You Win Some, You Lose Some

Girl problems

talons pov

after she's finished crying I carry her up to her room and run a bath. not sure why but it seemed like the right thing to do. so I did it. I put her in clothes and all because I didn't think she'd want me to see her naked. I put alot of bubble bath in so that once she was in there she could take her clothes off with out me seeing anything. I tell her this as I go to get her more pjs after I sit her in the warm bath. I end up picking a white night dress made of the same material her other pajamas were along with some black under wear. "I'm just gonna sit this all here" I say sitting it on the vanity and turning to go. "please stay for a while?" she asks. and as if I could say no to her. I sit there with her talking about her brother till the water goes cold. "well the waters cold so I guess I'll get out now" she says " okay, goodnight then or should I say morning" I say leaving her to get out. when I get back to my room I go straight to sleep. it was 2 in the morning.

the next day I wake up by around lunch time and go outside for a smoke, yesterday was intense. as I'm standing near the pool having my cigarette claire comes up from behind me and hugs me from around my waist with her face against my bare back. I take a deep breath and then exhale "uuh dmint oww ouuu oked" comes out from her face squashed into my back. I chuckle "what did you say?" I ask her turning around to I'm facing her and she looks up at me. " I said I didn't know you smoke." she says looking at my hand holding the cigarette. "I honestly don't even get what people see in sucking on a cancer stick" she says and I can't help but laugh. "ah you make me laugh I've never heard cancer stick before that's creative, but I don't smoke regularly only sometimes." I explain to her. f**k it feels nice to have her body pressed against my bare chest. "what?" I ask, cause she's looking at me with these sad looking puppy dog eyes. "I'm guessing you have to go in another trip again" she says sighing unhappily. God she's cute. " hmm actually" I say leaning down to her to be closer, "I'm free for the next month unless something unplanned happens, appart from the odd half day trips here or there, I'm all yours. I look at her and smile, that nose peircing has totally grown on me I can't imagine her with out it now. "that's good " she says smiling at me. I bring my arm up to hold her hair that must've came out while she slept, I love the feeling of it, and she initiates the kiss this time. we start off with closed lip kisses and then she starts to stick her tounge in my mouth, I'm so gone. I hoist her up so that her hips are around my waist and I flick my cigarette away so I can hold her by the waist. she digs one of her hands into my hair while the other one cups my face. I don't want to go to far with her yet, in case I startle her, so I restrain myself from grabbing her t**s or arse and keep to her waist. she's so f*****g amazing, then I realize it's been about a solid ten minutes at least, so I pull away. and her eyes are on mine instantly. her she's panting really hard and her lips are so swollen and red from our kissing, "your so f*****g beautiful" I lean down and breath into her ear. her face lights up like I just handed the world to her. I wish I could I'd do anything to make her happy.

after a few minutes we sit down and she looks at me like she wants to ask me something. "is there something on your mind?" she stutters nervously at the start

" well, umm I was woundering if I could do some grocery shopping" she says like it would be a big favour. "what? why would you wanna go shopping we have literally everything anyone could need or want and you said so yourself you don't like people." I say smiling down at her. "well actually" she says turning pink "there's a few things that I need, that you don't have here." what really ? " like what?" when I brought her home I didn't know what she liked so I got one of the maids to buy four of everything in the shop. she looks really nervous as she looks at the ground for a while then she looks back up and squeaks out "girly things" what is there something I'm missing "what? like make up, you don't need make up your perfect the way you are" I tell her confused

" thanks, but I'm not talking about make up" she says talking with more ease now. "why can't you just tell me?" I say starting to kinda freak out, is there something about girls that I don't know? "really, do I have to? can't you just let me go get it?"

" well you could but why don't you tell me so I know for next time what to get. and you know I want to know everything about you, so please just tell me. your kinda making me worried now" to my relief she smiles

" you don't need to be worried" she almost laughs " tell me then" I wine. "urg okay, I need pads" she finally says. my mind comes up blank does she mean like pads you wear for sports. I look at her confused "what do you need pads for?" she's looks at me again after looking away at anything except me then blurts out "cause my periods due tomorrow" I feel my eyes go wide and I mentally slap the s**t out of myself. what the f**k is wrong with me, how the f**k didn't I realise she was talking about that as soon as the said girly, oh my f*****g God. "ahh s**t I'm sorry, I should've understood what you meant from the start I'm really not used to living with a women and my mum didn't talk to me much about this stuff." I'm totally out of my element here I have no f*****g clue, would it be wrong to suggest the maid go get it, would she want me to go in the shop with her or would she want me to get it by myself or her go by herself, would she getting offened if I suggest the wrong thing and what if there's more than one type of pad, f**k. she must've noticed I was freaking out a bit cause when I come out my thoughts and make eye contact again she says "so, can we go to the shop?" after a awkward pause I stutter " ah oh yeah of of course yep." I'm a f*****g hopeless boyfriend, wait is that what we are? I dunno I can't think about that right now I need to get myself to move. "umm I'll go get dressed and wait in the blue one?" she asks as she starts to walk off " yeah" is my lame ass reply. s**t s**t s**t. I ring up clay one of my men, he's been married since he was 21 and has four kids, he'd know what to do. "yea boss?" is the reply that picks up as I get dressed "hey, could you help me with a more or less domestic problem?" I ask urgently. " sure man, what is it?"

