A Little Bit Married

However Long It Takes

I heard Gray slowly walk in and close the door behind him. I bit down on my lips, my heart going even wilder in my chest as he walked slowly towards the bed.

I felt him lean close, and the sheets moved a little to cover Kris. He lingered there for a long moment, and I was tempted to open my eyes and check what he was doing.

He was leaned over Kris, gently running his fi hers down his hair, his eyes tender. A wave of disappointment washed over me, and I bit down on my lips.

He hadn't even come to see me or anything. He was just here because of Kris. It felt awful, and I closed my eyes again, tears stinging the back.

I wanted to wake up, yell at him that he had just told me he loved me, and while I was happy he was accepting Kris, I wanted some of him too.

A lot of him.

I let out a small sigh, a single tear escaping from under my eyes.

Suddenly, I felt his hand warm and soft against my cheek, his breaths hot against my skin as he leaned over me.

It didn't help that I was lying on my back, and he was close. Too darn close.

"She is so beautiful when she sleeps, too."

I felt heat rise up my cheeks, and I nush prayed he wouldn't notice it. He leaned and kissed my forehead, and I felt my toes curl.

Slowly, he moved, and I had assumed that was all the kisses I would be getting. It was enough, but not quite. I could never have enough with him.

He leaned and kissed both my cheeks and the tip of my nose, then my eye lids too.

"Goodnight, Angeline," he whispered, his hand running down my hair. "I love you."

My heart melted all over again, and I swallowed as he leaned away and tucked me in, too.

It was a decision I made in less than three seconds, but I knew I had to do it. Feeling him leave like that, to be alone in another room or his study, with thoughts about me not reciprocating his feelings, it pushed me.

I sat up, grabbing his hand to stop him from leaving, my heart thumping hard in my chest.

He turned to me, his eyes slightly wide, his brows furrowed.

I swallowed, biting down on my lips. "I... You... you said you don't wanna sleep without me."

He swallowed, then slowly nodded. "I will be fine."

"I won't be," I said, my voice low, my chest heaving. "I need you to sleep in here, with me. I need to feel your presence all night."

He titled his head to the side, a sad smile spreading on his lips . "Isn't that a little selfish, Evangeline? By the time the sun rises, you know I will want more, even more desperately than I already do."

"I know," I said, my voice a low whisper. "Want more. Want all. It's going to be yours anyway, however long this stupid cowardice lasts."