Sinful Desires

6 My secret

Heather's Point Of View

“Are you alright, Heather?" Margot asked as if nothing happened.

I don't know how to answer her question even though it's just a simple yes or no question. She is looking at me with worry written all over her face. Margot has been a caring friend for years and to be honest, I am surprised to see her having an affair with my husband. She used to say that she hates those women who would side chicks with married men. I remember how she said those words with gritted teeth. She hates side chicks so much even though other people would always think that she is thag kind of woman.

Margot is a very attractive woman with blessed breasts and a butt. Her shirts would look like crop tops to her and crop tops are like bras because of how huge her melons are. People would always say that she is not contented and those are fake but it was the opposite. Everything on her body is real because she is afraid of needles. She would also cry just because of a small wound or cuts.

“Heather?" She called out for me while waving her hand in front of me.

“Y-yeah. I am alright." I said in a stutter.

She is smiling while looking at me and I can feel myself getting irritated because of what I saw last night. I want to pull her by her hair out of this building to humiliate her but the way she is acting right now what I saw didn't happen. It seems like it was just my mind playing tricks on me again so I am trying my best not to do whatever my mind is telling me to do. She is still my friend so I don't want to humiliate her without any valid reason to do it.

I don't know what to feel about everything. I should be happy that what I saw last night is not even real because it means that they didn't betray me but the only thing that I can right now is nervousness because of the fear that he might not accept me for it even though he told me before that he would love me no matter what. He also deserves to know about this because I don't want him to know about it to other people or chance. I also want to tell my secret because I believe that trust is the most important thing to have in a relationship and without it, a relationship would just slip away so I handed everything about it.

I and my husband went inside my office to tell him about everything. My chest is pounding thinking about those negative things. I should trust that my husband is not going anywhere after finding it out because they love each other.

“Ethan, you need to know something about me that you should have known even before you could marry me." I started.

My husband pulled me into a hug and l find myself crying in his arms. His small gesture is making me more confident to tell him about what I am hiding. He didn't say anything and just stare at my face while waiting for me to start opening up.

“I was eighteen back then when I started having friends who fit my personality. People around me would weirdly look at me every time I was hanging out with them." I said remembering the events. “Some people even started to make fun of me, saying that I am crazy."

My chest burden is starting to get lighter as I tell my secret to my husband. I know that he is the only one that wouldn't judge me and I can see it by his actions. He is now holding my hand squeezing it from time to time which he knows would help me relax so I could tell my story to him with ease.

“They started to say that my friends were not real but I already got attached to them. I got mad at my mother when she also told me that they are not real. They took me to get some help that I need and the doctors said that I am suffering from schizophrenia. I didn't know what it was at first but when she explained it to my mother, I couldn't believe it because my friends are even with me at the doctor's office. After some visits, she confirmed it. I remember her giving me some pills and my friend started to disappear. That is when I just accepted that I was suffering from that illness." I told him about everything but he didn't say anything. “And the reason why I walked out last night is I thought I saw you screwing my best friend right here on your table."

Ethan looks surprised at what I said lastly. He cups my face with his both hands before giving me a long kiss on the lips and then stares at my face.

“I wouldn't do anything like that." He said with assurance.

I trust him when he said that because I know that he hates cheaters. He told me that he has a sister and he would kill her husband if he ever cheated on her. My husband believes that karma would land on his loved ones not directly on him which he doesn't want to happen. I was surprised at my hallucination last night too because he didn't even become cold towards me. They said that if a man is cheating on you, he would start ignoring you or becoming cold but my husband is sweet, and to be honest he became even more in the past months.

“I love you, Heather, and I am not going to cheat on you." He said while caressing my cheeks.

The way he said it is full of love. He is even staring into my eyes so I know that he is not lying to me. I know my man and he is not a cheater like my mother told me. My mom actually didn't like him for some reason and kept on saying that he is like my father but I didn't listen. I remember that she told me that I am going to cry because of him which I did but because of joy, they were tears of joy especially when he proposed to me.

He made me feel like a female lead character in a book or movie when he proposed. We were on a cruise when he did it. I was crying too much that night and everyone around us clapped when I said yes. Our wedding day is like a dream. We both decided to do it at night and there were lights everywhere making it look like the place is sparkling. The venue looks like it was in a fairytale and I was the princess wearing her beautiful gown while walking down the aisle with her prince waiting for her at the altar. It was my dream since I was still a kid but when I grew up I thought that it would never happen however this guy proved me wrong. He made my dreams come true like a fairy godmother and my prince at the same time.

I should know that he won't do anything like that after putting up so much effort. He showed me that marriage can be so wonderful and that I shouldn't fear it. This man made me realize that I can fall in love without any worries that they are going to betray me. That those happy endings are not only in the movies.

“Sorry, babe for doubting you," I said shy at what I acted last night.

“It's all right, dear. Always remember that I love you no matter what condition you have." He said before kissing me once again.

His kiss is so passionate that it is intoxicating. I am feeling myself getting drunk by it until it became aggressive. His hands that were on my back slid down to my bumper. Ethan started gripping them. He is making me feel like I am going to lose myself and he is the only one who makes me feel this way.

“You are the only one who I am going to fvck here in my office." He said in a masculine tone.