You Win Some, You Lose Some

not scared anymore

talon pov

today it's been three months since claire told me that she's not scared of loving me. so I planned a trip. we're at my private beach on a pacific island near Australia where we're staying for a few days, maybe a week, it just depends. I'm making breakfast in bed for her this morning, she's still asleep at the moment so I have time to f**k up and fix it. after burning the bacon and letting the toast go cold I start again and get it pretty much right. as I sit down on the bed in nothing but my boxer briefs and holding the tray I gently wake her "mmmm, wha-?" one eye opens and looks around, her nostrils flare and she sits up. "something smells nice" she opens both her eyes and yawns as she notices the tray. "does it look okay?" I ask waiting for her answer. she picks up some bacon and eats it "yes, really good" she confirms with her mouth still full of food. "so, what're we going to do today?" she says while we eat. "well, I was thinking maybe we could for a walk to special spot with a waterfall" I say casually and she smiles. "sure, yeah sounds fun, will we go swimming?" I look at her naked, just laying there being perfect. "yup" I get up to go put some swimming shorts on, when I come out I tell claire she should get dressed. while she picks out what to wear I pack a bag for the day. "is the walk very far?" she asks stepping into the lounge room. she's wearing a blue tied on bikini with denim shorts and a pair of hiking boots in one hand and flip flops in the other. "the walk is a few hours but the trak is well worn, I'd wear the flip flops" I say as I zip up the bag I've been packing. "cool" she says putting the boots back and slipping on the other pair of shoes. "you ready?" I turn to look at her again and her face lights up in reply. she walks up and grabs my hand. and off we go, for the next three and a half hours we walk and chat all the way to the top of a small mountain. when we get to the top there's a water fall with a massive pond, water is crystal clear and slightly blue, almost like glass it's like a picture you only usually see on a post card or calender. I watch Claire's face, her eyes go wide and her jaw drops. "oh my God! I didn't think places like this actually existed!" she squeals looking at me "you wanna go for a swim now?" I smile down at her. and she pulls her shorts off running. SPLASH! like the perfect woman she is, she dived straight in off one of the big mossy rocks. "you could've waited for me!" I laugh and follow her. we end up clinging to each other near the edge of the pond so that I can stand up with her hanging on to me. "wow this place is just full of surprises" she giggles leaning into me and giving me a kiss. I fumble to the pocket in my shorts and look down at claire. "claire?" she looks into my eyes. "I love you so so much and in the time we've already spent together we've gone through so much, and I've realised I want you to be with me forever, through bad and good" she smiles at me completely oblivious. my hand surfaces from the water and she looks down and gasps "claire will you marry me?" she starts nodding her head "oh my goodness, yes!" I laugh "do you wanna get out of the water so we don't lose the ring?" I ask pulling her with me untill we're out of the pond "I. wow. talon I was not expecting this at all" she says still shocked. "uhh, soooo" I say slowly and she looks at me grinning as I slip the ring with a massive diamond on her ring finger. "there's actually a cottage around the corner I was thinking we could stay there for tonight." I suggest and scoop her up to carry her. "oh my God, talon, not the least bit excessive at all" she jokes as I carry her the short walk and stand her up right once we're in the cottage. "you look a bit wet" I grab her by the hips "want some help?" she nods and I pull the knot undone on her bikini top and watch her t**s bounce free. she steps a bit closer and I hear her tinkling laugh. "what about the other half?" she asks. and I slip the other half off along with my bather shorts, before leading her to the bedroom. I watch her face as she sees the double king bed. "oh my God this is ridiculously huge how did it even get in this little cottage?" she awes. then looks up at me. "I'm incharge" she demands hands on hips, her t**s pushed out. "m'kay my lady" I bow jokingly. to my surprise she starts pushing be backwards until I'm at the end of the bed and then she gives me a final shove, Dam she's hot. I smirk as she asks "do we have any accessories around here?" hahah I knew she'd want some. "of course baby, in a box under the bed" I watch as her naked boobs jiggle, while she gets down on her hands and knees to grab the box "close your eyes, no peaking honey" she purrs as I hear her ruffle through the box. I feel her attache something to my ankel then my other ankle and both my wrists. "you've been very naughty, daddy" I just can tell she's smiling. "I'm sorry baby girl" i say and she giggles "yes, daddy, you will be" then she ties something around my eyes and gags me so I can't speak either. f**k my c**k is already as hard as a rock. she starts teasing me by running her hands around my n*****s and traces faint patterns around my chest so I can only just feel it. but each stroke is feeding a fire. after what feels like forever her hand finally moves downward and I sigh. "oh no, daddy, your not allowed to c*m until I say so, at all, okay" she giggles and I nod my head "good" she stays running her hand around the base of my balls and c**k untill I'm moaning almost screaming with need. she shushes me so I stop as much as I can then her lips wrap around the base of my c**k. I feel her take me deep and her head bobs up and down on my thick rod but then she stops. "I'm going to take your gag out so you can tell if your about to c*m so I can stop, okay" I smile "yes ma'am" is the muffled reply. then she takes it out. before going back down on me. after a while of trying as hard as I could to hold back I give up "ah , ah s**t I'm gonna c*m!" I grunt. she pulls her mouth off me. "don't you dare!" she yells at me and she gives me a n****e cripple before kissing me and pulling away "do you like the taste of your own d**k?" she purrs into my ear "yes baby, but I love the taste of your p***y more" I whisper, and we got back to kissing. after a while she gets up "I'll be back in a minute or two" she giggles leaving me in the room she leaves me there for at least 20 minutes. then I hear the soft pitta patter of her feet on the carpet. I'd know that sound anywhere, i smile. "I'm back she sings. jumping up onto the bed and straddling me on my stomach, I can feel or wetness drip onto me and my erection is back instantly. I wait for something to happen but it dosent but then I hear the sound of her sucking something. what? is she sucking a dildo or a toy cause she's definitely not sucking me. "baby?" I ask "mmmhhm" she says lazily. "what're you doing, can I see, or can you tell me." she leans down bit instead of speaking she smears something cold across my chest then adds more. when she stops she sits something on the bedside table then takes off my blindfold. holy f**k she's covered me in icecream, her favourite icecream, boysenberry. I almost laugh. "you look very tasty daddy, don't you think?" she asks me and I nod. for the next 15 to 20 minutes she licks up all the icecream off me as I writhe and moan. "daddy?" my heart leaps "yes baby girl?" i watch her smiling up at me "I want you to eat me until I squirt down your throat. "fuckkkk, baby girl,.daddy will be happy to tp do that." she stands up and positions her self. then sqats down with her knees next to me head. her p***y just above my lips. I move my head up and stick my tongue into her waiting p***y. I find her swollen clit and massage it with my toungie and teeth. she heaves a shall breathe "yessss daddy, uhg ohhh!" her moaning becomes more and more hight pitched, I starts to move my toungue in a fluid motion from her clit into her can't and back until she cums. auhh f**k she tastes so good. when she's done she looks down at my waiting c**k before changing her position. she's facing me almost sitting on my c**k when I realise "f**k! baby condoms, you need to put one on me!" I yell suddenly thinking back to the miscarriage, we don't need a repeat of that. I look at her face and something flickers across it but I'm not sure what before it goes back to normal. "oh yeah s**t" she says climbing off me and opening the top draw to find a box and getting one out. then she carefully opens one and gently pushes it onto my c**k. "we all good now daddy?" she raises an eyebrow "ah huh" I say bearly able to breathe. then all of a sudden she pushes herself down, hard on me. I moan so does she. she starts up a slow gentle pace. "don't you f*****g dare c*m until I say so" she pants her t**s jiggling. Dam I so want to hold her like I normally do when we make love, and yeah I did just say make love cause that's what it is. we never f**k we always make love and yes there's a difference but it's to out into words. anyway after what feels like ages but only minutes she picks her self up and turns around. now I can see her sweet arse we go on like that for ages, both of us holding off our climaxes. "you ready?" she moans "mmm, yesssssss" I groan as she quickens her pace to get us both closer and within less than a minute we both reach our release together. she turns around and unties me before we curl up together and fall asleep.

