I watched him approached the door. I know what he's about to do. Gusto niyang paalisin na ako ngayon hindi lang sa kanyang kuwarto kundi sa pamamahay na ito mismo.
I won't let him hurt my feelings and pride, pinigil ko ang akma niyang pagpihit ng pinto. I held the door knob behind me.
"I don't care about those benefits I got from marrying you. I can return them back to you anytime. I want you to break off this marriage. I want an annulment, Galen. Set me free!"
He showed a distorted expression for a sec.
"And what will I get in return?" Tinaasan niya ako ng kilay. I didn't know, he still want something in return. Pabuya? Mayaman na siya!
"Peace of mind of course! Wala ka ng sakit ng ulo, wala ka ng pakikisamahan. You're free to date whoever you want and so do I."
He lick his lower lip before speaking. "How about 30 billion?"
Namilog ang mga mata ko. That's a lot of money! Saan naman ako kukuha ng ganyan kalaking pera? "B-Babaan mo naman, kahit ang buong kompanya hindi kakayanin ang ganyan kalaki. Malulugi kami. Is peace of mind not enough for you?"
He shook his head. His lip moved downward while looking straight to my eyes. Bahagyang nagtagal na parang may inaalala. "You've caused me a lot of head aches. Apart from that, you've been seeing men. You brought one of them to our penthouse. Hiring a photographer to make it look like, you're romantically linked to each other. Not long ago, you also spread rumors that you're impregnated by your kept man. 30 billion is the sum up compensation for me; Adultery, mis-use of our property, dragging my name to all of your mess—"
Parang tinakasan ng dugo ang ang aking mukha. Recalling all those stupid things I did, narealize kong mukha akong tangang iniisip na ang tali-talino ko, na naisahan ko siya! He's been eyeing me all along. He has all the evidence at alam kong kaya niya iyong ilabas anytime.
"Hindi ako nakipagsiping sa iba. I'm untouched. Ikaw lang ang nakasiping ko ng isang beses honey moon pa natin 'yon—"
"Kahit na, Luana. You still made evidences yourself that can be used against you. Tell me, wife... can you defend yourself in court?"
Napa-isip tuloy ako. Despite of those tremendous effort, no pictures are leaked to the media. Ang kahihiyang nililikha ko'y hindi umaabot sa aking mga byenan. 'Yon pala, all this time, he's behind it all!
Ngayon sa kanyang tanong, kaya ko ba'ng ipagtanggol ang sarili ko sa korte? Wala akong naisagot doon. The eerie intensified music is getting louder— until the he cornered me in between his knees. Sa lapit niya sa akin, kahit mahina ang ilaw sa silid ay kitang-kita ko ang pinagbago ng kanyang itsura.
I've been calling him ugly since college because of how skinny he is. His cheekbones can almost be shaped into his actual skull. His deep collar bone is showing even when wearing shirts, wears high graded glasses and stutters when he speak.
Noong gumraduate na kami'y nagkalaman-laman na siya. Siguro ay dahil wala ng stress sa school works and bullies. But right now, he's in his best shape. He is very far from how he looked before.
He has no longer beard around his mouth, his hair is neatly cut into a classic taper fade and of course no more thick glasses!
"You're untouched you say?" Yumukod siya't pinatong ang mga kamay sa desk pinaggigitnaan at kinukulong ako sa kanyang bisig. "Prove it..."
"In court?" Nalilito kong tanong.
"Prove it to me or in court, walang pinagkaiba roon," aniya.
"Sa'yo, paano?"
Nanghahanon ang kanyang tingin at lumapit pa ng husto. Naguguluhan ako sa kanyang pagiging agresibo, kaya't awtomatiko akong halos lumiyad mapanatili lang ang isang dangkal na distansya ng aming mga mukha. "Let me touch you."
I'm still not used to this Galen. Straightforward and confident. What happened to him while I was away?
Ngunit gusto kong masiguro kung ako ba'y tinutukso niya lamang o totoo iyang lumalabas sa bibig niya.
"Go on," I probed without thinking twice.
Well the jokes on me because I can already feel his fingers slowly lingering through my thigh. I got chills from that slow touches. Pakiramdam ko'y nahihipnotismo ako sa bawat hagod niya na kahit ang balahibo ko'y nagsisitindigan. Standing ovation for his boldness.
"Wait," pigil ko sa kanyang kamay nang matantong hahantong na ito sa pagitan ng hita ko. "I've heard you, right? You want to touch me?"
"Yes."
"O ... kay," I said. f**k it! I felt stupid for asking those that I clearly heard. Hindi lang talaga ako makapaniwala.
He then started massaging my muff against my panties. Parang nanunuyo ang aking lalamunan. Ang kamay na sinusubukang pigilan ang kanyang kapangahasan ay nanlalambot at parang tumutulong pa sa kanyang ginagawa.
I'm trying to control my sigh and moan. But when I gulped, I knew he saw how I wanted more.
"Can I take this off?" He asked, talking about my panty.
I felt like my whole face blushed. But then, I still nodded to his request. He pulled my panty down to my knees and I waggled my legs so it fell to the floor.
Napapikit ako nang sa wakas ay mahawakan na niya ang aking gitnang hitang hubad. Balat sa balat. Mainit at malapad ang kanyang palad na lumapat roon.
"Hmm..." He slid one finger inside and then added another one. And how stupid I am to move an inch closer to him just so I could feel his fingers more inside me.
But then, I can't blame myself. It's been like almost a year since I had s*x with him. And I was honest when I said he's the only man who touched me.
I was trying to kiss him while he's fingering me, ngunit napahinto pagka't hindi ako makapagfocus sa halik, sa halip ay nadidistract ako sa sarap na nadarama.
"Oh my..." I moaned.
I traced my point finger from his chest down to his abdomen. Nagtagal ang aking tingin doon. He now has abs. He's probably working out. And here I thought he would be miserable or at least be a little worried while I am gone. But it looks like, he's busy taking good care of himself very well.
"Ohh... Ahh!" His fingers are long and moving fast. It almost feels like I am being f****d by a real d**k. It's enough but will be more than enough if it's him, on top of me. Pounding me really hard, taking me like his haiku.
Oh, god! What are these thoughts? Dahil ba naging mas guwapo na siya kaya may lakas ng loob na akong pagpantastahan siya?
Ngunit napigtas ang nabiting kaligayahan nang ang aking malagkit na p********e ay lumikha ng basang tunog nang alisin niya ang mga daliri roon. I looked at him with glaring eyes. I wanted to protest but I couldn't say a word. I don't want to demand nor be vulgar.
"We've been in the room for too long. Baka kung ano nang isipin nila Mama. Let's go down stairs?"
'Hello? Asawa mo 'ko! Isipin na nila ang gusto nilang isipin, ano ba 'ng say nila roon, eh, kasal naman na tayo?' The thought I badly want to let out but can't 'cause mating should be mutual. As much as I could, I don't want to force him if didn't want to.
"Mauna ka na. Malagkit ako, I need to wash up and change panties."
Pinasadahan niya ako ng tingin bago sumagot ng "Okay..." saka umalis ng silid.
Damn it! I was so close. If only... if only he didn't stop. Ideas I should have said gushed through my head like... what if I begged? Or maybe I'll do it next time?
Pinilig ko ang ulo at pinitik ng pagkalakas lakas. Siyempre masakit, ngunit nararapat lang iyon ng magising ako sa kagagahang iniisip.