The Pain Of Loving You

Chapter 8 Friend's advice

Jaden

Oh goodness paano ako makatulog nito kung may katabi akong babae, let alone a woman like her? Paano ko malalampasan ang buong gabi na magkasama kami and the fact that from now on we will be spending the night together? Can I hold myself?

She's very beautiful woman kaya nga di ko napigilan ang sarili dati na angkinin siya kahit sabihin pa natin na lasing kami pareho. My mind that time was still clear but I was clouded with lust and excitement upon looking at her.

Thinking she will be okay after like every woman does kasi di siya pumalag when I touch her.

Though I know she is different from other women I spent with lalo ng nalaman ko na ako ang una and our connection is undeniable. I even determine na bumawi sa kanya but my ego was bruised ng pinilit ako na pakasalan siya.

Ang ayoko ko sa lahat yung napipilitan ako at pangungunahan coz I have my plans already.

My attraction for her that night was tainted with hatred. She is just like other girls na interested sa pera namin at sa pangalan ko. I hated those kinds, who likes an easy money, instant fame.

I felt I was trapped and I hated to be trapped, that's why beginning that day I acted like an asshole towards her. Para ipakita na di niya ako maluluko.

Mali ba ako ng pagkilala sa kanya? Will I give her a chance to show her true self to me?

Inaamin ko din na napahanga niya ako when she utters her condition as I layed down to her the contract. She is determine to prove herself.

Nag eenjoy din ako everytime she retaliates, it seems di ko siya basta basta mapapasunod. I like her gut for standing up to me but I won't let my guard down. I will closely watch her para malaman ang kanyang mga balak.

But how will I get on with my night without touching her again. It's hard to control myself when she is just an inch closer to me.

"Look Jaden you are stronger than your lust. Kapag maging mahina ka, she can easily manipulate you like what happened to Dad. You have to know what she's up to." Bulong ng aking isipan.

This work is just an excuse but it helps para di nya mahalata ang uneasiness ko.

Shitt nakalimutan ko ang kape, yeah this one helps too. Kaya ininom ko yun.

"I haven't tasted a coffee like this before. It's not my usual but I like this better than what I'm used to.

I'm done with my work, it's already 2am. I need to sleep now but when I saw her sleeping nicely, peacefully parang gustong ko siyang yakapin. The memories of that night haunted me for so many nights up to now.

I can still remember how soft is her body next to me. Her sweet lips na ang sarap kagat kagatin. How our body mold together and move in sync as we dance into the rhythm of making love.

Yeah making love not just s*x coz it feels more than that. I have touched her more than once that night and I'm craving her more and more up to now.

Oh goodness, I'm going to lose my mind if I keep thinking of those moments and looking at her. I need to have a cold shower again to wash this heat that I'm feeling right now.

Pagkatapos magshower pumunta ako sa study room para dun matulog coz I can't sleep near her with this thinking.

Ngayon lang ito nangyari sa akin, can't get over of the wild s*x I had. I usually forget after the night event and move on. Ni pangalan ng mga babaeng kaulayaw di ko maalala.

But with her I can vividly remembers everything like it just happened now. How she scream, how she moans under my touch and I like every freaking moment of it.

Kinabukasan maaga akong bumangon kasi di rin ako nakatulog ng maayos. I went to work feeling light headed.

When 6 o'clock in the evening hit, I heard call from Leston, one of my friends.

"Hey Man." Pasimula kong bati. I haven't heard and meet the guys since the last event namin sa club.

"Hi Bro, nabalitaan ko sa aking pinsan na kinasal ka na daw? Is this true?" He said it with urgency. Di na ako magtataka dahil pinsan niya ang kaibigan ni Anya.

"Yeah I am." Relax kong sagot.

"Really? This needs to be celebrated. I will call the guys and we will hit the Club Crimson tonight okay? We will wait for you." I guess meeting my friends help para pag-uwi ko mamaya tulog na ako agad.

I got into the club na pagmamay-ari ni Lyle one of our friends, lahat sila andun na. Ako nalang ang hinihintay.

"Hey Bro, ano itong nabalitaan namin kay Leston na kasal ka na daw? Who is the girl? Dumating na ba si Mara?" Seems di pa nila alam kung sino ang pinakasalan ko.

"I thought nasa New York pa siya under contract?" Sabat naman ni Mike na may pagtataka.

"Why you keep it a secret Man? We could have been there to attend in your wedding." Interject naman ni Rig.

Tiningnan ko silang lahat. I think I need to clarify everything with them. They are my closest friends, I can trust them. Alam namin ang bawat isa. No secret sa grupo namin.

"It's not Mara and our wedding is not what you expected. We are having a contract that will last for 2 years."

"What? Care to explain. Who's the girl?" Sunod sunod pa nilang tanong.