"I need to know about periods" I tell him

"wait do you mean how they work like the anatomy or do you mean what does she need?"

" what she needs, I'm on a time limit so try to be quick" I reply tell him

"well you'll need to ask her what pads or tampons she likes, what brands, wings or no wings, extra large or extra small or overnight. unless she's really shy she'll probably have no problem talking about it and of she does just try to be causual about it try not to make a big deal. if she has mild cramps get her a heat pack and nurefon if they're really bad she'll need naprojestic and maybe a bath, also if she has really bad cramps she'll probably vomit too or even pass out. make sure your careful with being touchy and ask her beforehand cause it will change depending on the hour and she'll either not want to be touched at all or she'll want to be smothered. depending on the girl foods are usually different a bit like pregnancy cravings but icecream and chocolate are always a go to and pretzels and popcorn are common ones too. Okay? did you get all that or do you want me to message you the key points"

"umm yeah message me and also is it okay to ask her questions or will she not like it?"

"well depends on the women" he says

" okay then, see ya." and I hang up as I walk into the garage and get into the car. f**k half of what he said went over my head.

"what took so long?" claire asks me as I hop into the car. today she's wearing black track pants a tight grey singlet hugging her body and a denimum jacket."oh one of my mates rang me with a problem." I tell her a small lie. the rides was quite awkward but once I'm parked i turn to her "do you want me to come in with you or....." she thinks about if for a second " um I don't really mind but it might be nice if you come" she says and we get out of the car to walk into our local grocery store. "do you wanna get some food?"

"what do you mean you said we have everything we could possibly need at home?"

"well I dunno don't you want to pick out some comfort food or whatever it's called." I ask

" yeahhhh, I guess, what about icream?" she starts walking towards the frozen section. and I mentally sigh relived that it's not to awkward and follow her.

"what's your favourite icecream?" I look at all the different types.

"well, I like magnum but only on a stick and mainly for the chocolate, but my favourite from a tub is boysenberry"

I smile and grab both chucking it into a nearby vacant trolley.

"what are you doing I won't be able to eat all that!" she exlaims amused.

" that's okay I can help if you want, oohh do you want to get some of this?" I point out some chocolate topping that freezes on the icecream and she nods her head. we also pick out salted cashews, Camembert and brie cheese with those crakers that have nuts and dried fruit in them. then we end up in the isle with the pads and tampons. "uhh so, which ones do you get?" I ask as she looks at the pads "err, well I don't wanna gross you out but I usually just use overnight ones with wings cause I have very heavy flow" she explains, but what the f**k are wings. "erm don't laugh at me but what do wings do?" she puts a couple packets along with some smaller ones in the trolley. " and what are the baby ones for" she smiles as she turns to me, " well wings are like extra tabs that stick to your undies so the pad dosent go out of place, and the baby ones are liners and they're not for my period."

"what are they for then?"

" they're for when I'm ovulating and I have discharge" she says quietly as a mum and their kid walk by

" do you wanna ask me more questions in the car?" she says, cause obviously she wouldn't want to talk about that stuff when there's random people listening. stupid me, we also end up buying a few bottles of apple and black current juice and then pay for everything. I carry everything to the car like the gentleman I am. while I put the food in the boot she gets in. "so," I say starting up the car "ovulation and discharge?" I'm genuinely interested and a bit grossed out. "well, ovulation is when there's an egg ready to be turned into to a baby so then the uterus cleans itself out getting ready for a baby and then you get this sticky white or see through stuff a bit like slim." she tells me casually while watching me out the corner of my eye. probably waiting for my reaction. " wow, f**k, I knew the female body was complicated but I didn't realise it's that complicated!" I didn't know there was that much to it. " haha, are you okay do I need to mansplain it for you or are you just taking in the new information." she laughs. " no I'm just processing it I guess" for the rest of the ride we listen comfortably to music and I convinced her to sing batman again.

she's definitely the one for me.

