Where it takes you
948 Words
James POV
I was miserable. I wish there was a better end for all this but life threw everything at me.
Elena would just come and do my session.After that,no matter how much I called she wouldn't come.
I looked at the rain outside. What was life? Is this how it is meant to be?
I looked at the door as it opened slightly.
I could not believe my eyes.Was I dreaming?
Elena walked into the room silently.
"You called." She whispered.
I sat up and pulled her to sit beside me.
"Please just listen to me!" I whispered with a broken voice.
"I am listening. "She whispered. She looked so soft and weak.
"Elena,I am sorry. This was not supposed to happen. I should have come up with an excuse but you have to understand me.It is not hard for me to leave Adele.I cannot throw away my 6 years of marriage like nothing. I have a daughter. " I explained. As much as it hurt me to say it, I had to.
"So you wanted to end things with me? That's why you had s*x with her?" She asked, her voice was trembling. Her eyes turned as red as blood,with the unstoppable stream of tears
"No...I-"
"Save it,James.I am done chasing you.I am done trying to make this work.If you felt guilty, you should have just walked out not break me like this." She cried.I have never seen her this weak.All the time,she always altered her pain into anger but tonight. She sat at the end of my bed and cried about how I broke her.
"God,I loved you.You were the only man I have ever loved and that's f*****g silly of me to even think that you would love me back." Her eyes reflected pain and regret.
"Elena,don't cry. I can't bear seeing you cry." I wiped her tears.She slapped my hands away instantly.
"Don't touch me.Damn it,I really thought that maybe we could work this out.Maybe fate would take us somewhere but damn it." She murmured. She stood up and turned around as she started to murmur things.Her state scared me terribly. Have I really damaged more than I can repair? Can she even repair on her own?
"Elena,I want you but I cannot leave my family either. I don't know what is right. I don't know what to do." I whispered.
"Are you crazy?!" She grabbed my collar and leaned closer to my face.Our nose touched each other.
Oh that sensation, that ecstatic feeling. All of that came back.
"Then go to your family and don't bother me.Leave me alone." She cried as she fell to her knees.
"What is wrong with me? Did I think that you would ever do something for me? You are just as selfish. I never ever opened my heart to anyone except you! And you broke me in the worst way. So go,be happy. Forget about me!" She stood up.
"I don't want to be without you!" I raised my voice.
"Elena, I have opened my heart to you too,despite everything between us being forbidden, I let myself fall with you. I want you.So give me another chance." I whispered.
"I have damaged myself more than enough for you.I don't deserve to be someone's second choice.I don't deserve to be a side w***e. I don't deserve to pushed over every single time and only picked when you feel like you want to enjoy. I am done. Go to your family. Go to your wife. They deserve you." She wiped her tears and walked out of the door.
My heart broke in a million pieces. My whole body was trembling.
What have I done? How do I relieve her from the pain? Every tear she shed,stabbed my heart like a thousand knives.
Wiping my eyes,I called Bradley.
"James." He said.
"Could you come to my cabin if you are free?" I asked.
"Sure."
The line went flat.
Within five minutes, he entered my cabin. He sat at the end of the bed.
"What's wrong?" He asked upon seeing my condition.
"Just... Elena ended things with me. " I whispered. My heart started to feel heavy again.
"Don't you think it's for the best?" He asked.
"I am in love with Elena!" I spat out. What did I say? Was I really in love with her?
"This is not love.This is infatuation. You will forget about her once you are out of here." He said.
"I cannot. The longer I stay away from her, the more it pains me.It gives me a heartache to even imagine a life without her. " My voice trembled.
"But...then there is Adele and Zoey. I cannot give them up. It feels like I am in love with two people at the same time. " I whispered.
"You can never be in love with two people at the same time. You have to choose. Elena comes with a high price but she is worth it all but Adele,she is the woman just for you.If you choose Adele,you will lose Elena...forever. If you choose Elena,you will lose your perfect family." He explained.
"I don't know what to do. I want Elena but she does not understand what I am feeling. She just...she has her own pain to deal with. I don't blame her.I wish she would help me out. " I whispered.
"Elena is not the kind of woman who will be a second choice. As of now,she is your mistress. It's better that you either choose her or end things up with her immediately because she is not one to be messed with. " He said.
"Follow your heart. Follow where it takes you."
- Writer
