9. Lust Between Us
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Gianna Ossen.
Wait, wait a minute. What the hell is this? Why can't this stop? My lips kept intertwining with Logan's. I didn't think about doing this with Logan.
Logan lifted my body. This is more than I imagined. He and I couldn't stop making out. He even took me to his room. To his room, not mine?
Somehow, the door to Logan's room just opened. We were still making out. Logan's strong arms support my hips. While my hands were around his neck.
Logan laid me down on the bed. We were still doing the same activity, making out. I even unbuttoned Logan's shirt one by one. He started groping my body. Wait. Something was wrong here.
"Stop!" I pushed Logan away, but he still tried to fondle me again and again. I couldn't resist. Were we going to f**k? No, we're not! We don't even love each other. I didn't know how I felt and needed to understand the mate concept. Do I have to sleep with him because we're mates? Didn't Logan promise to keep my honour?
"Logan, stop!" This time, it was an absolute rejection. Logan stopped. He looked at me. His body was clearly displayed in front of me. The buttons of his shirt were all undone. Meanwhile, the clothes I was wearing were already wrinkled. One of Logan's hands touched my skin right at the waist.
We stare pretty intensely. Logan's breathing was still irregular. He couldn't control himself.
"Are you going to force me to have s*x with you?" I asked.
"What?" Logan's brow furrowed. "Am I the only one who wants it?"
I couldn't answer. I didn't know what I was experiencing either. This feeling was foreign. This kind of behaviour had never happened before. I've never hung out with a guy this intensely. I felt anxious and scared but also excited at the same time.
"I don't know," I replied.
Logan suddenly stood up. He quickly straightened his clothes again. I got up and did the same. For a while, we were silent. The situation became awkward. Did I say something wrong? I don't know what was wrong. It seemed like we shouldn't be doing this.
"Do you want to sleep with me?" I asked Logan again.
"What do you mean? I just..."
I waited for Logan's answer. We were confused about what was happening. Logan and I were suddenly making out for no apparent reason. The momentum just happened. I was drawn to Logan like a magnet that had so much power. But I didn't know why it was like this. I have no feelings for Logan. I'm absolutely sure I don't love Logan. I still feel alien to him. I still doubt him because he's not human like me.
"We should keep our distance. You said you wouldn't force me to do anything. You said we were just living together without any intentions." I tried to remind him of our agreement.
There was no response from Logan. Instead, I saw the anger on his face. Was he angry that I rejected him? Does he really want to sleep with me? But he doesn't love me. Too many questions were running through my mind.
"Why are you like this?" Logan asked.
"What's wrong with me?" I really didn't understand. "Explain it to me.
"I should be free to touch you because you are my mate. We're a couple. Don't you feel anything for me?"
What should I answer? I didn't even understand what was really going on between us. Logan was still so foreign to me.
"Okay, fine. No matter how much I explain to you, you'll never understand because you're human. This is the risk I have to take." Logan then sat down next to me.
I turned to Logan. He was very disappointed. What was I supposed to do? I didn't understand what Logan really wanted. I tried to understand the situation.
"Go. I want to rest," Logan said.
I stood up immediately and looked at Logan for a moment. He didn't turn to me. I quickly walked out of Logan's room.
I headed to the kitchen. After making out with Logan, I was so thirsty. Aiden was in the kitchen when I went to get some juice from the fridge. He seemed to know what I needed. He handed me a glass of apple juice.
"Thank you," I said.
"Are you okay?" Aiden asked.
I rubbed my neck. My body was burning, but I didn't know why. I just shook my head at Aiden.
"Explain to me exactly what Logan wants from me? It's been a month since I've been here. This is the first time Logan has behaved like this. He suddenly announced that he and I were getting engaged. Then he takes me to his room."
"Wow!"
I was surprised to see Aiden's excited response to my words.
"Excuse me? Why are you saying wow? Is this interesting to you?"
Aiden sighed. He looked at me seriously. Usually, he often joked around with me, but Aiden wasn't even smiling right now.
"You must understand that you and Alpha Logan are mates and that is a fateful bond that you cannot escape. Biologically, Alpha Logan feels lust for you. You should feel the same way. It's normal."
I furrowed my brow. "I don't love him and he doesn't love me. How could we have lust for each other and..." I was embarrassed to admit it.
"And what?" Aiden waited for my explanation.
I looked down. This was really embarrassing. Why did I have to explain everything to Aiden? he was the only one I could talk to here.
"I'm still virgin. I have no experience with men at all. I don't know what to do when he suddenly kisses me."
I didn't dare look at Aiden. He would definitely think I was dumb, out of date and so on. In this era, who doesn't have experience with men? Even at prom, my friends would prepare themselves for their first s*x.
"You have nothing to be ashamed of. Alpha Logan doesn't care about such things. For him, you're more than just a woman to take to bed. You mean more to him, Gianna."
I raised my head. "Mean more?" I muttered.
"His life depends on you, Gianna.”
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