Beautiful Mistake

CHAPTER 1

Cold breeze hit my face when I got out of the building. I walk towards the parking lot to reach my car; to have heat or warm that could make me feel better.

Winter in England is not too good nor too bad, and accepting your faith to stay for five years in here is not that bad; it's just weird to have a new environment when you're so used to the hot breeze of air in tropical country.

My body was still adjusting to the Cold like it was not used to this; as I entered my car, I lay my back in the seat relaxing and calming my nerves.

Being in England at January was never been a good idea at all, it was one of the coldest month in here and snow was falling especially at night the temperature today is 9F it's cold because the average temperature was 13.2 and this 9F today was so cold.

Why did I even end up being here in the first place I hated England, I don't want the Cold. I want something hot, something warm something that could make me sweat. Not a temperature that gives me chills not a temperature that is way way more cold than I could imagine...

I felt like I force my self into the refrigerator but even I don't like the climate in here this is the only place I could be away from her. This is the place far away from the girl I desire. Maybe in five years I would forgot her. Maybe in five years I would have my own family in here. It was just an infatuation isn't it?

I drove my Lotus Eletre in the wet cement of the main road driving it slowly so I couldn't be in any car accident soon, but deeper in my thoughts I wish I had so I won't mind thinking too much if my decisions was right, if the things I did was better for the both of us or better for me. Because something in my inner thoughts saying that it was more than an infatuation.

I park my car at my mother and father house I was in their roof for the mean time while I process my accounts and other things to be settle her in England.

Holidays just past through my relatives just got home yesterday, January 5. When I entered the house I see my mom looking at me smiling and welcoming at their home.

"Dinner?" She asked

I remove my raincoat and other layer of winter coat, scarf hand gloves and boots leaving only the pants shirt and sweater so was the socks I wear my slipper and walk towards her to give her some kiss

She always smile at me, the last time I saw her looking at me seriously was two months ago I guess when I'm still in the Philippines. The serious look that gave me one options only, to follow her.

"I'm oky Alfred, it's just a cast like yours" she even laugh, while Venus was crying being so emotional about what happen me and my two other siblings was just seriously listening to my mother's explanation about what happen to her today

She got hit in run by a car luckily my father was just a meter away from her to pull her out of the way but her right foot got injured in the process

I am so worried I was ready to go in England, I already have a ticket for it but I was relieved that she was oky, she's my mother after all

"Then I'll be back at my work for now bye" as Saturn leave the VC Jupiter started to be called by his people too so he needs to left the vc even though he wanted to ask our mother more

"I think you're fine mom I gotta go I have something to check on" but the truth is I would just check my messenger if she has message for me, I'm whipped

"Alfred" I was about to press end call when my mothers voice become serious, Venus on the other line was also looking at me seriously like she's saying that I'm so done

I bet she told mom about it

I let go a heavy sigh and lay my back at the swivel chair they had in this hotel room

"What is it mom?" I ask so randomly but my mother was so angry looking at me it's like me asking was like a gas to the fire or a wood adding for to the fire making it more bigger and hotter

"Venus told me everything David Alfred Neptune! I'm warning you! You go here in England so I wouldn't do something bad to that young poor girl"

I don't know if I become deaf or all I could ever hear is that silince it's like a long syrene of something, that my earlobes hurt so much and I can't figure a word to speak too.

"Alfred I'm telling you this is not a good joke to our family, I wanted you to get married soon because you're already 30 but for God sake be ashamed, you're liking a girl it's a sin, you could be sued for that! Their is a lot more ladies out there just don't under 20 please be mindful under 30 is better"

"A young girl couldn't do anything about you at all, what could she possible do to you? "

Still I couldn't answer I off my camera and stared at the ceiling Tears falling through by one by one, everyone will know that I cried because I was so worried about my mother but the truth I slowly wanted to just ran away and do what ever I want but my mother ... She knows better maybe.. me and her would be just poison to each other ... What would society say about us?

"She's just 16 for freakin sake Alfred.. you really need to check yourself .. if this is what independency could do to you I wouldn't allow it .. you're now 30 you should know that it's elligal—Its disgusting Alfred!"

What would the people or family of us think of the way we are.. disgusted because I was pedophile

If she was born the year I was born or two or three years later maybe my mother wouldn't interupt at all if I was born late the same as she maybe it could still work... But it was not and it would never be

"Think about your life choices Alfred or I'll be the one doing something that could wake you up unto your little shits! You better be here by this end of this month!!!"

As soon as she said that she leave the VC and I open my camera not aware that Venus was still there, she was so shock to see me.. or to see me cry; I smiled at her

"Happy now?"

She gasped and put her both hands in her mouth but I don't want to hear her voice for tonight I had enough and I wanted to think more to think better rather than just a selfish decision

Maybe she was not the right person for me, maybe I just bound to met her and learn something for, but it would just stay that way it would never gonna change.

"I'll just stay at my room, I don't have the appetite to eat something"

I walk up the staircase I could felt my mother's look at me following the way I walk up through but I never look back... I just thought that it's for the better purposes.

As I lay my body in the soft matres; I was frozen like ice in the bed, unmoving just staring at the ceiling never really cared about what's happening around or what time is it.

My stomach also growl for hunger because I also didn't ate my lunch and breakfast. I felt like lost in the way of how to function, no inspiration, no fuel of going through of this; like I was tired adopting to the people around me, like I lost the way I used to be.

A vibration of something in my pocket wake me up, I don't even want to move, but what if it is important? I end up taking it out in my pocket and reading a message

Ashley:

*Sent photo*

Hope you like it! ^_^

The photo she send give life to my dying internal, the simple photo makes me smile, no way she still has effect on me!

Ashley:

You should thank me!

A month had passed but Ashley, my cousin's girlfriend still updates me about her, she still wish that I would change my decision, but she was the only person who supported me in this phase of my life.

I wanted to considered it I wanted to take risk to wager to prove something, but at the same time I can't. Because in the back of my mind I know we're both need to learn in different way, we're not bound to each.

I don't know how long I was just looking at the ceiling I don't even know what time I got home, I just stared at my ceiling all night and my alarm clock wake me from the unresponded mind I had.

I got up and see my self at the whole size body mirror beside my bed that I still haven't change my clothes. I went to the bathroom and let the hot water run through my body I end up wearing a suit under a sweater and black shoes. I didn't even bother to blower or brush my hair I just went down and proceed to the front door. I was in the middle of wearing my coat and scarf when my mother speak behind me.

"Eat breakfast atleast Alfred before leaving" but I didn't talk back, I didn't even spare a time looking at her I remember when I arrive here in November that was the very first time that I smiled at her and last time until now.

I don't know whats wrong with me but I lost all the things and reasons to be good to everyone to smile and talk to them, I was tired; it sucks.

I hold the doorknob and leave the house I remove the snow that covers my cars glass and went inside.

The only thing that I guessed can humour me is that when I see and talk to her again, but it's forbidden; all I have to do is to forget her and keep goin to this miserable life I had.