Unable
1073 Words
EMILY
I barely slept the whole night because I couldn't get rid of the thought of sleeping and being swallowed by a werewolf.
I felt like he was around. He was staring at me from somewhere and he was going to eat me the moment I closed my eyes or take me away.
I couldn't get over the reality that werewolves exist and my professor turned one right in front of me. It freaked me out and I felt the urge to wipe off my memory.
As if that wasn't enough to haunt me, the fact he mentioned I was his mate still drove me insane. How could I be his mate when I'm not an animal?
I'm suddenly irritated by Professor Dylan. I screamed out loud irritated by my thoughts and everything that had happened so far.
After some minutes of contemplating if I should go to school or not, I decided to.
The reason I have decided to go to school and today's lecture even though he's the one taking my first class today was because I wanted to act like all I know so far isn't true.
I refused to let it affect me and I refuse to think about it. I prepared for the day, got dressed, and made my way to school.
Some seconds away from the lecture room, I took in a deep breath and exhaled. "It's fine Emily. He can't hurt you. He can't do anything. It's fine. It's nothing. You are safe,"
I entered the lecture room and he wasn't there yet. Usually, I would take a seat at the front but I went to the back to hide myself, hoping that he wouldn't see me or make eye contact with me because only then would I not be able to hold myself and continue the class.
"Why are you seated over here?" Mira asked as she settled down beside me.
We always sat together. She is one of my closest friends and there's nothing we don't do together.
"Nothing." I lied.
From my peripheral view, I could see her scurrying her brows at me.
“You have never sat at the back of the class before and even if you wanted to do it, it wouldn’t be in Professor Dylan’s class so what’s up? Tell me. Speak to me, I’m all ears.” She stated.
Even if I could convince others without having to do much, I wouldn’t be able to do that to Mira. It’s just impossible with her because she knows me so well.
“It’s nothing.” I lied.
“You…”
And that very moment she was about to counter my words, Professor Dylan walked into the class and I felt the air in me seize.
I expected it to be difficult to be in his class and not see him as a werewolf but it was more difficult than I thought the moment my eyes set on him, I saw the white wolf he turned into and I felt a strong urge to pass out again.
“Are you alright?” Mira whispered beside me and I shook my head then nodded my head.
I was so bothered that I didn’t know what to say to him and suddenly I forgot what it was she asked me.
I was startled the moment I felt her hand on my shoulder.
“Oh my goodness,” I muttered startled.
“Are you sure you are alright? What’s wrong Em?” She asked sounding inquisitive.
Just then my eyes met with his and I forgot how to breathe. I immediately looked away not wanting to see him anymore but I could tell that he was staring at me although where I sat was not close to where he stood.
I tried not to think about anything but I cousins help but feel his eyes on me.
It was making me uncomfortable and it got worse when he cleared his throat and began to speak. I couldn’t help it and took my stuff and dashed out of the classroom.
I could hear Mira calling to me but I didn’t stop and kept walking away.
“Where are you going, Emily?” I heard him say as I made my way towards the door with my head down.
I didn’t stop walking even after hearing his voice. All I wanted to do was leave the class and go anywhere else but here.
I didn’t look at where it was I was going but I knew I was heading towards the direction of the door but then I bumped into someone and my stuff fell from my hand to the floor.
“I’m so sorry.” I apologized as I bent down to pick up my stuff hurriedly.
I saw the person I bumped into hand helping me pick my stuff. The hand looked familiar and so I looked up to see for myself to confirm and just as I thought, it was him.
Rafael. I felt my heart skipped when his hands grazed mine.
Ever since I set my eyes on him, I crushed hard and no matter how I tried to get rid of it, I couldn’t help it.
He saved me. He helped me and he kept his distance.
Rafael isn’t someone to get close to. He doesn’t speak to anyone, doesn’t have friends, and just focuses on his business.
The only person that has gotten that close is Sabrina and it was obvious she was the one hanging around him and not the other way round.
Seeing him made my heart skip and for some seconds I forgot my worries. I forgot for a brief second the horrible reality I’m faced with.
“Here you go.” He said in his deep rich voice that always made me shiver as we stood back upright handing me my notebook.
“Thank you.” I gulped the lump that formed in my throat, unable to meet those beautiful eyes of his.
“Are you alright?” I heard Professor Dylan say and I snapped back to reality, remembering what it was I was doing before I got stuck and so I dashed out of the class.
I don’t want him close and I don’t think I ever want to see him again and I doubt I’d ever be able to attend his class again.
Tears streamed down my cheek as I ran off.
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