THE MASK ⚔ Assassin Series3 ⚔

One

I never claimed to be perfect

Quite the opposite, in fact.

I was painfully aware of my imperfections, and I tried to make you aware, too.

I had near limitless fears, hidden behind fragile walls of laughter and false confidence

I knew there were forms of love I could never fully accept or reciprocate, and I tried constantly to tell you this.

I don’t know if you ever fully listened.

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Perhaps I was just being selfish

Wanting my past to fade away, wanting to become someone’s future.

I still only ever wanted you to be happy

Even if it turned out that your happiness wasn’t intended to come from me.

There were things I could never do for you and words I could never say to you, and I tried to make sure that you knew that.

I was never anything less than honest.

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People change with the passing of time

At some point, I looked at you and I had to stop and question just who was looking back.

There was a sadness in this new but familiar person that I didn’t remember;

Was it because of me?

You said that it was a matter of circumstance, and that things would be better if you made a few adjustments, and I trusted your words.

I gave you what little advice I had.

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Sometimes it’s better to let go

Love meant something different now, something more platonic.

You always seemed so hopeful, even with the worries and sadness

I was absolutely terrified of hurting you, so I continued to covered it with humor.

I was never meant to be the love interest in your story, it seemed, but I was happy I could at least be the wisecracking friend who supported you from the side.

I guess you had missed how hollow the jokes really were.

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It’s almost human nature to hide behind masks

I hid behind humor, aloofness, and a lie that I never cared for others’ opinions.

I always kind of admired that you never seemed to have a mask, that you were unabashedly you.

I see now that I was wrong

You never took your mask off, not even for me.

I never really knew you until suddenly the world was against me, and I was being faced with things that had never been spoken, but I was expected to have simply known.

Even now, you face the world with peace written across your face but anger in your heart for things that you decided all on your own.

I pity you.

For all your charm, and all the people you surround yourself with

You can’t trust yourself enough to trust those who trust you, to actually share the inner workings of your heart and mind.

You spit blame and anger, and determine intent without care for its truth

You decided my story and reasoning for me without ever asking or seemingly caring, and it hurt.

And yet, even still

I hope your choices make you happy!, Kissy Gornican!,,

Perhaps one day we’ll be friends again!...

-Griffin Nylian-

Tinupi ni Kissy ang sulat na tanging naiwang alaala sa kanya ng ex boyfriend nyang si Griffin. Ibinalik nya ulit sa loob ng box ang sulat. Napangiti sya ng may pait ng makita nya ang lahat ng bigay na regalo sa kanya ng dating nobyo. May pagkakamali din sya, pagkukulang at kapabayaan. Hindi lang nya maamin sa sarili.

'I used to believe that prayer changes things, but now I know that prayer changes us and we change things.'

Nabaling ang tingin nya sa laptop ng tumunog iyon, kaagad nyang tiningnan at nakita sa f*******: notification nya na may bago syang followers. Napatili pa sya ng makitang isa sa nag follow sa Fashion Page Accout nya ay si Griffin.

"OMG! totoo ba ito? si Griffin nga kaya ito?"

Kaagad nyang viniew ang Profile account nito.

"Hala! si Griffin nga! Eeeeee!"

Napatili sya't nagpagulong gulong sa kama nya.

"God! namiss ko sya sobra!"

Bumangon sya't tiningnan ang email nya. Cheneck kung nabasa na ba ni Griffin ang pinadala nyang sulat dito at kung nag reply ba ito. Nawala ang sigla nya ng makitang nabasa na nito, pero hindi man lang nag abalang mag reply. Binasa nya ulit ang sulat nya para rito. Tiniyak nya kung naisulat ba nyang lahat ang gusto nyang iparating dito.

Hi Baby ?,

I remember being happy next to you, us being the perfect couple for a really long time and I miss that a lot.

You know, I’m actually looking for someone who is basically who you were back then.

Someone to have long conversations with, someone I can be comfortable around, someone who I can be foolish with, a person, who is my rock and whos rock I can be.

I miss those times a lot and I miss being in love and having fun, but right now I just miss you as a friend.

I miss sending you things around me that remind me of you.

