Chapter 27: Laying Everything On The Table And Expressing Our Emotions
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Rudra
"You promised that you'll be the first to break my heart" Rani's voice braking. She was right I did say that to her but I forgotten all about it.
"Yes I did say that but I also said I hope that I wouldn't come to that" I reasoned with her.
"Well it happened. You officially broken my heart. You can cross that on your list of promises that you gave to me" she said bitterly, looking away from me. I let go of her face and loosen my grip on her wrist, and rolling off of her. Sitting on the edge of the bed.
"I'm sorry Rani, I was hurt to what you said about our relationship" I said remorsefully.
"And I wasn't? You practically left me. You was cold towards me"
"I didn't left you Rani. I could never leave you" I said seriously.
"But you did. You said and I quote 'If you can't see us being together then I'll let you go. You're not bounded to me anymore. You can do what you like for now on. I won't be in your way' end of quote or are you denying it?" Rani questioned furiously. I signed. I really did say that. I really did left her.
"No I don't denied it. I did say that to you but I didn't mean it. I thought that's what you wanted. I thought I didn't want to be with me" I said honestly.
"I did. I do want to be with you"
"Then lets be together. Nothing is stopping us not to" I said reassuring. Rani gave me are you serious look.
"What? Why are you giving me that look?"
"You're forgotten one important thing, Rudra"
"What's that?" I asked.
"The blood contract" Rani reminding me. Oh I forgot about that.
"I honestly forgot about that" I said sheepishly. Rani wasn't impressed with that.
"You're telling me you generally forgotten about the blood oath contract?" She asked skeptically, raising a brow at me.
"Yes" bluntly, Rani's face scrunched up. She looked mad.
"HOW THE HELL YOU FORGET ABOUT THAT? IT LITUALLY AFFECT YOUR LIFE" she yelled angrily at me. She was lived now.
"I don't know. Just did" I said honestly. Shrugging. Rani was beet red of rage now.
"You could die if you breeched the contract Rudra" she growled. I know she's extremely furious with me right now but I couldn't help how sexy she looked when she's mad. It's actually turning me on.
"I know that. You don't need to remind me" I grumbled.
"It seems like I do as you keep forgetting about it. You should take this seriously" Rani retorted.
"You're right. I should take this seriously" I agreed. Rani looked calmer now.
"However, I still don't understand why we can't be together" I questioned. Rani face fallen.
"You wouldn't understand" she said, sounding defeated. She was looking down on her lap now. I lifted her chin with my index finger so she can look at me.
"Try me. Let me understand. I want to know" I softly encourage her. She took a deep breath.
"I'm afraid" she whispered.
"Afraid? Afraid of what?"
"I'm afraid that you won't love me once you married. I'm afraid you'll leave me. That is why I said we couldn't be together even though I want to" she confessed. Oh is that what's all about? She think I'll leave her? I actually laughed at that.
"You're afraid I'll leave you once I'm married? Are you crazy? That would never happen. Ever" I assured her. She's nuts if she think that. Doesn't she know how crazy I am about her.
"You don't get it Rudra. If you get married, I'll be aloan. I have no one" she signed out.
"But you won't. You'll have me. I won't leave you" I said sincerely to her.
"Yes you will. You did it once, you can do it again" she stated.
"I'm sorry about that, Rani. I really am. I will never leave you again. Please believe me?" Begged but she looked like she didn't believe me.
"You can't guaranteed that"
"Yes I can. I'll make sure of that" I sad comforting. She just shook her head and burst out crying. I pulled her to my chest and wrapped my arm around her. She grabbed my shirt into her fist, sobbing. I felt her tears on my shirt but I didn't care; I just let her emotions come out.
"I'm alone Rudra. So alone. You don't know how it feels when everyone treats you like garbage. Like you're nothing. Treated worse than so scum" she sobbed. I was rubbing her back.
"Do you even how it feels when people constantly abuse you, insult you physically, mentally and emotionally? Telling you that they wish you were dead on a daily basis?" She said as she continued crying.
"They hate me Rudra. They hate me. Everyone hate me here. They told so everyday. They say I'm curse, a monster, a blood sucking demon" she sobbed some more. She hiccups each word she said. I kept on comforting her.
"And this is all your fault" she said viciously, poking me in my chest with her finger. I was dumbfounded. How was I the blame?
"My fault? How's is it my fault?" I asked shocked. She leaned back to face me with her tears streaken face.
"It's your fault I'm in this strupid pack. I wish I wasn't here. I wish you didn't brought me at the auction. I wish I never even met you. I hate you. I hate you, I hate you, I hate you, I hate you" she spat. Punching me and pushing me in the process. I didn't stop her. I let her hit me if it makes her feel better.
"I hate you. I wish I was dead, then I won't be a burden anyone" Rani was crying hestirical now. I never knew she felt that way but I don't like how she talk s lowly of herself. My heart ache for her.
"Hey, don't you dare say that. Ever. You're the strongest person I know and you have caring soul. You may be a demon but you're no monster and you're definitely not cursed" I said sternly. Whipping the tears from her eyes. She sniffed.
"I don't want to be strong anymore. I'm tired being strong. I'm not you Rudra. You don't care what people think of you but I do. I want feel wanted. I want to feel loved. I want people to like me. More Importantly, I want people to treat me like an actually person" she sniffed out. I cupped her face and looked at her dead in the eyes.
"I'll be you're strength, I'll carry your burden, I'll be your darkness and your chaos as long as you'll be my light, my shining star, my hope, my peace" I promised her. Leaning my forehead to her's.
"Ok" she replied. Her eyes closed, sniffing my scent to calm herself down.
"I love you, Rani, my pretty little demon and I'm not expect you to say it back. I'm telling this cause it's true, I do love you. You're my everything. I'll do anything for you. I even give you my life if it makes you happy" I said to her truthfully. Starting to get emotional.
"Just promise me you won't leave me. Promise me you won't talking about wishing that you were dead cause believe it or not I'm not strong without you. You're my rock. If you die then I die and I'm not ready to die so you're not ready to die. Just promise me please. Please" pleaded with her.
"I promise Rudra" she whispered. I gave her kiss on the lips. Putting all of emotions into it. When I broke the kiss, Rani was looking into my eyes with a small smile on her face.
"And Rudra"
"Yes?"
"Dido" she answered and gave me a peck on the lips. I gave her butterflies kisses all over her face. She giggled. I love her giggles. Feeling relieved that got her back to her normal self.
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