Addicted to Redemption

Shaken

Kate

I tried to collect my thoughts and gather my courage so when Dean wakes up, I'd be able to tell him about today. I felt ashamed and in pain. He got angry because of me... I got Grim and Donna disappointed... I'm causing trouble for this family too. But it felt nice to give a little back to Bethany from what I've received for years. I hears footsteps approaching but suddenly change their way. Soon after that, I heard Dean arguing with someone so I've decided to check on him to make sure he isn't having a hard time due to his previous attitude. Honestly... Dean scared me. He looked really good but frightening at the same time when he got mad. It was a nice feeling that he was mad on my accord, but I got scared that he might hurt someone because of me. I didn't want to taint Dean with my dirty hands and soul. He is too good for me to ruin him by being around. Maybe it would be better to keep my distance... I thought hesitating at his door, but I go curious about the voice I heard. I opened the door and a really handsome boy a bit older than us, immediately smiled at me and jumped off of Dean's desk. He walked to me like a predator but his smile was so handsome and cute that I immediately felt uncomfortable. He grabbed my hand and gave me a kiss on it like gentleman in old times, which was in a strong contrast with his appearance. He was the same height as Dean, but in his light brown hair there were blonde stripes, in his lip and eyebrows he wore several piercings and both of his arms were fully tattooed. The symbols got me a bit enchanted as they ended around his neck.

gave a peck on top of it.

- Veny at your service my lady! - he smirked but before I could've said a word or do anything, Dean pushed him back. He fall on his butt but jumped up immediately and crossed his muscular arms in front of his wide chest. Dean trembled and I tried to take a step back.

- Leave her alone. - Veny grinned at Dean which clearly annoyed him even more.

- Where's the fun in that? Fine I'll see you later Katherine! It was my pleasure to meet you! - Veny disappeared with a white and green mist, as if he tossed some glitters in the air like magicians. I tried to look collected when Dean turned to me. I knew my face might be a bit flustered, there was something in Veny's presence that it made me hard to avoid.

- Who... Who was that? - I asked trying to sound as normal as possible. Dean sighed. Shit... Did he notice that I mumbled a bit? What if he gets angry with me? Why would he? Well... We are sort of dating but we never talked about our relationship... - Dean looked a bit worried as he started to explain.

- He is Revenge or Vengeance, Veny for short. He thinks we are some sort of cousins but I have nothing to do with him. Please, stay far from him if he appears again. He acts like he wants to help you, but in reality he just poisons your soul and encourages you to do horrible things, that destroy your humanity. I've learned my lesson already, learn from my mistakes please. - his eyes were begging me to avoid Veny. Dean looked scared. I never imagined that he can be scared of something. I held his hands and looked into his eyes smiling kindly.

- But, you are very kind and caring Dean. I can't believe that you did anything horrible. - Despite my effort to console him, Dean remained stiff.

- We all did bad things Kate, that's how our personality forms and that's the only way that can teach us distinguish right from wrong. Now, tell me what happened today? - I looked away and tried to remember the speech I've prepared in my head.

- Nothing much really! Just a little quarrel between girls! - Gosh... What if he gets annoyed because of they said? Not like I wouldn't want to see those three sluts hurt, but I don't want anyone's blood on my hands. I have enough dirty laundry to clean and blood stains are hard to get rid of.

- Kate, be honest. This... - he caressed my face where Bethany hit me and I hissed by the pain of my swollen skin.

- This isn't a little incident. They hurt you, so I need to know what happened.

- Why? - I tried to divert the conversation to another topic but Dean didn't cooperate.

- Don't try to change the topic, you are perfectly aware of the reason.

- What if I want to hear it from you? - I asked snuggling my face into Dean's big hand. His touch was nice despite the pain and I enjoyed his warmth. Dean blushed a bit and looked away clearing his throat.

- This won't work on me. - he said and I snuggled closer hugging him. His breath skipped for a second and Dean groaned.

- f**k this. - he grabbed my face and kissed me passionately, I gasped for air after a couple of minutes and when our kiss ended I caressed his face.

-I can handle this much so don't worry, okay?

- How could you ask me that? - he asked and his voice sounded so desperate that it clenched my heart. He really cares about me, deeply and truly. No one ever made me feel this way and while it fascinates me it also scares me. I forced a smile on my face.

- I'm a thought cookie! By the way, I'm starving and Grim said you made cookies with your mom! Let's go and try them! - I grabbed Dean's hand and pulled him after me. If he wanted to say anything else about my incident today, he kept it for himself and we spent a lovely and calm evening together with his family. While we cuddled during watching a movie on one of the sofas and Grim did the same with Donna I wondered: Am I really worthy of this kind of care, love and safety?