"no baby it's all good you go inside I'll bring everything in" I say as she goes to get stuff out of the boot. she looks at me "I'm not going to break you know?" she jokes with me. "and since when do you call me baby ?" she laughs. I pull her into me and give her a quick kiss. " since now, is that okay?"

"yeah it's okay" she smirks as she plays with a peice of my hair. and then she pulls me down to her and gives me a toe curling kiss before going inside. Dam.

that night we have pizza for dinner while she watches me play call of duty with a couple of my men, she's wearing a different night dress tonight. it's made of black cotton and is styled like a extra long singlet. and it leaves nothing to the Imagination, I makes me a little jealous that my men get to see her like this as it's still quite short on her but it also makes me happy that they know she's mine. I sit infront of the couch in between her knees while I play and after she's done eating she plays with my hair. after a while one of my men laughs "what?, what's so funny?" I say to them and they laugh more. "for f***s sake what's so funny?" I complain I feel like they're laughing about me. "oh, boss me and the boys were just saying earlier today how much you've changed since meeting little miss and now you've gone so soft your moaning just cause she's touching your hair." they all roar with laughter when the first one finishes. "I do not!" I say getting angry they're my men I'm the boss they respect me. claire starts to giggle, she's allowed to laugh at me but no them. " shut the f**k up, you dogs, remember I'm only soft for her and not you, she's allowed to laugh but all of you aren't!" I yell at them from across the room " sorry boss we were just having some fun." Anthony pipes up. " yeah well you'll have fun with a bullet through your eye then" I say and they all shut up even though I'd never kill em unless they had betrayed me in some way. then I feel her breath on my cheek. "baby calm down, I don't like it when your angry." she says sweetly. I look up at her and smile "since when do you call me baby?" I mimic what she said to me earlier and we laugh while my men watch us. after another a while I realise it's 12 o clock and my baby's tired so I tell my men I'm out and that I'm going to bed as I carry her to her room. "what're you doing you dumbass I can walk?" she says giggling. "yeah I know you little hoe but I like to carry you" is what i come back with. "mkay then " she says as I walk through her door and plop her down on the bed. "talon?"

" yeah baby"

" can you sleep with me tonight I want someone to cuddle" she says while rubbing her eyes. how could I say no. "of course I'll stay with you to cuddle" she lays there for a minute while I stand there observing her. "I've gotta go to my room to find some pjs, okay?" I let her know so she dosent think I'm leaving her. "yeeeep" she replys giggling like she's tipsy, so cute. when I come back she's not there and I almost freak out but then I hear something falling onto the tiles in the bathroom. "you okay claire?" I say softly through the door. I laugh when she says really loudly "HMMM? WHAT DID YOU SAY?" then the door opens and she's standing there looking at me. I grab her hand and walk her over to the bed where she climbs in and pulls me in after her.

she's pretty much already asleep when she unconsciously snuggles up close to me, on her stomach, and throws her leg over mine. so, I roll over so I'm on my side to a little bit more comfortable and so her leg isn't between both of mine. and I fall asleep listening to her heartbeat.

i wake up to moaning and not the good kind, the kind you hear when someone's dying. I open my eye's to see my baby rolled up into a fetal position with tears streaming down her eyes. "baby what's wrong?"

