Love or Leave (#1 of the Grey pack)

never been this good

Derek’s P.O.V.

Yes, this was happening right now. I wanted her and she wanted me right back. I had given her two different chances to pull back, to say no to me, to get out of the truck and walk away from me if that was what she needed or wanted to do, but she never did. Her actions told me that she was into this as well. The way she looked at me with those ocean eyes, spoke much louder than words, even though she might not even have realized it herself. This teeny tiny thing was fierce and a force to be reckoned with. I never even knew before tonight what a turn-on that would be on my part, but s**t… tonight had been a night of surprises alright. And was I happy to have accepted Jason’s proposal, to come to the Ranch House tonight, because f**k… what if I might have missed out on her being here, tonight? Or even worse, what if she had spent tonight with someone else instead of me? But the night was still young, and only the Moon Goddess knew that I was nowhere near done with her for the night either.

“You sure about this, sugar?” I gave her one more out, as our lips were still pressed together, one more chance, even though my control was already hanging on by a very thin thread here. But she just held her head to the side, biting that heart-shaped bottom lip of hers again. Looking like a million dollars to me.

“Do I really need to present myself on a platter for you, cowboy?” She asked me before she ran her tongue over my bottom lip, I let my head fall back as I barked out a laugh in response to her question. This woman was something else alright, and I was in a s**t ton of trouble because of it as well. s**t… I was in deep, deep trouble here.

Lord, have mercy on me!

Damn you, Derek,

always wanting to be the perfect gentleman.

“Believe me sugar, no need for platters at all,” I told her, letting my eyes roam all over her petite figure.

“No backing off anymore now, either,” I added, seeing how her eyes grew wide and wild in anticipation. But before I even got the chance for the first move, the little minx literally threw herself at me, once again. My hands found her ass as if they were made to navigate south, her hands wrapping around my neck, fingers intertwining in my hair once again, making me wonder if she liked hanging on to it?

Hell yes!

I could not help myself but grin at her eagerness. I had had dirty thoughts about her, since the first second I had seen her inside the Ranch House, but never in my wildest dreams had I ever imagined her being so dominant, so in control of the situation. Call it my broken nose and not being able to smell her, and probably being a bit too drunk as well, but this girl had so much mystery to her, secrets that I all wanted to unravel. We could do whatever the hell she was thinking of doing right now. Hell, I wanted to do so many things to her as well. But this right now was going to be fast, hard, and wild like a wolf. And deep down inside of me, a little voice wished that someday soon, I might get the chance to do nice and slow with her as well, preferably in a bed.

my bed

Fuck… I want her in my bed!

The thought of her lying in my bed, my bed sheets covering her naked body, unleashed something wild in me, and I kissed the hell out of those heart-shaped, plump lips, leaning forward to pin her little body between my own and the steering wheel. Once the horn went off, she yelped, and we both laughed. This situation was far from ideal, but still… I would make this s**t work, I needed it to work. I f*****g needed her with a passion right now. She was so soft and warm underneath my hands, that I couldn’t help the groan that escaped my mouth, just by feeling her in my hands.

FUCK

I really want to smell her!

I want to know what her scent is like!

I should have killed that guy, then I would have been able to smell her right now!

She was so small in my hands in comparison to myself, that I almost felt afraid to break her, if I would be too rough. I rolled my hips once, rubbing my hard length against her warm and inviting core. She tipped her head back and moaned lightly, the sounds almost sending me into overdrive, and as I kissed and licked my way down the side of her neck, I had to fight off the urge to let my wolf take over, let my canines grow and mark her as mine.

fuck

What the hell is wrong with me?

Why am I even considering marking a human?

I can only mark my mate!

I had had s*x with women before on countless occasions, but I had never ever been so into it as right now. So desperate for it as I was now. Jessica had bewitched me in some weird way, she had pulled me into her spell. I didn’t know what it would feel like, once I would find my one true mate, but if this teeny tiny human was able to make me feel these things after just having met her, what the hell would finding my mate feel like? And how the hell had any other man ever been able to survive from that? I was about to combust just sitting here in a truck with a human stranger. And I rolled my hips again, just to be able to hear those fuckable sounds coming from her mouth again, sounds that I so desperately needed to hear again.

“You have a condom, cowboy?” She asked me, her voice sounding breathless and wanting, and I almost wanted to growl, because s**t, I didn’t want to use any protection with this girl. I wanted it all with her right now. No barriers, nothing keeping us apart. I never made a big deal out of it before. I always used protection, also to protect myself. But now, with Jessica, in a weird way, I felt angry that she wanted to use protection with me as if she didn’t trust me enough to be clean. As if she didn’t trust in us, while we weren't even a thing. But I knew I needed to get my head out of my ass right this second. If I told her 'no' right now, I knew she would back off and I would lose any chance of being intimate with her. It was either being close to her while using protection or not being close to her at all.

So f**k yes

a rubber, I could live with that.

For now…

“Yes,” I growled, lifting my ass from the car seat just a little, pushing Jessica up as well, as I grabbed my wallet from my back pocket and fished out a condom I carried around just for occasions just like these. A man never knew when he would find himself in a situation just like this one. And I thanked the Moon Goddess that I had been smart enough to pack it all those weeks ago when I had used the last one.

