard, but her eyes are glued to the black tv, “I’m good here,” She shrugs all the while she twirls her hair around her finger. I think she’s uncomfortable because of what she saw when coming in here, but having s*x is a workout, and I was just having a good time. s*x is a human’s most euphoric high, and I bet if her ex f****d her right, she wouldn’t be so embarrassed about it all. She’s a good girl, but if I were her boyfriend, I’d f**k her until she had no voice left to scream. Her legs would be so weak that I’d have to cater to her every need for the rest of the day, and her soft lips would be so raw that it would be red and swollen for hours.