Chapter 5
Nolan knew Leo waited for his answer and knew from the gentle, concerned look in Leo’s eyes he would not pressure Nolan in any way. But the truth was, in so many ways Nolan had been wanting this for a long time. Not necessarily with Leo, but with any guy. For a while he wanted to experience s*x with another guy just to see if all the confusing feelings and attractions to guys really meant he was gay.
Nolan spent a lot of years desperately hoping he was not the one thing his father seemed to hate more than anything. Even before the other night at the club with Leo, though, Nolan had accepted, well sort of, that he was going to be forever abhorrent to his father. His brief s****l experience with Leo only confirmed everything.
He swallowed, more to moisten his dry mouth than due
