THE MASK ⚔ Assassin Series3 ⚔

Two

"I didn't mean to hurt you! I left because I didn't want to hurt you.

Paliwanag ni Griffin kay Kissy, ng makorner nya ito pagkatapos ng fashion show nito dito sa Boracay. Masama ang tinging ipinukol ng dalaga sa kanya, nababasa nyang poot at hinanakit nito sa kanya.

"So you thought by leaving and ripping out my heart was the best option? Because that would never hurt me, or leave me in sleepless nights thinking of how I could fix myself for you. Because that wouldn't make me go off the deep end and spend all my time thinking about how happy you are with out me. Because I wouldn't spend all my time crying and obsessing over how you used to be mine, how you left in my time of need."

Galit na galit pa rin ito sa kanya, ramdam nya yon sa bawat bigkas ng mga salita nito ay may kahalong pait at sakit.

".I-I-I'm s-sorry...."

Tanging nasabi ni Griffin na lalo namang ikinasama ng loob ni Kissy.

"You're sorry? For what? Knowing how I really feel? Oh! I'm sorry didn't mean to make you feel bad. Even though you crushed me, I was hanging on to dear life before you met me, and after I fell for those beautiful looks of yours, and those luscious eyes that I could drown in. You gave me life and made me the happiest I have ever been. You made me forget all my troubles in an instant when I was with you. You made me feel again, you made me feel loved after so many years had passed before without me feeling anything at all. You were my savior, my hero...and you used me up. You blew me up like a balloon and then popped me and didn't bother to pick up the pieces. But don't mind me, I'm just a broken girl lost in the dust of your tracks, trying to figure out where it all went wrong."

" I-I-I didn't mean to hurt y-you..." Nakayukong sabi nya, para itago ang totoong nararamdaman sa dalaga.

"It wouldn't have hurt so much if you hadn't given me so much to hurt about. It wouldn't have hurt as much if you had just stayed. But at last you didn't and I am once again the fool of your game."

"Baby Dragon.."

Napapikit na lang si Kissy ng marinig ang tinawag sa kanya ni Griffin. Na miss nya to, miss na miss.

"Was I even important to you? It seems to me that I was the one who actually fell head over heels in love with you. Because I would put my life on hold just to cherish a minute of your life. In fact I did put my life on hold. I put my life on hold because I thought we had something that was gonna last a lot longer than it did.

But just like everything I get into it quickly ends as fast as it began. I clearly fell so hard in love that I broke my ability to see. My ability to see that you just weren't that into me. That you were just here for the ride and the attention from me. So you didn't pay the ride admission fee, but it was okay I let you ride for free. Because I was caught up in the plans we were making only to find out. That you weren't taking me but instead you were taking another woman in your life who you love more than me. So for me not charging you for an admission fee. I have the ride shut down and I'm broke in love, and drunk on misery.

All those phone calls, and late night talks, all the tears and the pain. All those days I was by your side when I really shouldn't have been. Meant absolutely nothing because you've fallen in love with someone else. Someone who you actually love, who you don't string along like you did to me. But how can I blame anyone for falling for your tricks. You're handsome like snow and cold like ice and the way you string words together makes me fall harder for you.

Even though I know your bad for me, I just can't get enough. So while you're no longer mine, and I don't get to call you baby lizard . I have to go through another heartbreak and watch someone who isn't me give you everything you need. Everything that I once gave you until you finally set me free."

Nagulat na lang si Kissy ng umangat ang kamay ni Griffin para pahirin ang pisngi nyang basa ng luha. Hindi man lang nya napansin na umiiyak na pala sya dahil sa sama ng loob para sa lalakeng ito. Humakbang sya paatras para malayo dito. Taas noo nya itong tinitigan sa mga mata saka sinabing...

"Not every disrespect can be forgotten, not every mistake can be ignored and not every damage can be recovered."

Tinalikuran na nya ito, saka mabilis na naglakad palayo dito.

'Bakit ang sakit sakit pa rin? bakit nasasaktan pa rin ako ng ganito? Akala ko ok nako, na naka move on na'ko sa kanya, hindi pa rin pala, kasi nagagawa nya pa rin akong saktan ng ganito.'

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Naiwang tulala si Griffin habang tinatanaw ang papalayong dalaga. Hanggang kailan nya ba susuyuin ito para mapatawad sya nito?