I wake up and look around to realise claire is not next to me. what!? I walk out of my room and look through all the rooms until I find her wrapped in a black silk robe in the kitchen making what looks to be a chicken stir-fry. I come up behind her and grab her hips. she jumps ,like three feet in the air, why is she so jumpy? I nuzzle her neck and she's still tense. "hey, you okay?" I ask and she nods. "earlier was fun" I say and she just nods again. dammit "wanna talk?" she dosent answer me "baby I think we need to talk, bub, are you listening?" she turns around and looks at me like she didn't realise I was talking to her. "ah I dunno of there's much point talking about it" she says trying to make out like it's nothing. "babe I know that if you think about something for more than five minutes it matters to you and then it matters to me too" I say leaning forward and pinching a piece of chicken to eat. "how bout after dinner we talk?" she says batting my hand away from the frying pan, trying to get another piece. dinner was full of silence while claire absence mindedly poked her food around the plate. I pick her up and take her to the couch to sit her on my lap. I pull a blanket across us and she snuggles in close. "come on tell me what's up" I rub her back trying to comfort her. she sighs "well it's nothing really" she says looking up at me. "tell me anyway" I say, she sighs "well even though I'm 18, I've seen all the places I've ever wanted to see in the few years I've been with you, I've pursued all my hobbies as much as I possibly can and I feel like I can have more purpose doing something else that's not a hobby" she pauses and looks at me, what is she telling me she wants a job or to go to school because at the start I would always ask her and she would say that she didn't want any of that, school was a waste of time when I could provide everything for her, thats what she said. "and" I prompt I need to know what she wants to do. when she speaks next her voice sounds like a scared plea "I want to have a baby or four, i want to be a stay at home mum." wow I was not expecting that f**k, she wants kids, she's clucky at 18 surely that's a record. wait four? "where did the number four come from" I ask and she smiles sheepishly "I want our kids to get along as much as possible and when there's a even amount of kids things usually go more smoothly, I know this trust me" she smiles. Dam she's serious about this. she studies my face and sighs "it's okay I can understand you not wanting to have kids at 21, you must think I'm crazy" I laugh "baby we've already established that, but no I think maybe after we get married and after I take some courses on parenting so I'll actually know what I'm getting myself into. I think I want to have a baby, you might just have to wait about six months." I say and she looks surpised. "are we getting married in six months?" she asks "no, we're getting married in three I just need an extra three months to do the classes and reading" I smile and she looks up at me. "I have only twelve weeks to plan a whole wedding" she says her eyes widening. "yup, I've already hired the best wedding planner there is and she'll be here first thing tomorrow. I'll be out of your way, you get to call all the shots" she looks at me "no! I want your opinion on everything. what colours should be have, wait can...can we like kinda elope" she says quietly. "I just don't do well with crowds and I don't have anyone to be my brides maids or to walk me down the isle and we can just have a big party the day after, but if you dont want to we can do it the traditional way" she rushes without stopping. "no I think that's a great idea." my voice cracks. "whats wrong?" she asks concerned looking to my face for answers. "nothing everything's perfect, seriously, I've never felt so at home and with peace before. it makes me really genuinely happy" her eyes water. "me too" she whispers.