KADE’S POV Was she as nervous as I was? Was she looking forward to this like I was? The questions kept coming to mind and even when I tried to get them to stop – it was getting me over my head – they didn’t want to. I tried not to think about how I was going to make this happen. This wasn’t the same thing that happened with Olivia, not that I wanted it to be, but three years without a partner and the warm touch of your mate gets you in the state of mind where you question everything. And this was me questioning if I was going to do it right. It also didn’t help me, knowing that I wasn’t Zaya’s first and that I wanted her, even more than I wanted Olivia back in the day. And I was without a doubt head over heels for her then. Feelings are hard to understand these days. Were the words