"Bro, dito ka lang pala kanina pa kita hinahanap. O, ano na nagkita na ba kayo ng Ex mo?"

Tumango at ngumiti ng may pait si Griffin kay Pyre, bago sinapo ang sariling buhok at sinabunutan ng mahigpit.

"Ahhhhhhhhhhhh.."

Sigaw nya para maibsan ang sakit na kanyang nararamdaman. Tahimik naman ang kaibigan nya sa kanyang tabi. Ng unti unting kumalma ang kanyang sarili. Tinapik nya sa balikat si Pyre.

"Let's go! I need alcohol to ease the pain and burden that I'm feeling right now."

"Ok! Let's get wasted tonight."

Magkaakbay pang naglakad patungo sa unang bar na nadaanan nila, konti lang ang tao kaya nakahanap agad sila ng magandang pwesto, yung malapit sa dagat at nakikita ang mga taong nag eenjoy sa dagat.

"Bro, alalay lang ang inom ha! At bukas babalik na tayo sa Maynila, may misyon tayo sa makalawa wag mo kakalimutan."

Nakikinig lang si Griffin habang nagsasalita si Pyre. Wala syang maintindihan sa lahat ng sinasabi nito. Tuloy lang ang inom nya ng brandy hanggang sa naging emotional na naman sya.

"f**k!, Why is it so much to ask for someones love? But so easy to earn someone's hate? Why is it that we lose sleep and beat ourselves up for the love of someone we think we deserve it from. Why is it that we get so caught up in this realm of being with someone who doesn't even care for us in the way we want them too. But we make this idea around their actions towards us and make what they say and do towards us that it's okay. That that is their way of expressing their love to us.

Why do we care so much and get so heartbroken over love. So heartbroken that we start to lose our smile and start to find no more joy in the world we used to find so fascinating. It then gets to a point where we want to take our own lives because it's better then dealing with the feelings we are feeling inside.

But have you ever noticed that love and hate end up with the same result. That we lose sleep over and beat ourselves up over the hate we receive from others. We always get caught up in the words that these humans have to say about us, people who don't ever have to look us in the eye or even need to hear our voices. But somehow we manage to stay strong through it all, and we try to take some of the power away from their words.

But at the end of the day those words they say still create a bullet that courses through our veins and leaves a hole in our heart. Telling everyone that "I'm fine" or "I'm okay?" but we still have a range of emotions over the actions of others that we all let out in different forms. The forms of which we choose to let the demons of others that they pour into our souls, isn't always a negative way. But many of us get consumed by the demons of everyone else.

And we chose to take our own lives because it's better then dealing with this realm of negativity where there no longer is any light. If you really look at it, love and hate really are not so different."

Pumatak ang luha sa mga mata ni Griffin, hinayaan lang nya yun. Naaawa namang tinapik tapik ni Pyre ang kanyang balikat.

"Griffin Bro, the best things in life are worth waiting for, fighting for, believing in, and just never letting go of, just wait for the right time, give your Ex a time to heal, maybe until now she's still in pain, anyway moving on is a long process.

I know that you were hurt badly, and those scars will be with you forever. I feel sorry for you, I really do. But think of it like this: it's not too late to recover. You're young, you're tough. You're adaptable. You can patch up your wounds, lift up your head and move on too! Learn from the past, prepare for the future, and perform in the moment."

Napailing iling na lang si Pyre, ang galing galing nyang mag advice pero sarili nyang suliranin hindi nya maayos ayos. Tahimik lang si Griffin, tuloy lang ang pag iyak nito habang lumalaklak ng alak. Naiintindihan nyang pinagdadaanan nito ngayon kasi napagdaanan nya na rin ito nung mawala ng sabay ang fiance nyang ipinag bubuntis ang sana unang baby nila. Napabaling ang tingin nya kay Griffin ng biglang magsalita ito.

"You know what Bro, the most painful thing is losing yourself in the process of loving someone too much, and forgetting that you are special too. "

"Yeah! your absolutely right bro, so let's drink to that, cheerssss..."

"Hell, Yeah! Cheersss.."

Sometimes it is comforting to have someone to talk to, someone you have sympathy with, someone you know you are not alone with..It feels good when you have a friend to lean on. He thought he was lucky because he had reliable friends and would not leave in any fight.

?MahikaNiAyana