Heart of Yours

Chapter 29

Samika's POV

"Love!" I hear Devon's voice and open my eyes. I look around and this time, I am at the pond. I don't know if I am still in the dream or in reality.

Devon is looking at me with his eyes so curious and concerned. I hold him first with my hand and his touch feels solid. I release a sigh of relief and quickly hug him, making him hug me even tighter.

"What's wrong? Why are you here?" Devon asks me and I look around again. And remember what happened last night. I was here, summoning the spirit actually.

"Is everything alright?" Devon asks me, as he pulls away from the hug and I nod at him. The sun is just about to rise. I guess he found me here when he didn't find me in bed with him.

I don't even remember when I fell asleep. I don't even remember if I even completed watching the dream before I fell asleep.

I walk with Devon back to the pack, and since the sun hasn't risen yet, the pack is still asleep. I guess I will sleep for a while too.

Devon asks me if I want to sleep with him or in the guest room. I look at him weirdly before walking to our room and plopping on the bed. Devon goes to the wolf run alone without me. I don't know why, but I don't really have any energy left in me to go have a wolf run.

I stare at the ceiling fan. It is spinning restlessly and I don't know why it feels comforting just watching it that way. I don't want to stay here anymore. I want to go back. To Brent's place. And live my life like nothing has happened.

I miss my life back there. I imagined a new life with Nyle after he got shunned. But all of it went into vain when I killed Alpha Jerome. I then became the Alpha. I don't want Nyle again. I don't want to be an Alpha either.

I just miss those days when I didn't have to think too hard on what to do next. Now I am left with nothing but so many problems in my head. So many but I don't know how to solve them. The biggest of them was striking a bargain with the spirit.

It talked to me in the form of riddles. Telling me that it will show me what it wants. But what it showed me were just scenes from my own life. Something I already know.

I sometimes force myself to believe that I killed him because of the way he treated Nyle and Devon. But deep down even I know that I reacted that way when I saw Alpha Jerome beat Devon uncontrollably.

Our bond instantly clicked and I knew it. I saw it. The way he was growing soft only for me. And the way I looked at him like he was someone I could lean on. In all honesty, I can really lean on him. I cannot protect myself like Devon does and I am so sure about it. But that was also something that happened in the past. I am different now. I can even bring Alphas to their knees mercilessly.

I sigh, finally realizing that it is a new day and I need to get up and start my day already.

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Georgia, wrap me up in all your

I want you in my arms

Oh, let me hold you

I'll never let you go again like I did

Oh, I used to say

I would never fall in love again until I found her

I said, "I would never fall unless it's you I fall into"

I was lost within the darkness, but then I found her

I found you

Georgia, pulled me in, I asked to

Love her once again

You fell, I caught you

I'll never let you go again like I did

Oh, I used to say

I would never fall in love again until I found her

I said, "I would never fall unless it's you I fall into"

I was lost within the darkness, but then I found her

I found you

I would never fall in love again until I found her

I said, "I would never fall unless it's you I fall into"

I was lost within the darkness, but then I found her

I found you

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I open my eyes to Devon singing me that song. Sometimes it feels like it's our song. The way he sings that. The way he makes me feel like I am the only one he looks at, whenever he sings the song pretty much says a lot.

"I need to tell you something," I say and his good mood instantly wavers a little, but he nods at me nonetheless asking me to tell what that is already.

"So, remember I told you I would go to The Madfurs pack two days later," I whisper and he nods.

"Well, I want to go there today," I tell Devon and he is already standing up and walking out of the room.

I groan and toss on the bed. The dreams focused on The Madfurs more this time. What if the answer is there? What if the person the spirit wants is actually in The Madfurs pack?

I would kill anyone except Devon. Hell, I would even kill myself rather than killing Devon. I get up and follow Devon, while he is in the kitchen making coffee for both of us.

I hug him from behind but he pushes me away. I hug him again and he pushes me again. And this time, I hugged him tighter with my Madfur strength and he didn't even have to do anything. All he has to do is stand there and enjoy the mate sparks.

"I don't even like the fact that you want to go there," Devon tells me as he looks at me.

"I know. But that's who I am, Devon" I tell him and he groans.

"Is it necessary?" He asks me and I nod again.

"How about I stay with you for a few days?" He asks me and I laugh. But when I laughed and he was serious, it was when I understood he actually meant what he just said.

"You really want to stay in your enemy's pack? What if they do something that triggers you and that creates distance between us?" I ask him and he thinks about it for a while.

He hands me the cup of coffee and takes his. We both walk to the living room and on the couch. Devon doesn't say anything. He is just drinking his coffee as he is in deep thought.

"Yes. Okay," he says and I look at him confused. Because I actually had an essay prepared in my mind to convince him that me leaving today would do us good. And the main reason being if I leave early, I can come back early. But I did not expect for him to be okay with it this soon. Makes me wonder if I missed a step. If I missed a crucial detail.

"You are okay?" I ask him and he nods again.

