Monster's mate

Part IX

- You have all of me Sara. I will spend my life with you. I will give you all my hours. You will have what she never will- me.  But don't make me choose. Don't you do that, ever.- 

Two weeks have passed. Two weeks of absolute pain and horror. I start seeing Roy and Sara together. I don't understand how she managed to forgive him. I wouldn't. 

What I hated most about her was her indifference towards me. She was not one of those bitchy girls you grow so easy to hate upon. She was actually a good being. But she didn't need to be a b***h for me to hate her. Her existence was enough. 

She had no desire to inflict me pain or to rub it my nose. Her only desire was to be with him. To be loved by him. That only made it worse for me. It made me feel unimportant. As that third friend who wants to get between two close ones. As a third wheel. Someone who has no place there but is still trying to push it. 

He stopped watching me. He start watching her. For someone who spent their whole life revenging my death he sure did forget me easily. Then it hit me. All those deaths he was responsible for. They were all committed  because of me. Is this is some sort of karma I am experiencing now? 

I walked in the kitchen for food. It was my only comfort these days. I looked for some snacks when I heard his voice. 

-You are eating too much junk food.- Upon hearing him speak my heart stopped beating. 

-Unlike you, I don't have p***y to eat, to keep me satisfied.- I smirked. 

He grabbed me harshly by the chin. -Watch your mouth lil sister.- 

-Or what? You are gonna eat mine too?- I tried to resist spitting in his face. 

I felt it before I saw it. Burning pain on my cheek. He slapped me. 

-You ungrateful, disrespectful little shit.- He hissed still holding my chin painfully hard. 

-You won't eat this junk food.- He said and took the bag of chips away from my hard grip.

-Because you care so much about me?- I ironically smiled. 

-No.- He looked at me from above. -Because I feel like it.- 

-Are you enjoying this? Want to make me feel powerless?- I resentfully spitted.  

-You are powerless.- He calmly stated while observing my face with great attention. 

-You are also beautiful and you are also mine.- He emphasized on the last word. 

-But speak with me like you did earlier and I will drag you across the floor and humiliate your spoiled ass in front of everyone.- 

I blushed. During this weeks I treated other alphas with great resent and humiliation. And Roy knows It would be great humiliation for me to make me vulnerable in front of them. 

-One day I will escape from this s**t hole. - I tried to make him hurt but instead he just laughed at me. 

-Escape? He ironically repeated. -Love, that would require capability you lack- He turned his back on me and start walking away. 

-You think I am not capable?- I hatefully shot daggers at him.

Before he disappeared I could hear his mocking voice  -You wouldn't make it to the front doors.-    

I was so damn annoyed. Fortunately for me at least everyone else in this castle obeyed me. Not because I was loved by him. I wasn't. But I don't need his love in order to be served. My blood gives me that right. Ironically, I was still not quite sure about what exactly Roy is and what would that make me but I enjoyed the privilege. It felt natural. Unlike his ignorance towards me. 

Mating bond worked its wonders. He was constantly watching all over her like some horny teenager. I bet they f****d too. 

-Ivan?- I called out. He showed so quickly that It gave me creeps. 

-If I ask you to do something you wont question it? You will do it,  right?- I asked. 

-Yes.- Was his simple response. 

At first I thought that he was not much of a talker. later I found out that he was actually not allowed to talk to me. It would be disrespectful by him to indulge in conversation with someone on my position. For the most of the time that made me very lonely. 

-Do you promise?- I childlsly requested. 

- I can't give a promise bigger than what a dog would give.- 

-So you cant give me your word?- I asked confused.

For the first time he looked me straight in the eyes. 

-Please stop with that Miss. Stop treating me with more than I am. You don't need a promise from the worthless dog, like myself in order to make me obey you. You make a wish and I bark. You make an order, and I bite.-  

-Well Ivan, I am not quite comfortable with a whole "dog" thing but one is for sure. I made you formulate more words than I heard you speak in a week.-  I jokingly teased him but he didn't react. 

-Back to my request.- I took a deep breath. 

- I want you to kill Sara.- 

I tried to say that as casually as possible but It came out cringe as f**k. What can I say. I am not used to making death requests. For few long moments he didn't respond. His face was a blank page. 

-I can't do that.- 

-Where did disappear your divine dog-master devotion to me?- I said a bit annoyed. 

-She is his mate.- He whispered unsure. 

-You didn't seem to have a problem with that last time you f****d her.- 

He didn't say anything but I could read it in his eyes. Last time, master was not attached to her. Last time he didn't care for her. Last time he was ready to kill her for me. But things changed. He grew to care for her. Maybe is even in love with her. I lost in my value and she gained in hers. 

-Last time I was ordered by master.- He responded with bowed head. 

-And now you are ordered by me.- I harshly responded. 

-Or I can simply order your death and believe me, no one will have a problem with that.´ I threatened him. 

-If I do what you are asking me to do, I am dead either way.´- 

-Not, If I take a stand for you.- I tried to convince him. 

He stayed quiet. I know he was debating in his mind, If I have enough power to protect him from his crimes. What does power even mean in this place? It equals to how much you are loved by Roy. How much does Ivan think I am loved by my own brother? Hard enough to not suffer myself from this crime- probably not. Hard enough to be able to ask for a mercy upon one of my dogs- most certainly not.  

That is why It took me by surprise when he agreed. 

-I will do it.- 

-Good.- I smiled. 

- But with all due respect after this we are both fucked.- 

-I won't let you die because of that. Because of her. - I tried to assure him even though at this point I was not certain I could even protect myself.

-You won't be able to save your own ass, let alone mine.-  He stated not as complain but as a men accepting his own death. For a simple dog he sure isn't stupid. 

-So why are you doing it?- I curiously asked. 

-A man would not simply jump down the cliff only because I want so.- I stated. 

- Luckily for you, I am not simply a man.- He stated and headed for the doorway. 

-You certainly aren't! You are much greater than men.- I shouted behind him. 

He stopped in his tracks. -No miss. I am much lower.-