You Win Some, You Lose Some

a little loving n care

talons pov

the next day get up early and wait in bed for her to wake up, she doesn't wake up till 2 in the afternoon. "hey" I say looking at her and her blue eyes look into mine as a few more tears roll down her face. "I'm sorry" my voice cracks when I say it but I don't care she winces "it still hurts" she tells me. I reach over to the bedside table next me and grab the pain killers "the

he doc said you can take these every six hours but she pain should be gone by tomorrow." she just nods. I watch her take the pills. "is there anything I can do, is there something you want to or need to do today?" I ask her "nah" she lays Back down and closes her eyes. I rang the doc earlier and he said she might do that, and that it's pretty much the start of depression. I need to get her outta bed "look I don't want to hurt you by accident but I really need you to get out of bed even if it means sitting on the couch with me all day, I just need to make sure you get out of bed and do anything" I tell her and pick her up in my arms. "where is he ?" she says as I carry her. "umm doc had to take care of him" she looks alarmed "he didn't just throw him out did he, was he buried." s**t "umm babe I don't know what he did with him I was in too much shock to ask him but I'm sure he would've been gentle." I tell her and she looks a little bit relieved. "can we name him Jayden?" she whispers " yeah sure, of course you can that's a great name" I sit down on the couch still holding her. "I'm gonna fix us some food, is there anything you like, do you want sushi?" I look at her heart broken face then she suddenly takes a shaky breath " you don't think it was painful for him, do you?" f**k this is breaking my heart. " no, baby, not at all the doc said he was gone before he came out and it would have been painless" I lie, I have no f*****g clue if it hurt for him or not I doubt he was old enough to feel anything though. "okay then, and I don't feel like eating" she says. "well you have to eat something, how bout you sit on the kitchen bench and tell me how to make that pumpkin soup you always make when it gets cold" I say picking her up and wrapping her in a soft blanket before sitting her on the bench. "okay well you need a whole pumpkin to start with" she says. we spend the next 2 and a half hours making the soup and then we have some for an early dinner.

"so I've been thinking about some stuff the doc said to me last night" I start talking while we eat "I think we should do counselling, you can do it with me or with out me or some with or with out. I just want to help you" I say and she looks at me with those sad eyes. "I'm so sorry I promised you I'd never hurt you and I did" I feel like such an arsehole "it couldn't have been helped, and it was just as much my fault as it was yours" she says and her eyes start to come back to life "and yeah I think I'll do the counselling with you" she says nuzzling her face into where my neck meets the start of my shoulder.

the next week the counsellor comes to our house, there were lots of tears and pain in that first session but I could see that it made her better, even if it was bit by bit. after three more months she has her 18th birthday and tells me that in the last one on one session she had with the counsellor, both Janet and claire think she's ready to finish counselling but if something comes up we can book in a appointment. for her birthday I get a little garden made on the property with a willow tree that has a little plaque that says 'in loving memory of little Jayden' she crys when she sees it. "wow talon this is amazing" we sit down on the grass and just look at the view.

the next day my mother shows up. well s**t how the f**k. "hiiii! darling how are you?" she says looking at me, I'm still in my pajamas, cause it's Sunday, which means I'm only wearing pajama bottoms. "wow mum, umm I'm good I guess, what are you doing here mum?" she looks at me guilty "well quite a while ago a little birdy told me me you two had your first fight and I wanted to come help out" she says "well your late. by like nearly four months, why bother now?" I ask "well I was gonna get here earlier but your stupid brother had his leg broken and then your father got sick so I had to look after both of them, but they're both fine now" she finishes "so where's claire, don't tell me you've broken up!" she almost screeches and I step back as I feel Claire's hand on my shoulder "izzy what are you doing here, what a surprise" she says. my mother gives me a stern look then gestures behind her for someone who hadn't noticed before to bring in some bags he was holding then my mother turns to claire and smiles "Darling I came to see if you'd like to do some cooking I could teach you some of the dishes I used to make for talon since he was a baby!" she says excitedly I notice claire slightly wince at the word baby but my mother dosent notice as she walks inside "you can put the bags on the bench then leave" she says sternly to the poor guy holding the bags. "umm boss somethings came up Adam said you need to go see him asap" Max comes in and says to me. well s**t. "okay I'll get dressed and then leave in a few minutes" I tell him then turn to my mother " behave yourself ma" then I pull claire to me and smile as I give her a kiss goodbye "love you" I say and she says it back "don't get hurt or do anything stupid, I need you" she adds hugging me tight. I

