Forgotten Passion

When in love

What a day ! I sighed audibly as I washed the dishes. I would have to meet Charles as soon as I had my bathed and ring Jamie about the arrangements that he has made for me to travel to Milan.

Charles as I had expected was a not happy about my decision to go to Milan, “Are you sure you haven't the smallest feeling for Blake anymore? I hope you don't want to get back together with him again?” He grabbed my shoulders his eyes searching my face for some hint of my thoughts.

“Don't be an i***t sweetheart, I hate that men, can you honestly think that I have any reason to want him back again, he deserted me one year after our marriage and left me to bring up my son entirely on my own.’

“Are you for getting something?” Charles said gently. “ your husband does not realize that Mike is his son and I feel quite sure from what you have told me about him that he would never have left you had he realized the true situation.”

“No, you are right there.” I agreed with a slight bitterness. “At least he wouldn't have left me until after the birth and then he would no doubt have taken the baby too."

“Don't go Lara.” He said quietly moving away from me to stare out of the window.

“I really don't want to go Charles, but Kate insisted on me to come. This is the last favour I am doing for her and only for her and I can always get the divorce papers signed directly and come back and then we can get married without any problem. He can't eat me after all.” I said with an uncertain thought.

“I don't suppose he will succeed in bullying you or do something you don't really want to as he has already lost his memory but what if this visit makes the divorce more difficult? You've been separated for seven long years surely you want to be free as quickly as possible now that we've decided to marry, I want us to get married as soon as  possible.” He said in a Husky tone leaving his place by the window and crossing the room to my side. Taking me into his arm and kissed me tenderly.

I looked in his eyes and said carefully, “If only I had to consider myself I wouldn't think about going to Milan but when I saw Kate's sad eyes and her desperation. I couldn't say no. This is the last time let me go I will bury my past and then come back afresh to you with no more bondage.” I hugged him tightly.

“Lara always remember this. “Charles’s said lovingly, “I love Mike and I love you and I will always be there for both of you no matter what happens.

“Thank you Charles for understanding after this visit there won't ever be any reason to contact him again and we can forget him completely. I told him determinedly. But secretly I was praying that he would be okay. As I do not want him to die.

I felt very weary. I had left home at 6:00 in the morning and was very restless the whole night because of the uncertain thoughts coming into my mind. I reached the airport on time thankfully and realized that Jamie had booked my ticket in the business class. After I separated from Blake I had never travelled by flight overseas and this is second time I will be travelling alone. So, I was feeling a little bit nervous but the  air hostess gave me instruction smilingly and I felt comfortable when the flight took off.

I closed my eyes and relaxed myself.  My mind drifted back to the time when I had been together with Blake. Tall and good looking Blake was the prodigal Italian American boy. Fine white teeth often exposed in a ready smile, warm brown eyes and black hair slightly curled. He must be over thirty now .He was always smartly dressed in the latest trends and he could be even mistaken for an Italian actor.

He lived in an Italian style villa, on the outskirts of Milan he was the CEO of a company called Reid @Sons and his business dealt with agriculture and vineyards. It was a very famous company and he had great name. His name was often flashed in headlines. He would always be surrounded with women throwing themselves at at his him. He was a Casanova when I had met him but gradually he let go of his habits and was betrothed to me. 

His father was a very powerful man in Milan and wanted Blake to take over and so naturally the business was passed on to Blake but before joining his father’s business he had already establish himself successfully in the business world.

I met him at a pub where I had gone to celebrate my birthday with my collage friends and had caught him staring at me.

I had bumped into him while going to the washroom and immediately felt the attraction between us. I was very naïve and as I had never been in a serious relationship with anyone. I went with the flow with Blake and gave myself to him. He finally proposed me and we got married secretly as his father did not agree to our marriage. Even my parents had doubt about it initially but seeing the way Blake loved me unconditionally, they gave their blessings.

No one in his family had accepted our marriage, except Kate my mother-in- law. Blake had bought a flat in an upscale locality in Milan where we stayed together. We would often visit his Villa in the outskirts of the town but never stayed back. I tried as much as I as I could to adjust with his family because I loved Blake.