I miss being able to fool around and be childish with you.

I miss your laugh, your smile, all of you, even tho I know it would never work out between the two of us again.

I don’t miss your kisses or the “I love you”-s I just miss having fun with you.

I have been seeing you around town and you’re not the person I fell in love with.

You act rude, you drive the fanciest car you have even tho you never used to, you like a girl who is materialistic, you care about showing your money off and you ignore the friends we had together.

You’re changing for the worse and I have no idea where your head is.

I’m angry, because you’re letting yourself get off guard and you are becoming someone who you were afraid of becoming.

I don’t understand where your morals are.

When we first started dating you were amazed that I didn’t care about your money or your class and now look at you.

Cruising around town just for f***s sake and I see that you’re struggling. I see that you’re not going anywhere, you’re just going in circles for some reason, and I’m worried. I want to talk to you and help you, but I can’t.

You pushed me away and replaced me with someone who is my polar opposite and I know that this means that something isn’t ok,

I just haven’t figured out what and I have no idea why I’m thinking about it or why I care about you, but I do.

I want to be your friend.

I want to see you grow.

I want to see you succeed without pushing people off their way.

I want to be there for you.

I miss your friendship...?

Baby ?

Napangiti sya ng maalala ang endearment nilang dalawa. "BABY BUTIKI" ang tawag nya kay Griffin dati, kasi ang payat nito noon, pero ngayon ang dami ng pandesal sa katawan. Kung noong payat pa ito ay yummy na, mas higit pa ngayon, kahit walang ulam lalantakan nyang kanin haha. Ganun kalakas ang dating nito sa kanya ngayon.

"BABY DRAGON" naman ang tawag nito sa kanya, kasi bugnutin at topakin sya dati. Konting pagkakamali lang ni Griffin nagagalit na agad sya dito. Pero ngayong nag mature na sya ibang iba ng dating nya. Maraming nagbago sa personality nya.

Naputol ang pagbalik tanaw nya ng biglang nag ring ang celpon nya na agad namang sinagot.

"Yes, Hydra," pause " Malaysia! kailan?" paused.. "Hmmm.. Ok! I'll be there at 9am. Thanks...Bye!"

Nagligpit na sya ng kalat. Tapos nilabas ang malaking traveling bag. Sinigurado nyang lahat ng kailangan nyang gamit sa pagmomodel ay madadala nya. Masaya sya sa takbo ng buhay nya ngayon. Kung noon naguguluhan pa sya kung bakit ang career ng modeling ang tinutukan nya? Ngayon malinaw na sa kanya ang kasagutan.

Dahil sa pag momodel nya nagkaroon sya ng sariling negosyo, ang Gornican Clothing na nagkaroon ng branches hindi lang dito sa Pinas kundi umabot na sa ibang bansa. At dahil sa modeling napatunayan nya sa kanyang mga magulang na kaya nyang tumayo sa sariling mga paa.

Na tama ang desisyon nyang manirahan sa Pilipinas.

Na dito sya nababagay hindi sa Switzerland.

Na dito sya masaya kahit na nag iisa lang sya.

Na kahit bumagsak sya noon pero nakabangon na sya ngayon.

Naging malaking hamon sa buhay nya si Griffin, ang lahat ng sakit at kabigoan na naranasan nya ay naging determinasyon at inspirasyon para magkaroon sya ng lakas ng loob na humarap sa buong mundo bilang isang modelo.

At sa bawat damit na sinusuot nya, sa bawat make up na naging maskara para itago ang totoong nararamdaman nya, binansagan syang "Cold Hearted b***h". Kahit magkaganun taas noo syang naglalakad sa entablado, niyakap ang titulo at perpektong ipinahayag sa buong mundo..

"Although I am a cold hearted b***h, I am the Queen of my kingdom, the kingdom of different kinds of masks, that I did show it perfectly and I wanna share it with you."

Ganyan kalakas ang dating at karisma nya sa mundo ng modeling, sya ang Reyna na kahit pa si Hydra na isang maldita di sya kinaya.

'Heto na ako ngayon Griffin,

Matigas ka man, lalambot ka rin at gagapang pabalik sakin..'

?MahikaNiAyana