look back at her as I walk away to quickly get dressed. she's the most beautiful creature in the world. with her wrinkled nightie and messy bun.

Claire's pov

I can tell izzy knows something and that cooking is her way of trying to interrogate me while she thinks I don't know. these days I wanna cut the crap, not that I think she has no business being here and knowing. I don't blame her, I've taken her little boy off her and she doesn't know what's happened apart from the fact that something happened. I decide to be direct. I stop izzy unpacking the bags for a second. "look, I know that you know something and that your here to try and find out what happened. I don't blame you, but I've changed and I don't need you to be so discreet about it. you can just ask means and I'll tell you what I can" she blinks then chortles. "oh darling that's great, I just want you to know that I'm not doing this to stick my nose where it's not wanted I just want to make sure my son and you are okay I truly care for the two of you. any way all I know is a few months ago one of the guards around here said that talon was yelling at you and then a fewweeks after that two of your girds hear you screaming in agony and walk into your bedroom to see blood all over the bed, they thought someone had attempted to murder you. all I'd like to know is what happened and are you okay now?" she finishes concerned and I smile meekly as I walk over to sit on the couch in the lounge while izzy follows "well long story short, when talon was yelling at me it was because he knew something was up but I wasn't telling him what it was. I was pregnant. then a few weeks later I had a unexplained miscarriage and for the last few months we've been doing counselling. we recently got back on track and have moved on" I say explaining everything in short. izzy let's put a few tears "well, I....I guess since you've moved on we should get back to cooking. but if there's anything you want to talk about you can always call me okay?" I nod " yeah, of course."

me and izzy spend the next few hours cooking and send home a few bags of food with some of the men who were on gaurd today. "come sit down and talk with me?" she asks as we finish cleaning up. "yeah? okay" I sit down on the couch and hug a cushion. I smile. these cushions are ones that I picked out because I told talon his house didn't look homey. he told me I can redecorate anything I want. I picked out a light blue couch all the walls stayed white but we got a feature wall in our room. I picked out cushions and we got coloured tiles in the bathrooms. the house now has colour instead of just black and white. "claire?......" s**t I didn't realise that izzy was talking to me "I'm sorry what were you saying?" I look up into her brown eyes and she laughs "Darling I was just saying, you look happy, even with what you've told me has happened" she smiles and looks at the cushion I'm holding "it's good to see this place with a womens touch, talon never listened to my suggestions" she says ruefully. "babe! you home!" we hear talon yelling through the house as he sits his keys down on the kitchen bench "we're in here darling!" izzy yells back.

talons pov

after fixing up a mess all day I finally come home to my girl. as I walk through the front door I yell out to her but ma replys. Dam after everything, I forgot she's here. "I walk into the lounge room to see her and claire sitting on the couch together. "hey my two favourite girls" I say walking towards the couch I sit down and pull claire into my lap and nuzzle her neck while my hands wrap around her waist. I zone out for the next hour and half while my mother chirps away and then she eventually leaves.

