Four weeks later
A numbness descended on me, the prickling fear that took over the previous feelings of lust, want and happiness, maybe I was never designed to feel happy, to be set free from the life of misery, darkness and sadness. May be this would be my punishment, for the crime of falling in love with someone else, for being prepared to let Colin go, and move forward with a hint of happiness, I was destined to be alone, lost and miserable for eternity, and because I had gave in to want and desire, love and contentment, when my husband was dead, unable to live his life, why had I thought I had a right to be happy, this was my punishment. I blinked up at Sam his face was pale and drawn he no longer smiled at me; he had become distant after that one night. No longer did he come t
