The Billionaire Rockstar's Girlfriend (Complete)

Chapter Nine - Is forever too much to ask?

Ryker 

It was four a.m., and I hadn’t slept a wink. Alena tried her best to stay awake because she never wanted me to be awake and alone, but sleep took over her about an hour ago. I was stressing out but trying to keep myself together because I never wanted to have any of my attacks, not tonight. I still had no clue who the text was from, but my mind kept going back to my parents. I don’t understand how whoever it is found out. I changed everything when I ran away. There was no trace of my past because that was how I wanted it. The memories of what my parents did to me were enough. I never needed anything else. 

I had been staring at my phone for the last half an hour, reading the text over and over again. I was tempted to text back and ask who it was, but I don’t know if that would make things worse. Why is this happening? And why now when everything is going right. It is all like some sick joke! Maybe it is karma for the way I acted in the past, for all the women I used and all the people I treated badly. Perhaps I deserve it. I don’t know, but it was f*****g with my head badly. 

I turned back to my phone again and hit reply. I need to know who it is.

Who is this? 

I kept it simple and straight to the point. I waited and waited for a reply, but there was nothing. I know it was late, and it may take whoever it is a while to text back. I sighed, running my fingers through my hair and slid down to the floor, resting against the bed. I honestly felt like crying, but I couldn’t. I don’t want to, not over something like this. I know I have a good team behind me, and they will do everything to get to the bottom of it, but that doesn’t make it any easier. I think if Alena weren’t here, and weren’t in my life, I would be a mess. I would probably be out right now getting drunk, taking a cocktail of drugs and screwing anything in a skirt. I am not that guy anymore, and more than that, I couldn’t do that to Alena. I wasn’t going to let this asshole ruin things with Alena, no matter what it takes. 

I got myself off the floor, putting my phone in the drawer and climbed back into bed. We would have to get up in two hours to get our flight, but two hours of sleep is better than none if I can get them. I turned on my side, facing Alena. I smiled, pushing the hair away from her face. 

“I would be lost without you,” I whispered, kissing her forehead softly. 

I never wanted to wake her up. I lay, watching her for a few minutes, and listening to the sound of her breathing, and it helped me relax a little. 

“I love you, baby girl,” I whispered, “And no matter how all this goes it won’t change a thing between us, I promise,” I added. 

“Ryker,” She whispered tiredly.

“Go back to sleep, sweetheart,” I whispered back. 

She moved over, snuggling into my chest. 

“Are you OK?” She asked, opening her eyes to look at me. 

“Right now, I am because I am here with you,” I said, kissing her softly. 

“I am sorry I fell asleep, have you slept any?” She asked, stroking my face. 

I closed my eyes over, moving into her touch. 

“It is OK, beautiful,” I said, “No, not yet. I am going to try to get a couple of hours now,” I added. 

“I am sorry, Ryker, you don’t deserve any of this,” She whimpered. 

“I will be OK; we will get it all sorted,” I said. 

I wasn’t sure if I believed that, but I don’t want her worrying too much, and I don’t want her getting upset. 

“I am right here, always,” She said, stealing one last kiss from me. 

“I know,” I said, “And how long is always?” I added. 

“For as long as you want me,” She cooed. 

Would it be soon for me to tell her forever? You know what, life is too short. Why not tell her that? 

“Is forever too much to ask?” I asked nervously. 

I watch her closely when I say that. I was hoping it wouldn’t freak her out. A smile started to grow on her lips, and she links her fingers with mine. 

“Not at all,” She smiled, “Forever is fine with me,” She added. 

She made me feel like a teenager, sometimes. I get that giddy, excited way around her. I was so in love with her. I still sometimes think it is all a dream and I am going to wake up. 

“Then forever it is,” I said.

I don’t care if people think we are crazy since we haven’t been together that long, but she is it for me. I don’t doubt that, not for a single moment. 

“I love you, Ryker, and nothing is ever going to get in the way of that,” She said. 

“I love you too, Alena,” I said, “You and me, baby girl,” I added. 

“We got this, my love,” She said, kissing me, “Now, can you please try and get some sleep,” She added. 

“I will try, I promise,” I said.

We shared a goodnight kiss and got snuggled up. I would try my best to sleep, but I don’t know if I will. It only took moments for Alena to fall back asleep. I closed my eyes, but as soon as I did, I got flashbacks from my past, of my parents hurting me. They aren’t even in my life, and they are still hurting me. I hated them! I know that is a strong word, and one that shouldn’t get used lightly, but it was true. 

I tried blocking the thoughts out. I tried blocking them out, and the text but it wasn’t working. I don’t think I would be getting any sleep tonight. Hopefully, in the morning, Natalie will have some answers for me. I don’t even know what she means when she says something was in place since the start for something like this. She has never mentioned anything to me like that, but whatever it is I hope it can help. 

I lay there, staring at the ceiling, trying to think about thoughts. I was trying to get myself excited for the rest of the tour, but I was struggling. A part of me wanted to wake Alena up and ask her if she wanted to just run away with me. I know that is not the answer, but that was how I was feeling. I wanted to disappear, just us and forget everything else. I am sure we could make a life for ourselves somewhere else. I have done it before, disappeared, I am sure I could do again. 

No! What is wrong with me? I don’t want to do that. I will just need to keep a hold of myself and find a way to fix everything! I wasn’t doing this alone. I am sure between everyone we can sort it. I will keep telling myself that anyway.