I Revolve Around You

FIVE

Jeramaine's POV

That day when Oriana broke up with me, i didn't want to believe it. I was stunned that it actually happened and i couldn't bring myself to chase after her. I watched her go until she was completely out of my sight. I regretted it that instant and i wanted to go after her right then and there when i got a call from Savannah. "Oooo...the rumours got us good don't they. I like it.", she said through the phone. "That's not funny Savannah, was this your plan? Tell me so that i can fix this.". "What?! No! Why would i do that? What the hell? Did Oriana broke up with you or something? Over this?", she asked and for the first time, she actually sound concerned. "I have to go" , i said avoiding the question. I didn't want to talk about it because if i do, it will actually feel real. I wanted to find Oriana the minute i ended the call but for some reason, i just didn't. I need to think about this. Why would she do this? What was she thinking all this time. I needed answers.

'The sun and the moon was once a single mystical presence. Existing to quietly roam the Earth both day and night as the sun and the moon, but the force of it's existence was shaken, when the divine entangled itself with the human world and refuses to return home. As a result, the very presence of it shall soon cease to exist. So as both punishment and mercy, the power of the sun and the moon splits into two different entities where one shall never meet the other and shall never be whole. They will never set foot on Earth ever again' it reads. But what does this have to do with anything? What do you mean they will never set foot on Earth? Oriana is here right now. Did she ran away from her world? Did they found her? Is she leaving Earth? All these questions circulating my brain as i try to comprehend what this old transcript meant but can i even believe this? This transcript was written a hundred of millions of decades ago. It's different now. But what is it that's different? I need to know. I spent hours trying to look for more informations about her but i couldn't find anything. All i know is that there's something that she wanted to hide from me. When i finally lifted my head from my computer, messaging the back of my neck, i realized i only have a few hours left. I need to see her.

School ended hours ago, so i didn't know where to find her. She could've been anywhere by now. I didn't want to call her because I'm scared she would try to avoid me. I tried calling Vanessa, her bestfriend but she wouldn't pick up. She was probably still angry at me. So i had no choice but to go around our usual date spots to find her. Thankfully, it was not many, because we usually go to diners near my hometown right after school to spent more time together and i was an avid foodie so we would go to these places that I've listed.., ahaha yes i even have a list now because ever since i met Oriana I started being more excited about my hobbies and my interest. Often we would go to the museums because she's really fond of history and she would spent hours analysing each artifacts and understanding them. She would bent over, her face against the glass box encasing the artifacts, reading their transcripts while the low light shining her across her face and her eyes glistening, looking so pretty when she's happy. From time to time we would go to libraries. Oriana would say, seeing those never-ending shelves of books spanning in her view, excites her because she also likes reading. I like being there with her the most because when she's so focused on reading, i could finally watch her in peace, without her hand interrupting me trying to push my face away because I make her nervous.

I still couldn't find her anywhere after hours of searching but then, it finally came to me. The beach?, i thought and as quick as light, i got in my car and drove there. When i finally reached the beach i thought i was too late, the sun is just peaking above the horizon. I wasn't going to see her today and that's when i saw her, standing at the edge of the shore, the waves hitting her feet from time to time. I walked towards her, cautious of what she might say. I knew she could hear my footsteps. I knew that she knew, it was me. "If you didn't want me to find you then you shouldn't be here.", I said as I slowly came closer. I reached around her waist and pulled her closer to my chest, hugging her from behind. When she didn't pull away in which, i wasn't going to let her, I hugged her tighter, as i rest my head on her shoulder my face in the dents of her neck. We stood like that for a while, counting the time that we had left as I said softly, I could almost feel my voice cracking, "You don't have to take me back. You don't have to be with me. You don't have to explain anything just... don't push me away. I want to stay here, I will never move and whenever you're ready, all you have to do is come to me.". She didn't say anything but I've said everything that i wanted her to hear, so i released my embrace on her and closed my eyes, trying to stop a tear from escaping but when i opened them, she was already gone and the world around me slowly turned dark.

