Addicted to Redemption

Part of your plan

Kate

I left next morning to school like nothing happened. Dean wanted me to stay at home for a few days but I shook my head.

- If I stay at home and hang my head, they're going to win. I'll be alright! - I gave a quick peck on his cheek and jumped into the car. My heart raced. I was mortified to go back. All my nerves screamed against it. I recalled how I woke up in cold sweat and it took me a good fifteen minutes under running hot water to calm down. I shrunk in the bathtub into a ball as small as I could while the hot water ran on my back and wrapped me in a warm embrace running over my shoulders and crossing on my chest before hitting the tub. My breathing was quick and my heart felt like it's going to jump out of my chest. My chest burned and my muscles ached. I wanted to stand up and ran away but my body didn't obey to my mind. I got stuck in my own worry and fear. When this ended, I felt like a melting puddle in the bathtub and became numb until this moment. I didn't even notice that we already arrived to the school. Grim stopped the engine and turned to me with worry in his eyes.

- Are you sure you are okay? Seriously, you can stay home for now. - I nodded smiling.

- This isn't my first rodeo! I'll be fine. - Grim sighed.

- Fine, I'll hide the scythe just in case. - I chuckled but something troubled me.

- Grim, what happened to Dean yesterday?

- What do you mean? - he asked and I felt a bit uncomfortable.

- Well he seemed different from his usual self. He was furious, and his eyes turned red and everything... It was really scary.

- Kate, Dean is not a human like you are but neither a creature like I'm. He is the fusion of a fragment from my eternal being and Donna's human soul. Due to this, he isn't entirely a creature but cannot be considered human at all. He is a miracle for us but had been considered as a deity for a while.

- Deity? By whom? - I asked and felt angry that anyone dared to treat Dean badly. Grim chuckled and pat my head.

- Just like how you got annoyed because someone precious to you got hurt, so did Dean yesterday. The only difference is that you can scream, shout, hit someone, of simply puff your cheeks, meanwhile Dean is capable of real destruction of a soul. That's why he still have a lot to learn.

- Have you ever experienced something like this? - I asked and Grim smiled. His smile always soothed me.

- Many times. We have come a long way with Donna since we first met and had our own hardships. I've never lost my temper like Dean did yesterday, but I don't even have the same let's call it structure like my son. He is more a soul than a creature, therefore his emotions are more intensified than mine.

- Yeah, you are weirdly calm all the time. - I said and immediately covered my mouth. Grim laughed at my expression and nodded.

- True, because I'm already aware what Im truly capable of, Dean, isn't yet. - I nodded and bid goodbye to Grim. I got out of the car and took a deep breath. The gossips and weird stares started again, but I tried my best to have my head up high. Suddenly an arm wrapped around my shoulder.

- Katey! What's up? - the cheerful voice asked and my jaw dropped.

- Veny?! - he looked now as a teenager around Dean's age. His hair was a bit longer too. Veny wore grey jeans, a white track top and had a red and black flannel shirt tied around his waist. Veny grinned happily.

- The one and only! - I grabbed his top and pulled him further from preying eyes.

- What the hell are you doing here? - he leaned with his back to the wall behind him and checked me out from head to toe, which made me oddly self conscious. His eyes shined like a puma's ready to jump.

- So early in the morning and you are already suspicious! I'm hurt! - he said and grabbed the top on his chest grimacing. I crossed my arms around my chest and stomped.

- Dean told me to avoid you. - Veny pulled straight and smirked so freaking handsomely that my stomach curled a bit.

- Katey, Katey, come on! Don't you want to silence their mouths? - he asked and pointed towards the patio, full of curious people. Their glances made me nauseous as ot felt like they were all staring at me. I shook my head.

- I... I don't care! I don't need help. - Veny clicked his tongue and took a round around me.

-Such a shame, you are truly fascinating! Not to mention gorgeous and way better chick than that Bethany and her shlap!

- How do you know about them?! - I asked and Veny shrugged.

- To quote an old time favorite;

"People, people, don't you understand?

All I ever wanted was to be part of your plan

People, people, thought you should know

Swallowed all your medicine, your Zoloft and your blow..." - he finished the lyrics he was singing in a low voice. Somehow even his voice was enchanting. I shook my head and suddenly Veny reminded me of a siren from those old fairy tales. That enchanted the sailors with their singing and driven them into their despair.

- I'm capable of handle things on my own. So I'm sorry, but I don't need your help. - I said tightening the backpack on my back and was about to turn away when I heard Veny's mocking voice.

- So this means, you haven't got a plan yet, such a shame! Well, I'll be around when you finally get the courage to show these idiots whom they shouldn't mistake with a toy! Have a nice time till then Katey! - He said passing by me and I heard Veny singing the song softly as he got further and disappeared in the crowd.

"I was the boy you would pass in the hallway

Left to enjoy watching you through the glass

I was a toy you were tired of playing with

Now I don't know where to go

Thought you should know..."

I headed to my classroom trying to avoid all my classmates and Veny's mocking voice echoed in my mind. He made me feel like a coward for not giving Bethany, Silvia and Emmy a taste of their own medicine. I groaned in frustration because I really wanted to hurt them, I wanted them to feel the same way they made me feel. I wanted them to fear, to look behind their backs on the corridors. To run home like chased animals hoping that they can find another medicine at home to numb the pain caused by their sick games. To only get more hurt at home... Until this circle leads to the unavoidable end. I sighed leaning against my locker. Everything seemed to disappear around me and I only heard Veny's singing on repeat in my mind. I searched frantically for the original lyrics and plugged in my headphones. I closed my eyes and mumbled the words;

"Caught like a deer in the headlights

Really don't know where to go

Everybody sees right through me

Seeing through my one man show

I was a boy you would pass in the hallway

Trying to be a part of the world

Thought you should know

People, people, don't you understand

All I ever wanted was to be part of your plan"