"But I am going to drive you to your pack. And I am going to stay there until I see you successfully enter their pack lands. I just want to be sure," he says and I laugh hugging him. I accidentally dropped all the coffee from his cup on to him and before I thought that he would get angry about it, he laughed and let it go.

"Alright. When do you want to leave?" He asked me and I absolutely did not expect this when he just said okay to me leaving for The Madfurs pack.

"How about now?" I ask him, because I want things to fasten up when he is in a good mood. If I make a minute late, then he is going to have second thoughts about it. Which, I absolutely didn't want. And I do not want to.

"Okay. Take a shower and pack your bags," he says and I just had to pinch myself to cross check if this is a dream or actually reality. I really thought he wouldn't let go of me without a hand to hand combat and even then he would find new ways to let me stay here and not at The Madfur pack.

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It only took us a couple of hours to get everything ready. Cass and Tyler are here. Tyler, the usual one doesn't have any solid expression on his face. He is mostly neutral. The most of the expression I saw on him was when Devon got stabbed with a silver knife dipped in wolfsbane. If people didn't know me and Devon, they would have definitely thought that Tyler was actually Devon's mate and not me.

"I will miss you," Cass says as she hugs me and I hug her tighter, but realized I should go easy on my Madfur strength because she started choking for air and I had to let her go.

I move forward to give Tyler a hug but he takes a step back saying it's all good. It's funny but sad at the same time. Just mere weeks ago I was the weakest amongst everyone here. I only had the Alpha title. Nothing more special. But now, with The Madfur strength, I am able to do everything so easily. Even Alphas listen to my tone, strangely.

Devon loads my bags in the trunk and it's finally time for me to move. This is me moving forward. I want to see what my future holds. I want to know how I can stop myself from killing Devon. I really want to know more of who I am and where I came from.

I kiss Maxie and Austin on their cheeks and say bye, as I sit in the car with Devon who just has a straight face. I would like to think that deep down he is feeling bad that he will have to miss me. I only hope he shouldn't be having second thoughts when we are in the middle.

"Will you take care of my dad?" I ask Devon and he shrugs.

He came here to this pack just two days ago, but it's been two days and he didn't utter a single word. Devon threw him in the cells and I couldn't even say no. I wonder what he is upto or if it's finally his problems coming and biting his ass again.

Karma is real and I f*****g believe in that b***h!

"Don't you worry about your father. He is in safe hands," Devon says and the more he is acting this way, the more I am worried if he has some hidden agenda happening that I don't know about.

"Is everything okay, Devon?" I ask him and he chuckles as he looks at me. He seems okay to me but his behavior is different. What made him change this suddenly was that even in the morning he was mad when I told him I wanted to go to The Madfur pack.

"Everything is okay. I just realized that I have to accept the fact that you have a life on your own too. And you should know more about yourself. I wouldn't stop you from doing anything that makes you happy," Devon says.

And right now, at this moment I love him more than anything else and anyone else. I ask him to stop the car and he looks at me in confusion.

I grab him by his shirt collar and pull him closer to me, kissing him softly. Devon takes just a few seconds before he kisses me back.

"I love you," I say in between the kisses.

"I love you," he says back, getting back to the kiss and only this time, the kiss gets hungrier.

"Devon," I say as I pull away and I look at his eyes filled with lust. I know that he wants this because I want the same too.

"One last time before we part ways for a while," I said and he understood what I meant.

"How about we recreate it? The same game that we once played?" Devon asks me with a smirk.

"What game?" I ask him and he smirks.

Oh no no no no no. This is not going to end well. This is legit not going to end well.

"Try my best to not give in," he says and I raise my eyebrow.

"If I win?" I ask him. Because what's the fun in a game when there is no reward? What's the fun when there is no spice?

"Well, if you win, I'd do anything you ask me to do. And if I win, you'd do anything I like. For an entire day," he says.

I love this. A day full of Devon listening to me? Without a question? Doing everything I am going to ask him to do. f**k yes! Now this is truly a reward if I win.

"But what if I win and you won't even be around because we don't belong to the same packs, at least for a while," I say and Devon thinks about it because he climbs up the roof of the car and I follow him.

"A small kick and spice. I hope you remember this scene. We are just going to recreate it. Minus, the bet because you wouldn't even be here to fulfill your end of the bet if you lose," he says and gets down the roof of the car and leans into his car, pulling out his kerchief from the pocket and I wonder why he even got down if the kerchief was in his pocket.

I already understood what he was trying to do. But I don't voice it out. I am excited. A lot.

I wait until he ties it around my eyes. Now this is the blindfold kink that always keeps me wanting more and more, but Devon always ends it abruptly. Literally every single time!

I am on his lap again. Thanks to the blindfold. I can feel everything ten times better now. The way he is touching me. The way he is making me feel things. I wish we could have done this while having s*x. It could have magnified the entire experience of it.

Devon holds my face with his both hands and kisses me tenderly. He is gentle and yet, it is already the best kiss I have ever had.