"cramps" is the reply I get and I remember what I was told yesterday. and I don't think this is mild so I run down to the kitchen and tell nik to go get some naprojezic then grab a bucket from under the sink and run back up there to see her in the spot she was when I left her. holy f*****g s**t why does it seem like she's dying, I though natural things were meant to be painless not like this. "I have a bucket here if you start to feel sick, okay?" I tell her and she weakly replys "hmm mm" what the f**k she's so pale I don't think this is normal I'm calling my doctor "hello, doctor Jenson speaking" he picks up. "hey it's talon, I need you to be at my place asap" I say urgently "another bullet wound?" he asks "umm no it's my girlfriend, actually" I say sheepishly. "what's wrong with her?" he says with real concern this time. "uh well she's got her period but I don't think what's happening is normal." I tell him. "can you tell me why?" he says patiently like I want to listen to her crying all day. "well she's in so much pain she can barely say one word, she's paler than a ghost and looks like she's about to die!" I start yelling at him through the phone."I'm very sorry but it's actually quite normal for women to go through that, has she had any pain killers or antinflamitries?" he says calmly which really pisses me off more "not yet but I'm getting her some naprojezic" I tell him getting frustrated that he won't listen to me. "well that's good but apart from that all you can do is give her heat packs and comfort her" he says in such a patronising way I wanna punch him through the phone. " are you f*****g kidding me that's all I can do while she's in agony!" I yell through the phone and then hang up, he was f*****g useless. I turn around to see claire looking at me, she looks so sick, I hate seeing her like this. "is there anything I can do?" I ask her and she barley croaks out a "no" as she hiccups and then power chucks green bile all over the bed and herself. f**k. I go to pick her up " no no I'm gross...don't...touch me....please I don't...want ...you to see me like this I can manage by myself" she says between breaths and tears while I get her into the bath and turn it on along with the remaininghalf of the bubblesbath cause why not. I feel so bad for her I wish I could take on some of her pain. "can you get a bin?" she whispers to me. so I go find a trash can from the corner of the bathroom and sit it on the edge of the bath with in her reach. " can you bring me a extra trash bag and leave for a few minutes" she says " yeah , sure, of course" I do as she asked and while I'm waiting nik comes in with the napro, thank f**k. "where's the little miss? is she okay?" he says eyeing the bile all.over the bed. God I f*****g hate it when someone states the obvious. "well as you can see, she's not." I practically yell at him and he leaves saying he's sorry. I walk over to her bedside table and pick the glass on it. knock knock. "yeah?" she says on the other side of the door. "can I come in now, I have some pain killers?" I ask. " yep" she says. she already sounds a bit better maybe I should've put her in a bath earlier. I walk in and see her clothes slopped on the floor and a tied up bag in the bin that now been placed on the floor. her eyes are closed as I walk over to the sink and fill the glass with water. "here you go" I say squatting down next to the bath to hand her the water and pills. her eyes fly open and her head slightly turns to see me out the corner of her eye's. after a second her hands emerge from the bubbles to take the pills and water. I watch her choke them down and then fight to not let them come back up. by the looks of her she used to it. after she's stopped retching she relaxes and leans back, I'm to scared to leave her so I sit there and watch her sleep in the bath. after about an hour I see the colour return to her face and her features visibly relaxe. she mustn't be in pain anymore. within another 10 minutes she's awake. she looks at me embarrassed. "I'm sorry I should've said something to warn you yesterday but I was too embarrassed I didn't think you'd have to wake up to me" she says seeming much better than she was "I'm so sorry, oh my God, I threw up everywhere" she says starting to cry again. "no, baby, it's okay, really don't be sorry." I try to calm her "do you think your okay enough to get out and dressed?" I ask her. she nods " do you want me to leave now so you can get out?" " yes" she replys and her eyes land on the clothes I picked out for her.

I close the door and wait in the bedroom for her.

Claire's pov

wow he saw me throw up and be an absolute blubbering mess and he still cares about me. he made me a bath and got me meds. was this guy made in heaven, not that I even believe in heaven. and he's so thoughtful he even got me more clothes. I've never been treated like this before, it makes me feel like maybe I'm actually not nothing. it gives me hope, maybe there is someone out there that can love me. once I've slowly gotten dressed into some more black track pants and a blue crop top I walk out to see him rubbing his face, looking out the window at the view. "hey"

talons pov

I turn around after I hear her, she's still so beautiful every time I see her and that tatt makes her so hot. I can't help but smile at her. "what?" she says turning pink. "I'm just thinking about how hot you look with that tatto" I inform her. "are you serious I just threw up infront of you, crying like a blubbering mess and you call me hot?" she exlaims incredulously. "well you weren't hot while you were doing that " I admit to her and she smiles. " wanna go somewhere else to lie down or something?" I ask her " or something" she says following me out her bedroom door while some maids go in to clean up. "so do you wanna go outside or inside?" I ask her "inside" "okay, lounge, theatre, my bedroom or game room?" I ask her "I didn't know there's a games room let's go there." I grab her hand and we stroll through the house to the game room. my game room is just for me, I have a bar in there along with snacks and a massive TV with a gaming set up and a L shaped black leather couch. once we get their claire plops down on the couch straight away and I get out some of the juice we bought the other day along with a bottle of vodka. I pull out the two biggest cocktail glasses I own and sit down next to her after sitting it all down on the coffe table infront of us. "is that vodka ?!" she says surprised. "err yeah I was gonna out some in your juice"

"umm I don't really drink, and anyway I can't have alcohol with the meds I've taken" she says like an adult. "well more for me" I say pouring her just juice and then mine with three parts juice to one part vodka and then I take a small swig from the bottle before putting it back. "do you want some of the food we picked out too?" I ask her. "yeah, actually, icecream sounds good" she says happily. " I'll go get it and be straight back" I say as I run out the door to get to the kitchen. I come back within no time and brought some bowls too with spoons. after finishing the tub with me my baby girl curls up and falls asleep on my lap while we watch movies