"Remember those girls na nakasama natin last few weeks ago na friends ng pinsan ni Leston?"

"Yeah we remembered them, the hot young girls." Ngiti pa ni Zero, I know he is interested in one of them.

"The girl I'm with the whole night, remember her?"

"Yeah, well she is very pretty and hot. And you two are into each other the whole time. Did something happen the both of you that night?" React uli ni Mike.

"Yeah the stupid me brought her at our house kasi di na niya maaalala ang bahay ng kanyang kaibigan. She is wasted already kaya sa bahay ko na dinala at malaman ni Dad then exploded in the social media. Things just blow up suddenly." Simply kong sabi.

"Bro its not your kind to be reckless. Bakit mo dinala sa bahay nyo when you knew the rules? You could have brought her in the hotel." Lyle is right. I have been so reckless that night which is not me. I always think ahead.

"You must like her that much for you to gamble your future, though we saw your connection as well, not bad Bro." Wika naman ni Rig.

"So you mean your dad have found your affairs and he force you na panagutan ang babae? Tumango ako kay Mike.

"Yeah I remembered that you were a hot topic in the internet for a while but I thought it was just a gimmick of some media and how it became true?" Zero says.

"Wait bro di ba may rules ang Dad mo na walang kayong dadalhin sa inyong bahay unless papakasalan nyo. So that's the reason why you need to marry her?" Tanong pa ni Leston.

"Yeah it's true and you knew Dad he is an old folk, a firm believer of an old ways. So he insisted na pakasalan ko ang babaeng yun."

"It means you had a shot gun wedding, pero Bro di ang tipo mo ang basta-bastang magpapadikta and knowing your Dad he hates gold diggers as well." Di mapigilang komento naman ni Lyle.

"Dad recognized her ng magkita sila in the morning. I still don't know if she planned it. But she is the daughter ng kabanggaan namin dati na namatay sa car crash and he helped that family since then. He thinks of her as one of his daughters kaya di pumayag si Dad na di ko siya pakasalan."

"You think na ginamit niya ang Dad mo para ka makuha?" Di makapaniwalang wika ni Billy.

"I still can't figure it out. All I know is I hated to be trapped. Ayokong dinidiktahan ako and I always planned my future or what I do next."

"Bro baka naman it was just a coincidence kasi by looking at her she is a good girl and my cousin vouch for her. That night lang daw nalasing yun. Sinisisi pa nga ng magkaibigan ang sarili nila dahil pinilit nilang painumin yun." Wika naman ni Leston.

"Yeah she doesn't look like a gold digger. One of the good kind actually. I even like her kaya lang nauna ka na." Sabat pa ni Billy that made me frown. What does he means? Thinking someone likes her doesn't set well with me.

"What do you mean Billy, do you have a hots on my girl?" Di ko mapigilang mag-init ang ulo sa narinig.

"Relax bro, di mo ako masisi kasi maganda naman talaga siya but if you already married her I'll back down. I know our sacred vow. Walang sulutan."

I feel better after I heard that.

"Bro, do you have plans na seryosuhin siya? What do you mean by contract?" Tanong naman ni Mike.

"Nagpakasal kami para pagbigyan si Dad. You know naman na I had promised Mara to marry after her contract ended. So I offered Anya a contract of 2 years after that mag-divorce kami."

"At pumayag siya, Bro? What if mainlove ka before your contract end?"

"Well we can discuss our situation as the day goes. I'm open to anything. I just want to make sure na di pera ang habol niya sa amin."

"What will happen if Mara knows sa iyong pagpapakasal?"

"She would know dahil balak ni Dad na i-announce anytime from now ang kasal namin to shut off the issue brewing."

"What if bro seryosohin mo nalang siya since you two are married already. I think it's time for you to move on from Mara. Eversince ikaw palagi ang nag-aadjust sa kanya. It's been a while na gusto mo ng magpakasal but she keeps you waiting because she knows you will always be there." Biglang suggest ni Leston sa akin.

I just look at him and i know he is serious.

"Bro me too, i agree with Leston. Anya is a better choice. Di pa man namin siya kilala but we can sense that she's different from the women you sleep with, a good kind. Try to know her better, who knows she is your future." Seryoso pang sabi ni Zero.

"The woman you married nakita namin ang chemistry nyong dalawa. Your Dad likes her so why not pursue her instead? We're not against on Mara but you know we are not in favor of her as well. Just open your mind Bro and we are all here to support you." Suggest pa ni Mike.

They just saw Anya for one time but all of them are doting on her. Maybe they are right baka nadala lang ako sa emosyon ko that time. They may see things that I haven't seen.

"Thanks mga bro, I may consider your advice. But for now I need time para kilalanin muna siya."