Sparks. Everywhere. I feel them on my palms. I feel them on the base of my neck. I feel them on my lower waist. I also feel them in my head, that is the intensity of the action right now.

A huge part of me wants to fight. To push him. And I want to push him so bad. Like, push him and slap him so hard.

I clench my left hand.

I raise my right hand.

I raise till it reaches the back of his head.

I bury my fingers in his hair and pull him closer.

His hair feels soft. I unclench my left hand and place that on his chest. We start moving back. Rapidly. It's probably.. how many steps I don't know, but all I know is he pushed me to the wall.

He locks me between him and the car.

He then bites my lower lip, making me gasp. His tongue enters my mouth without prior notice. The sparks are uncontrollable now. I don't know what to do.

I pull him a little closer. I feel his tongue exploring my mouth. And finally, as if my own tongue has a brain and now it lit up with what a kiss is, finally fights back with his own for dominance.

Devon's right hand travels down to my waist. He gives it a gentle squeeze and my heart does somersaults.

I agree I have slept with Nyle before. But he definitely never made me feel this way. Devon is just kissing me! He just gently pinched my waist and every single cell in my body went crazy.

Both of us can feel our wolves howling! Yes. My wolf too. It's howling like a b***h in the back of my head.

I am not sure if they are happy howls or angry howls. But I feel that he blocked his wolf. So I block mine too. I don't know how I did that. Maybe she just shut her mouth on her own. And I thought I was blocking her.

Devon then pulls me a little more closer as if there is already any space existing between us.

I have to stop.

He starts kissing my cheek.

I have to stop.

He starts kissing my jaw.

I have to stop.

He starts kissing my neck.

I really have to stop.

I grab him by his hair again and kiss him more dominantly.

I bite Devon's lower lip a little too hard because he gasps and moans at the same time. I don't seem to care at this point.

The only thought running in my mind as of now is... I want him. I want all of him! So I quickly grab the kerchief that's covering my eyes and look at him. I kissed him once again, tasting the frostiness that he had earlier.

I pull away and unbutton his shirt. He tries to stop me and I look at him. He is not looking at me. He is staring at my hand that is on the button over his chest.

"You want this to stop?" I ask him.

He shakes his head gently. Good. He leans towards me. He hasn't kissed me yet, but his face is so close to mine. Oh My God he is just so beautiful I want to kiss him again. And again. And again and again.

He plays with a few strands of my hair that's falling on my face. He looks into my eyes and tucks my hair behind my air.

"You want this to stop?" He asks me again.

"No. No please," I say and he only chuckles as he is on top of me again, and this time my breast is in his mouth.

I slightly open my mouth at the way he is making me feel right now and I know I might not make it to The Madfur pack if he does this again and again.

Because I will freaking miss him more and I will want to get back to the pack house and let him f**k me like he wants.

"Okay. okay. Stop stop stop," I say and he pulls away, looking at me confused and I already have my blindfold off.

"At this rate, if we continue this for one more minute I will come back with you to The Blood Rose Pack," I say, making Devon laugh out loud.

And honestly, it feels nice that he is laughing. The last few weeks were tough on both of us. Both of us dealt with everything in a very harsh way. And I don't want that again. All of it feels better now that Devon is actually laughing.

As we sit back in the car and Devon starts driving again, I suddenly realize just how far Devon and I have come. We hated each other in the beginning. Well technically he didn't hate me but I did. I hated him so much but now that I think of it, I hated him because of the things I heard rather than things I had experienced.

He was never cruel to me. He was always nice to me. He always listened to me. He was the one I found at the pond and even then he was good to me. From day one he was true to me and only me. I cannot even imagine how it might have felt for him and his wolf, watching me with Nyle in the beginning.

And now that I think of Nyle, I wonder why I fell for him. Devon once told me that I did not really fall in love with Nyle. But the comfort he brought me when my life was in chaos. Maybe that was true because after that phase, the Nyle I looked at wasn't the same anymore.

"What's going on in that pretty mind of yours?" Devon asks me and I shake my head, with a smile.

"Nothing. I'll just miss you," I say and he smiles at me again.

"Oh yeah. That reminds me of something," he says and stops the car once again before giving me a what looks like a small cauldron. It is small enough to fit in my bag and it's actually so cute.

"The Madfurs don't really use phones so there won't be any service there," Devon says and just like that, my heart almost stops.

Then how am I going to talk to him?

"So I asked Tyler's mom to make this for us," he says with a smile and he looks like an excited kid right now.

"This is yours and this is mine," he shows me another cauldron and I smile at him.

"So whenever you want to tell me something, all you have to do is write that in a letter, put that here and burn it," he says and I just want to demonstrate if it's true or not.

I quickly grabbed a small paper and pen, write I love you on it, put that in my cauldron and lit a match along with the paper.

Once the fire was off and the smoke was gone too, I see the same letter with the same message but in a normal condition appear in Devon's cauldron.

I squeal at him and hug him. At least we have a means to talk to each other and from now, it will at least be bearable I guess.