Funny
1205 Words
Arkin
I laughed and laughed so hard Saddie was looking at me with an annoyed face.
Can I?
Shvt!
Did I just really entertain the idea of Fico actually asking me to be his boyfriend what the actual Fico!?!
“Sorry!”
I told my best friend before I pursed my lips to stop me from laughing again.
It’s a good thing that the guests are already in there party spirit that they didn’t bother checking on the lunatic who was laughing hysterically.
“Okay, fine! I’m sorry. You’re serious?”
I asked my best friend who was still looking not so very happy at me.
“Between us two. About all these—you’re the only one who’s not serious and guess why is that?”
Saddie told me with a serious face.
“I no longer wanted to get hurt again. That’s why. I just know where this is all going.”
My best friend scoffed.
“Really now. So tell me, where is this going then? How can you be so sure you’ll get hurt again?”
I blinked at Saddie.
Why is she suddenly so serious?
“Arkin, I know that whatever I say or whatever everyone says, at the end of it all, it’s still your call. But. Take it from someone whose wedding made it possible for you to reminisce and meet your past: It wasn’t always rainbows and butterflies my love. I’m marrying the love of my life not because we were always happy but because we were always together even if it wasn’t. I’m not saying that you should also marry Fico right now. All I’m saying is, if getting hurt meant knowing what he truly feels—what you really feel, before being immensely happy, then why not take the chance, right?”
Saddie was holding my hands I didn’t know were too called when I felt her warmth.
“I know it may be easier said than done but trust me Arkin, the rewards will be worth it.”
I looked at my best friend smiling at me.
Yes, she’s always been the smart one between us two. But she rarely ever gives me this kind of talk.
“I can see you’re struggling. Both of you actually. I don’t think that’s the case if this is all just because one of you is bored. Stop beating yourself up Arkin. Give it a chance instead.”
Saddie pulled me in for a hug before she let go of my hand.
“That’s the last of my intrusion up until my wedding. Good luck! I’m gonna go back to my main job alright!”
She blew me a kiss in the air before she disappeared to the party and I stood there thanking the heavens for my best friend.
What she said did not really make everything easier with Fico but knowing that she’s always there and that I have someone I’ll always come home to when everything gets south made me a little braver.
“Hey stranger!”
I was so deep into thinking that I didn’t notice Fico until he was standing beside me.
“I brought you this.”
He raised a platter of chopped fruits at me.
I looked at him before I took it and smiled.
“What?”
Fico burrowed his brows at me when I continued looking at him.
How did it ever go that bad with Fico?
We were okay.
Better even.
Whatever it was that we had back then, that was the best whatever I ever had.
I was young back then.
We both were.
And we’re both stupid too.
But we were also happy.
I could tell.
Then I got heart broken.
But I was able to get through it.
It wasn’t easy, but I did.
And I’m older now.
More mature.
What could be worse!?!
“Fico?”
I asked.
“Mmmm?”
He hummed.
Mouth full of grapes.
“Do you ever wonder what could have happened if things didn’t happen the way they did and I didn’t leave?”
Fico turned towards me.
Our eyes met.
“I shouldn’t have let you leave.”
He said quietly.
“I shouldn’t have let you think I let you leave all these time.”
I blinked at him before I concentrated on the fruit platter.
Nothing’s changed.
I still get so weak when it come to Fico’s eyes.
“It took me a year before I could finally go out there and pretend like you didn’t happen—or so I thought. I dated left and right to prove that theory and it did work. For a while. Until it no longer. Then I tried reaching out to you, but to no avail.”
I looked at Fico with furrowed brows.
He laughed when he saw I struggled putting a chunk of pineapple in my mouth.
“I sent you an email. Twice. But you never responded. I took the message.”
He said as took a napkin and wiped my face.
“You emailed me!?!”
He nodded.
He sent me emails!?!
Why didn’t I get the chance to read it!?!
And if I did read it, what could have happened!?!
“Don’t stress yourself too much about it. I bet it’s already shrouded with thousand of emails if it weren’t deleted already. It wasn’t even so much of a message.”
He said when he noticed how I was quite.
“I know. But still...”
It could have made a difference, right?
“I begged Saddie to give it to me. It almost took a year or maybe more before she let on. And told me to never tell you.”
I narrowed my eyes at Fico.
“But you’re telling me now.”
He nodded.
“I wanted to be honest. I wasn’t back then. And I lost you.”
I bit on my lower lip and let go of the platter.
I put it on a random table before I regarded Fico.
“Fico, you can’t just say stuff like that to me. Or even do stuff as you please. It’s. I. It maybe nothing to you but it’s different for me, alright? I know it’s not your fault. Not now, not then, it was never your fault that I feel this way but please, just to make it easier for me, can you stop this?”
This is embarrassing, I know.
Only if I had not taken a few shots of alcohol, then maybe I wouldn’t be able to say stuff like this and look at Fico in the eye while doing so.
But I’m here now and there’s no turning back.
“Stop what?”
Fico asked.
“Giving me hope. Making me ask the what ifs and just basically get stupid and crazy all over again!”
Damn!
It’s the alcohol!
It really is the alcohol.
I groaned and shut my eyes, covered it with both hands.
I had no intention of doing so but my eyes are starting to well up I might as well throw myself into the pool to make it more embarrassing.
“Arkin.”
He took my hands off my eyes and took the liberty to dry my eyes.
I was so embarrassed to even stop him.
“Just so you know, I meant to do all those things and more, if it meant I get to have another chance with you.”
I gaped at Fico and with what he had to say.
My mind clouded so did my eyes.
All I could ever think of is Fico standing in front of me. His hands cupping my face. His deep setted eyes looking right back at me and how much I miss him all this time despite me telling myself other wise.
“Will you give me another chance, Arkin?”
I could barely hear what Fico said when the background music turned up and everybody gathered on the dance floor to put some groove on.
I bit on my lower lip and caged Fico’s face in mine the same way he did mine and the next thing I know, I was already kissing him.
I didn’t really think this is how thing would go.
Funny.
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