Love Trap

Chapter 18

Celine POV

I wake up with the smell of roses and for a moment I thought that I must be still dreaming. I cried to sleep last night, I really feel bad and disappointed at the same time. I thought that I knew the man that I marry since we both live in a same roof and raised by same parents, but after yesterday’s incident I just realized that I still didn’t know him that well.

I sigh deeply and inhale the sweet scent of roses, my eyes still closed and I don’t want to get out from bed if that will mean that I will see Blake. I’m still being hurt by his actions and I know I’d said some things too and it’ll be awkward for us to see each other now. But curiosity is killing me, why am I smelling all these rose scent when I’m hundred percent sure that I’m inside the room.

Slowly, I open my eyes and got surprise with all these flowers surrounding the room and petals on my bed. And there’s a letter placed at my bedside drawer, I picked it and open to read its content and feel emotional by the message on it.

My Wife,

I know that my yesterday’s actions hurt you badly and it pains me to see you crying alone. I couldn’t even come to your side to hug and comfort you as I’m afraid to add another stress on you. Please hear me out, I did those because we’re still hiding things from our family and I didn’t want them to learn all these things just from the news or from other source. Maybe the impact for you is different but believe me that it’s not my intention to hide our real status. I’m sorry that I made you feel upset and that you cried because of me again. Let’s open ourselves to our real world now, no more hiding from anyone. I will talk to our family about our marriage so that we don’t need to worry and that we can start living as a couple. I love you and I couldn’t accept the divorce that you’re asking from me. I’ve waited for too long to have you and now that you’re mine then there’ll be no reason in the world that will make me leave you. Please accept my apology and let’s enjoy spending our honeymoon and the rest of our married life.

Your Husband Blake

Tears slowly run on my cheeks as I understand his side of the story. I assumed things and made a quick decision which leads into total misunderstanding. I feel so guilty on the way I reacted yesterday, truly he didn’t mean to offend or hurt me it’s just that I believe the things that comes on my mind the moment I saw him talking to those girls at the shop.

I wiped my tears and look at the flowers that’s surrounding me, I didn’t deserve all of these because I’m the one at fault. I get out from the bed and go straight at the washroom to wash the traces of tears on my face and to freshen up before I face and talk to Blake.

Heading inside the washroom, I felt a sharp pain on my tummy that made me grip the knob hard and hold my lower abdomen. Another sharp pain and I couldn’t control it, I start screaming for help. Blake instantly rushed inside the room and carry me until we reached the villa’s gate. The staffs help us and drive us at the nearest hospital.

I hear Blake saying comforting words and assuring me that all will be okay, but I know that right now my unborn child is in danger and that couldn’t stop me from crying and worrying. I should’ve take care of myself that much because I’m carrying my baby. I couldn’t forgive myself if something bad happen to my child.

Once we reached the hospital, nurses rushed me inside the emergency room and started checking on my condition. I keep telling and pleading at them to do everything to save my baby, all I can hear is their alert movements and then all went blurry until I lose my consciousness.

I woke up hearing a beeping sound from an apparatus, I slowly open my eyes and scan the room I’m in. And slowly I remember the thigs that happens to me, from the room where I felt a sharp pain of my tummy and until we reached the hospital. I run my hand in my tummy to feel if I still carry my child with me when I hear Blake footsteps heading towards me.

“Love, thank God you’re awake now.” He said with a broke voice.

“Tell me what happen? They saved our child right?” I asked and my tears started to flow again.

“Shhh. Hush love.” He said trying to stop me from crying.

I couldn’t bear to hear the truth but I wanted to know the answer. From the way Blake is comforting me it’s like he’s having a hard time to tell me what had happen that made me feel worried and upset.

“Tell me please, I want to know what happen?” I plead.

“We lost our baby.” He whisper the words but it’s as loud as a bomb when I heard it.

So reckless of me to lose my child, I’m a doctor and yet I fail to take care of myself and my baby. I keep on blaming myself, only me for losing my precious one. Depression kicks on me and it’s like end of all things for me.

Doctor said it’s because I’m having PCOS that made me lose our child and it’ll be difficult for me to conceive because of this condition. After staying for 3 days at the hospital and making sure that I’m somehow recovering, we got discharged and headed back at the villa. I asked Blake to take me back to New York but he said that I better recover well before we travel back.

Every day he keeps on looking after me and trying to cheer me, assuring me that we can still have a child once I got cured with my condition. It’s just that I still couldn’t accept the fact that I lost my baby. I stay dull and gloomy, I couldn’t even eat my food and I barely talk to Blake and avoiding him most of the time. I don’t want to hear him about leaving me too since there’s no more reason for him to stay when we lost the connection that we have. He’s the only one I’ve got now and I’ll go insane if I still lose him.

“Are you sure you can travel now? We can still stay here for another week for you to recover well.” Blake asked assessing my condition.

“I’m okay now and I don’t want to stay any longer here now. All bad memories I’m having here, I just wanted to go back to New York and spend my days at work to make myself busy and for me to forget what happen here.” I firmly said.

“Once we’re back home, I won’t allow you to work unless you’re fully recovered. I know how painful it is on your part but please don’t make it a reason for you to distant yourself to me. It’s my child too, I lost and grieve same as you. Don’t treat me as if you lost me too.” He said sounding hurt.

“If you feel like you wanted to get free from me, I’ll accept it. Just tell me.” I said and start packing my things.

12 hours later…

Hours passed and soon we’re about to land as we reached New York. At last it’s like coming back to where I truly belong. Blake assisting me all the time and making sure that I’m okay throughout the whole trip. Once we exit the plane and about to get into the waiting car at the tarmac we hear a commotion near our area and saw paparazzi trying to approach us, while securities trying their best to control them. As we passed through them I could hear someone asking and confirming if it is true that Blake’s disappearance for almost a month is because he flew to marry someone and bring me along to stand as a family witness. It irritates me more that those bunch of people keeps on creating rumors while we’re in our grieving times. It gets into my nerve and couldn’t take it anymore so I faced them and show them my hand with a wedding band instead that gives them more puzzle.