I didn't know if i should still wait for her here but after last evening at the beach, i wasn't expecting much to begin with and when she didn't show up, my heart hurts a little less then it should be. You know what, who am i kidding. It hurts. It's killing me. This is real. There is no 'us' anymore. I punched the wall behind me with the face of my palm, sighing as i took a deep breath and left for school alone, without her beside me, her hand in my hand like it used to be. As i was already a few minutes late to class, i decided to just take my time, thinking whether or not i did the right thing. My mind started trailing off thinking that it could be another guy but i trust her and she would never do that. I knew it deep inside myself that we genuinely love each other. When i passed Oriana's class i could see her through the window. She was sitting there acting like nothing had happened. For a moment i was mad, but maybe distracting herself and completely avoiding me was her way of coping. I believed that her love for me was still there. When i reached my class, opened the door and just casually sat on my seat and stared out the window, everyone's eyes were just following me, but nobody dared to say a word, not even Ms. Bellamy and that's when i knew, I'm slowly turning into the old Jeramaine again.

At lunch I was contemplating whether or not i should sit at the table at the end of the cafeteria alone where i usually sit at the beginning but then i decided to just screw it and sit with my boys. Besides, Oriana and I ended on good terms yesterday didn't we?, i thought to myself as i walked to our table and took my usual seat. I saw Oriana and Vanessa in the corner of eyes and acted as casual as possible. Please let them sit her, please let them sit here , i thought to myself and thank god, they did but Oriana didn't took her usual seat next to me but instead she sat opposite me. I looked at her for what seemed like a millisecond and realized that i shouldn't make it too obvious that i was bothered by that. The atmosphere surrounding us was too silent that i wanted to flinched my drink off the table because of how awkward i felt but then the others finally came and that's when Vanessa asked, sounding a little bit pissed, "So are you two back together or what is it?". "If she wants to, but right now, i guess not.", I said sarcastically and Oriana shifted in her seat uncomfortably. "Well at least we're all still friends. No messy break ups okay. Let's just throw it all over our shoulders.", Micah said as he threw a salad over his shoulder, and grinned. He hates salads. I grinned with him seeing the sour look on the Janitor's face as he glared at us for throwing a piece of salad on the ground.

The next hour i spent in class was feeling absolutely shitty about myself, for making Oriana felt very uncomfortable during lunch. I knew i shouldn't comment on the subject but i was frustrated and i guess being sarcastic was the only thing i know how to do in that situation. I needed to confront her and get things straight, so after class i went to Oriana's class to find her but she wasn't there anymore so i stopped Savannah in her tracks and asked her where Oriana might be. "I dont freaking know, she's probably with Vanessa at the field waiting for her to finish soccer...or something.", Savannah said, her voice trailing off. I grinned at her, pointing a finger at her and moving it back and forth surprised that she cared enough to know their whereabouts. "Thank you Savannah.", I continued as she smacked my finger to the side and threateningly said, "Just shut up.", and strode off. I rushed to the field and i found Oriana sitting on the bleachers looking over the field as Vanessa was practicing. They'll probably spend the time together after this so i should talk to her now, i thought so i went up to her and decided to sat beside her. She didn't flinch or even stiffen up which tells me that she's neither startled or uncomfortable. We sat like that for a few minutes when i finally reached over and held her hand. I could see a smile on her face and as she turned her head to look at me, she placed her other hand on top of my hand to ensure me that she's okay with it.

"We're not getting back together are we?", I asked and she nodded, signaling, yes we aren't. "You're not going to tell me why either right?", I asked again and she looked down at her shoes a gesture saying that, i cant talk about that. I took a deep breath and asked her a question i never thought I'd ask, "So what now? What do you want me to do? Because i can't live without you, and i refuse to act like we don't know each other.". "Just be in my life and i'll be in yours as friends. I can't live acting like we're strangers either.", she said and i agreed. I can live with that. As long as she doesn't throw me away then I'm fine with anything. "Do you remember what i said to you at the beach?", I asked for the last time. "I mean it Oriana, i really do.", I continued and she smiled and said, "..and I understand. I'm glad you said that.", and i smiled at her feeling a little bit relieved as we kept sitting there holding each other's hand, believing that no matter what, we are still for each other. "Oh by the way, you're not going to wait for me at the intersection anymore? That s**t hurts. You just left me waiting.", I said and she laughed. "Sorry i thought i needed to give you some time but.. yeah i'll wait for you there. As friends okay?", she stated. "Okay~~".

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End of chapter

*Author's note: Hi everyone. So what do you think of today's chapter. What do you think about Savannah. Was she behind all the mess or is she just an overprotective friend. What was that old transcript Jeramaine was talking about. What do you think will happen between Oriana and Jeramaine now that they decided to still be good friends. Will that last?