"ahhh! finally I though she would never go" I complain to claire as we walk into the kitchen after shutting the door and saying our goodbyes. "don't be so dramatic, she misses you and loves you, she just wanted to make sure you're okay" claire says reheating some pasta she made earlier with my mother. "did you tell her much?" I look at her and study her face, it doesn't look like she minds the question. " I told her everything and she just said that I can ring her any time" she says simply, smiling up to me. I feel so whole being with her. "what?" claire looks at me concerned "what do you mean, what?" I ask "you suddenly just had this look on your face, like your heart went all goey" she giggles as she looks away to plate up our food. "maybe you made my heart all goey" I say softly. her eyes connect with mine and we just look into each other's eyes for a while until she breaks contact to look down and pass me my plate of food. we both sit down at the bench together and don't say anything for a while. "why" I almost didn't hear her. "why, what?" I wounder and she looks at me like she's scared "why. do I make your heart goey?" her voice breaks. "I dunno, baby, I think your my person and I'm yours" I say, but what I really want to say instead of person is soul mate, but I don't want to scare her even more. "baby, why are you scared, what's wrong?" I don't understand, we can be having a really amazing moment and then suddenly she gets scared, I've seen it in her eyes before but this time it's more predominant. "because I....I've never believed or I guess wanted to believe in love and now I think I am. but I've always thought I've known no one would ever love me. my brain just contradicts itself and it makes my head hurt." she's starting to get emotional. well Dam "claire. if push came to shove at the end of the day if someone asked you, do you love me, what would you say" she smiles and rolls her eyes "of course I love you" she says. I laugh at her and we finish our food while we continue talking. "do you wanna watch a movie tonight?" I request and she nods. "I want to have a shower first" she says putting her dishes in the sink and walking off to our room. I put my dishes in and follow behind her smiling at her sassy arse. before I can catch up to her she starts running "can't catch me!" she squeals running in a different direction than my room. dammit that minx I'll get her "challenge accepted!" I bellow back to her. after a while she loses me on the third floor and I decide to go back to our room and beat her back. to my surprise i can hear the shower going when I get there. I smile and strip my clothes off before walking into the bathroom. a feeling of belonging washes over me as I see her standing there under the shower with her face up to the shower head eyes closed. her beautiful body with all the curves in all the right places. and when I say that I mean natural curves even the cute ones like the dimple on her butt and her hip dips. she's perfect the way she is. "ahhh" she sighs under the hot water and I walk forward.

Claire's pov

ha shows him. I ran back to our room before him, I smile as I turn the shower on and strip down before hopping in under the hot water. I tilt my head up to the source of the water and breathe. it feels so nice, everything is right, right now, right here. I sigh and feel my breasts rise and fall. suddenly I feel them being lifted up but not by my breathing. "talon!" I squeal when he pinches my n*****s. his hands drop to the top of my thighs as he kisses my neck, sucking and nipping at my sensitive skin. "mmm, baby you taste so good." I smile at him as I turn around to look into his eyes. his eyes are twinkling like a child in a candy shop. I step closer to him and lean on his chest as I look up at him and smile. and I feel so so so loved, but it felt like more than that, it was indescribable, it felt like my chest could literally burst. and it felt good and I finally wasn't scared anymore. "what's wrong baby, are you crying?" I realise I started crying "nothing, I just, I really love you and I'm not scared of it anymore." talon picks me up and holds me with my legs wrapped around his waist. and we kiss. "mmm, sit me down, I'll give you a surprise" I breathe into his ear after breaking away from kissing. his eyes go hooded, mouth slackens and his breathing gets heavy as he let's me slide down so I'm standing infront of him again. I place my hands on his chest and let one wander, down to his abbs and down further. he moans in my ear when I grab onto his c**k. and I run my hand up and down then kneel down onto my knees. I look up to see him smiling at me with his brown eyes begging for more. I hold his balls with my hands and then put his length into my mouth and take him all the way. he fills my throat up and I can barely breathe. he thrusts into me while I suck him off, all the while we keep eye contact. "naaauuuhh, babbyyyy, I'm gonna come" he pants looking down at me. I suck him harder and with in a minute or two his c*m squirts down my throat. qhen he's done his c**k pops outta my mouth and I swallow looking up at him I stand up. he keeps his eyes on mine until I'm hugging him again and his theb eyes close. I feel my lips lift of their own accord, it's nice to make him feel so good. we wash ourselves and then go to watch our movie.