“Derek,” She gasped, while her lips were very much working on the flesh of my neck, and the sound of hearing her say my name with so much lust, made me f*****g hard enough to cut diamonds.

“Yeah, sugar?” I asked her, fumbling with my damn wallet and deciding to just drop it on the passenger’s seat.

“Hurry up, already.” She told me, but I could feel her lips turning into a smile, as they were still pressed up against my neck, so I bucked my hips again, letting her know just how ready I really was for her. Letting go of my skin, she leaned back, her fingers opening the button of my jeans, eyes wide and eager to see what I was packing underneath the fabric. And the way her eyes opened wider as she unleashed my d**k, made me grin once again.

yup

She definitely likes what she is seeing right now!

“Sugar, maybe we should -oh-“ I groaned, letting my head fall back against the driver’s seat, as those fingers grabbed the base of my hard one and gave it a firm tug downwards. And I got overwhelmed, feeling how those fingers were performing f*****g magic on me. I grew even bigger as she kept jerking me off, and for a good second, I even forgot what I was supposed to do here. All I knew was that my eyes were rolling around in my head and I was probably looking at the backside of my brain by now.

What was I supposed to do again?

condom!

yes!

As soon as those ocean eyes saw the small package between my fingers, she grabbed onto it and f*****g opened it up with her teeth. With – her – teeth!

Lord have mercy on me!

"God damn sugar, that is the hottest thing I have ever seen in my life." I groaned, unable to keep the words in.

She grabbed the rubber and rolled it on me, I didn’t even know if she was ready, rolling it all the way down, because I was done waiting, done playing, and a shitstorm of feelings, of lust, soared right through me. I needed her right f*****g now. I needed to be inside of her, feel her inner walls clench around me, see her face as I would make her come, wanting to hear her scream my name out in ecstasy.

“Come here, take me for a ride”, I told her, as my arm was already molded around her tiny waist.

"Spoken like a true cowboy." She giggled, even though her eyes were glassy, telling me she liked my dirty talk.

"You want me to talk about the big snake in my pants then?" I asked her, a grin covering my lips as I saw how her nose crinkled up.

"Yeah, no. Stick to the first cowboy line." She shook her head. And I picked her up as her hands settled on my shoulders, pulling her cute little jeans skirt up to her waist so she could have more room to move, showing me even more of the black lace panties, that I pushed aside, making room for my hard one, as I pushed her down and filled her to the hilt, pushing my hips up because I wanted to be as deep inside of her as I possibly could.

And I saw f*****g stars…

Yes.

Hell yes!

"Oh, fuck." My groan filled the truck, and I saw in freaking tunnel vision once I started to move underneath her, my wolf's senses taking over, as I kept thrusting my hips up into her. But f**k, the way she was rocking her hips back into me, meeting me thrust for thrust, it was something I had never in a million years dared to dream.

heaven

This is f*****g heaven.

I have died and gone to heaven!

That fucker punched me dead... and now, I'm in heaven...

And I started wondering, why the hell hadn’t I let off more steam with human girls before? It was so worth it, especially when I eased back out of her warmth and pushed back upwards, seeing how she let her head fall back, and push her breasts against my chest, all while she kept rocking those hips, making me lose my freaking mind over and over again. God damnit, s*x with this girl felt like heaven and nothing else. And all of a sudden, I understood. This girl had ruined me, she had ruined me for every other female walking on this planet. If, after her, I could not find my true mate, I would be done for. I would probably die from d**k failure or blue balls or something horrible like that. But seriously, after this, after this piece of heaven, the hottest truck s*x in the history of mankind and werewolf kind, how in the hell was I ever going to be able to enjoy s*x with another woman, ever again? And I knew that I simply couldn’t, it would be impossible. I was f****d, royally f****d. Especially when she started to make those heavenly sounds, letting me know that she liked how I was giving it to her, hard, fast, and wild.

Holy shit

It has never been so good.

It had never been this good.

I’m fucked

I’m so, so f****d.

She looked down at me, met my gaze, and held on to it. And somehow, I honestly believed I could look straight into her soul, and her inner walls clenched onto me, almost tipping me over the edge. She was close, so I grabbed her hips, rolling her forward to make sure that her clit would rub against me.

This woman

Fucking hell

She is incredible.

She is f*****g perfect.

“I’m getting close, sugar,” I told her, and as if my words were magic on her part, I felt her inner walls squeeze together, letting me know that she was right there with me.

“Come on, cowboy.” She moaned at me, rocking herself back and forth even harder, and I hoped to the Moon Goddess, that nobody would walk by the parking lot right now, seeing the humping truck at the end of the line. Because s**t, I was not stopping now, if someone would see us, they were about to get a freaking peep show.

I was too far gone, so all I could do was speed up, slamming into her, grabbing the back of her neck in order to push her down with it, forcing her to stay in her place and take all of me, as her cries of satisfaction filled my ears. I came with a groan, pushing myself as deep as I could and staying completely still, deep inside of her, as I felt the condom fill up with everything that I had, and I frowned, desperately wanting my seed to be inside of her. And I was an asshole for feeling that way or even thinking like that. She wasn’t my mate, I had no claim on her in any way. She was just a human girl, and I was a werewolf, a Beta. We couldn’t have been any more different. And somehow, I hated the thought of that, as I was still savoring the best orgasm of my life.