"Tommy, it's cute that you are being so protective and sweet over my empty uterus.
But on the other hand, you wanted to get me pregnant without my consent.
Do you see anything disturbing about these things?"
" First off, no. I want you J. I've been making love to you for weeks now and it's been fully consensual.
And secondly, we don't know that you aren't with child for sure. So let's just be careful."
He was way too cute as he bent and kissed my abdomen.
" I'm on birth control."
"What? When? Why? I mean you aren't even having sex....well before all this happened." he pulled back, actually looking a bit hurt.
" Tommy, I am a responsible woman. I am in college. Aren't your other girl acquaintances doing the same?"
He sat up straight.
" You are not like them. I see you like...my sister. I mean, you are innocent and shy. You don't chase football players or go to frat parties. You are a loner girl."
I wondered if he had any iota of a clue that how much he just said hurt me. Sister? Loner girl?
I close my eyes and took several deep breaths.
" And you Thomas Hamilton are the star quarterback, soon to be swooped up by a pro team and start your career. Once this snow disappears, so do I."
I saw it on his face, he knew it was the truth. I had no place in that life.
" We could make it work. I will make you fit into my life." He said looking at his hand now holding mine.
" I don't want that for you. You are finally realizing your dreams. The years of hard work to obtain your goal is going to come to life soon, very soon.
The whole world will get to finally see our great star quarterback conquering the NFL. I will be cheering you on.
I will not be your baggage. You can't divide yourself and lose focus over a loner girl that's just like...your sister?"
He ran both hands in his hair.
" s**t, you sound just like my father now. That's exactly what he would tell me too."He said.
" I owe you so much Thomas. But, you owe yourself so much more. You are going to be someone. Like a real important man. I am so proud of that. It's a privilege to be adored by you.
I am better for having been touched by you. Learning my lessons about love making and how to touch myself...I am like a pro at that now!" I smiled.
" I see you girl. I know what you are doing. I promise you, I'm not done with you my little s*x kitten."
He pushed me down onto my back and started to touch me.
Starting with my hair, moving down to my face.
Like he was burning me into his memory.
Then he moved to my neck, planting soft kisses there.
His hands roamed over my shoulders as he gripped them and released them.
Then he was cupping my breasts softly as he lay his head over my heart, listening to my heart beating.
I ran my fingers through his thick brown hair. I loved his hair.
We stayed there like that until I heard him lightly snoring.
He was so adorably mine right now. I too wanted to remember this moment. Because as the snow melts away, so do my guys.
" Eivan." I whispered.
" Yes?" he answered right away.
" Come."
He ducked his tall head into the fort and swiftly lay down beside us.
" Kiss me." I mouthed.
He frowned for a moment, thinking.
"Kiss me goodbye." I ammended in a whisper. We both heard the snow melting off of the eaves, dripping down like rain.
His mouth ascended on my own as Thomas head was still pillowed over my heart.
Eivan's tongue tasted like whiskey and mint.
He was slow and passionate as he licked my lips and tasted every inch of my mouth.
I savored every move and nip and breath that mixed with my own.
His hands were wrapped in my hair as my hand was on his neck.
He told me without speaking how much I really meant to him...in this moment at least.
I was taking it all in so I could lean on it later in my life and hold no regrets at not showing him that in my own way, I love him.
I know that my heart wants him to throw everything away for me, but my soul wants him to be happy. Whatever that looks like, he needs to be happy.
Diana is his happiness. He will love her and create a family to cherish with her, she is after all his first choice.
I'm not delusional enough to think that these past few weeks have been real.
But...as his hand moves to my n****e, he strums them like he's playing a harp and I'm singing my love music back to him.
Thomas stirs as he realizes that we are no longer alone.
" Hey, what's going on?"
I pulled his hair and brought his head up to my lips.
" We are simply running out of time and the world is coming for us. Just one more night.
All of us together just as it started. We will carry this night with us as a torch into the darkness.
We will always have our snow storm romance. No one or nothing can take this time from us. Show me what my body was made for Thomas."
He nodded as he crashed his lips down to mine. Eivan had moved to my naval as he licked and nibbled his way to my panties.
This time, he used his teeth to pull them down.
I lifted my slender hips up, so he could slide them off of me.
I heard him softly moan.
" Snows melting Tommy, all over the bed. Keep kissing that hot mouth of hers. I'm going down." He said as he moved my thighs apart with his hot palms.
My lips were swollen with my lover Tommy's kisses and sucking my skin. Putting his hands around my neck, he held me there, pressing me down into the bed with kisses.
His tongue collided with mine as my excitement exploded into gasps and moans. Eivan was tasting me as he pressed two fingers into me, then his tongue.
" She taste like fresh snow and wild flowers. Honey...and mmm.. musk. It's heaven brother. Come taste this."
They switched places then as Eivan licked my bottom lip, then his finger. "Can you taste yourself on me?"
I nodded, my mouth open as I was breathless now.
Tommy was very skilled at loving me down there. He started a rhythm of assault on my swollen clit.
My senses were all firing off at once as Eivan continued to kiss me.
" She's ready. Do you want to dip into this first or...should we try it together this time." Thomas hissed.
" Eivan let January climb on top of you." He moved to lay back as I straddled him.
I sucked in my flat stomach as my hips jutted forward to take him all in.
My hands were spread across his broad chest.
He looked at me and then down at our union.
Watching as I moved up and down his big shaft.
" Lie down on his chest baby." Tommy instructed.
I followed his every command.
Eivan ran his fingers through my hair as his d**k twitched inside of me.
" Relax baby, I'm going to come visit you now." Thomas spread my checks as he moistened his tip with his spit and pressed against my sheath.