Addicted to Redemption

Matter of Life and Death

Kate

The week flew by. I was feeling better with each day and I've started to believe that my life could be a good one. But each time this thought crossed my mind, I remembered what that would mean. "If I stay alive... I'll loose Dean." It wasn't an easy task to figure out my own feelings but I was sure as hell in one thing, I wanted Dean. I wanted to get to know him, I wanted to be held by him, seen by him, I wanted him almost in a possessing manner. I caught myself grinning at the thought of Dean wearing a nice leather collar with my name on it. Each time my face turned crimson red and I felt utterly uncomfortable and embarrassed. "How could I fantasize about the Grim Reaper in that way?! When did I become a freak? What kind of sick fetishism have I got?" The weekend came and this time we chose the grey outfit out of the four possibilities. Esther fixed my hair and while she was combing it she said kindly.

- You are blooming Katy! Seriously, your skin got so smooth, and your eyes are sparkling. - I blushed a bit while Esther put my hair in a high messy bun. A few pieces escaped here and there but they only added to the style.

- Thanks, but that's too much flattery. - Esther giggled and kissed my cheek.

- Oh baby! I haven't even started yet! - We laughed and my heart was jumping out of my chest when I looked at the clock and saw that he'll arrive soon. I jumped up from the chair to match the rhythm of my heart and thanked Esther before I sprinted down to the main door. My eyes searched for the tall figure with golden glance. As soon as I spot him the smile disappeared from my face. Dean wasn't looking towards the door, but his eyes lingered on the girl walking by his side. She was gorgeous, pale skin, eyes of different shades of blue and a colorfully died hair. She wore a white dress with flower patterns, while Dean had a simple black jean and black t-shirt on. He turned to my direction and smiled sweetly, breaking and melting my heart at the same time. He said something to the girl and ran to me. Dean picked me up and spun me around looking deeply into my eyes. Immediately after my feet touched the ground, Dean held my head from behind and kissed me passionately. He tasted like candy and wherever his hands touched me I felt like my skin got on fire. Our kiss ended and I didn't even know if I was a boy or a girl for a moment.

- I missed you! - he said hugging me and his breath tickled the side of my neck sending pleasant shivers down my spine. My eyes met the girl's over his shoulder and I smirked " If you want him, you'll have to fight with me!" - I thought and her eyebrows raised as if she heard my thoughts. The gorgeous girl started laughing uncontrollably and Dean turned to her with a surprised expression.

- I like her! - she said and Dean chuckled making me confused.

- I missed you too, but, who is she? - I asked and the girl ran to us hugging me like we were lifetime besties.

- My name is Lee in this form! I'm so happy to meet you Kate!! - she giggled and I looked at Dean asking for help. When he saw my glance he started laughing and the three of us walked a bit further where others couldn't hear us. We sat on a bench and Dean pointed at Lee.

- Kate, let me introduce you to my aunt, Life. Life, this is Kate. - my jaw dropped and I felt that my eyes opened wider then ever before.

- I'm sorry, I think, I didn't hear it properly. Did you just say Life? - Dean nodded and his arm rested around my shoulders. Life caught my hands in hers and she squeaked.

- Exactly!!! You are so pretty! Are you sure she is not a fairy? - Life asked Dean and he gently rescued my trembling hands from Life's hold. His touch was still so warm and calming. I couldn't understand why people feel cold when they die. Those who came back after clinical death described death as something scary, cold, dark and lonely. In my case, death was warm, calming, kind and lovely.

- I'm hundred percent sure of it, but you promised me to act normally if I bring you along. - Life put her tiny hands on her thin waist and asked in a bit annoyed voice.

- Am I not acting normally? - Dean shrugged and a cheeky grin spread on his face making him extremely sexy.

- That depends on how you define normal! - Life smirked.

- Calmer than usual! - Dean laughed.

- In that case allow me to apologize! - She nodded victoriously and Dean pulled me closer while Life kept looking at me. She giggled and looked into Dean's eyes.

- You know baby Death that she is still mine! - I didn't like her cocky tone.

- That's not up to you to decide! - I said fiercely and Dean looked at me amazed while Life giggled. Her voice was soft as the morning due running down the leaves.

- Looks like we got a real fighter here! Who thought that a mortal human would defend the grim reaper and choose him over Life! - she grabbed my cheek in her hand and asked in a lower tone.

- Tell me, Katherine, aren't you afraid of dying? - I knew she wanted to scare me, I felt that this was a test. "Should I be lying? Telling Life that I value her over everything?" I smiled softly and answered calmly resting my back against Dean's chest, feeling braver than ever.

- Not at all.

- Interesting. I thought now, that you are clean and you'll soon start with a fresh page, you want to live.

- What does wanting to live have to do with not being afraid of death? - I asked and Life tilted her head.

- Well, usually those who want to live are afraid of dying. Since death is the end of life. - I looked into Dean's golden eyes and squeezed his hands that held me gently but firmly.

- Being alive and living happily are not synonyms for me. I have never felt as alive as I felt when I died. For others it might be scary, but for me, being embraced by Death, is what I want the most. - A huge smile spread on Life's face. She pinched my cheeks and pat Dean's head before she got up and started to fade.

- Treasure this little Spitfire my baby Death! - she waved and disappeared. We remained silent for a while but I couldn't hold my question back anymore.

- Dean...

-Yes?

- Is everyone this crazy in your family? - Instead of answering Dean only laughed which made me understand that Life was the least of my obstacles.