He wants me, Only me

Chapter 5

It’s finally the weekend and I really need this. I’m running on fumes. I haven’t slept through since Wednesday when he blared the music into my room. He has been blowing up my phone with his songs. I try and stay up at night waiting for him, I’ve been sleeping with the Knife under my pillow when I actually sleep. His songs have become more threatening everyday. All I want is for it all to stop or for him to just come already. If I just saw his face, I could get a restraining order or at least tell the police. I feel safer during the day. So I keep on taking naps during the afternoon until I wake up when it’s dark. I then stay up until about 4am and then I got to sleep until my alarm goes off, but since it is Saturday I can just sleep through until it’s time for our double date. Which is what I did. I slept until 1pm and then I started to get ready. I put on a Navy blue jumper that has big sunflowers all over it. With it I wore a pair of brown sandals. I curled my hair and tied it in a low ponytail. I quickly did my make-up adding a warm brown colour lipstick. It was almost time for Shane to pick me up for the date. I was busy packing my things over into my brown handbag when my phone rang. I picked it up no hesitation. I’m use to it by now, but I was not ready for the song that was playing.

I torture you, I’m a slave to your game, I’m just a sucker for pain. I wanna chain you up, I wanna tie you down.

(Sucker for pain - Lil’ Wayne)

It was a very short one, but I felt pure fear running down my spine. My whole body felt ice cold, but still I started to sweat. I heard a ringing in my hears as my breathing started to speed up. I started to become dizzy so I sat down and closed my eyes. What am I going to do! About five minutes later I heard a car pulling up, I wasn’t really feeling better. I’m so scared. I don’t even want to leave the house now, but I also don’t want to be alone so I made my way outside. He got out of his car and opened the door for me, before I could get in he gave me a soft kiss. It momentarily distracted me. I got in and put my seat-belt on. 

“Are you okay? You are very pale.” I haven’t told anyone about the songs. I don’t have any prove, but maybe I should tell him, just him. He is my boyfriend and he had been worried about it all.

“I need to tell you something. Things haven’t really settled down. I’ve been getting phone calls this whole week. He keeps playing songs that in one or another way explains what he wants or what he plans to do to me. He just called me again. It basically explained how he wants to tie me up. Some of the songs were about holding me down and kissing me, it all comes down to him coming to visit me soon. I’m just so terrified all the time.” I was trying not to cry, I didn’t want Emmett and Essie to see that I’m upset.

“Why didn’t you tell me, we could have blocked his number or something. I don’t want you to be afraid on your own tell me so that I can help you.”

“It’s a private number, I tried ignoring the calls, but he showed up at 2am and blasted music from outside my window. He left a note saying that I should ignore him. I don’t know how I’m going to stop this or how you can really help, but for now all I want you to do is just to distract me from this.” He took my hand in his as he drove every now and again he would raise our interlinked hands to his lips for a kiss. It calmed me down, he reached to put on some music, but I stopped him the last thing I need right now is music. It didn’t take long for us to reach the restaurant where all of us were going to eat some lunch before we went to gaming arcade where we would spend the rest of the afternoon. Shane opened my door for me and took my hand leading me into the restaurant. Essie and Emment was already sitting at a booth. Emmett was looking grumpy, he is Bradley’s friend and he doesn’t like Shane all to much. I smiled at them as we got closer. Shane had let me scoot in first which I was grateful for it. I felt safer trapped in between the wall and Shane. He took my hand in his under the table and then I felt his thumb stroking over my skin. It was creating calming circles on my skin. The tension in the air wasn’t that pleasant, but we all tried being nice to one another. We ordered our drinks. An uncomfortable silence fell over us. Emmett and Shane were glaring at one another and Essie and I were just looking anywhere, but them. I gave shane’s hand a squeeze. He looked down at me as I begged him with my eyes to please stop with the glaring.

“I can’t wait for the arcade. I’m pretty good with the basketball toss. I want to get as many tickets as possible so that I can get Vanya something cute.” Shane said breaking the ice. I was relieved that the glaring at least stopped.

“I like doing the punching bag game to see how hard I can punch. We all know how hard you can push don’t we Shane?” Emmett said smiling at shane. I saw Essie rolling her eyes at him.

“Yeah I got him good, speaking of have you been keeping him on a leash, because Vanya has been getting a few disturbing phone calls from a private number and he visited her house again.” Great so much for my plan of not telling anyone else.

“It isn’t him. I’ve been with him most of the week, making sure he has an alibi for when someone tries to accuse him again.”

“Right because he is so innocent. It’s not like he has been harassing her for a while now. Even you can’t be with him all the time. What about before school and at night? What about right before we came here, were you with him then? He called her again playing her a song describing how he wants to tie her up. Where were you Emmett?” Shane kept pushing and it made Emmett shut up.

“Look I know the guy and I don’t think that it can be him. He is very determined to find who is doing this to Van…He loves her, he wouldn’t hurt her in anyway. It has to be someone else.” Emmett admitted defeated by what Shane had to say.

“Okay then let’s check his phone. If he hasn’t called her and he doesn’t have the songs on his phone then I might start looking for someone else, but I’ll still keep my eyes on him, he could have just deleted any evidence.” Shane challenged Emmett.

“Fine I”ll check his phone. Van can you think of anyone else who could be doing this to you, anyone at all?” Great now this double date has became a investigation session.

“No, I can’t think of anyone else. No one has showed interest in me, not like this. A couple of guy have asked me out, but when I say no they just drop it or Bradley made them drop it. He is the only one that fits the pattern, I’m sorry Emmett.” I know he doesn’t want this to be bradley. They have been friends their entire life. Since their moms met when giving birth. I don’t want it to be Bradley either. I don’t want it to be someone I know, because I can’t imagine someone I know to be so cruel.

“Baby, will you be able to give us a list of all the guys that have asked you out. Maybe on of them didn’t get the hint and have been keeping an eye on you.” This was getting ridiculous, yes I want answers and I want this to stop, but what are they going to do, play cop.

“I probably can, but how will it help. What will you do, go around punching guys because once upon a time they liked me. Everyone will talk about it and before we know it we’ll be called in for harassment.”

“We’ll be discreet, we’ll just talk to them about it. We’ll ask if they are still interested. If they say yes we’ll see how interested they really are.” How on earth does Shane think that it would work. I created a scene, he assaulted Bradley. No one in their right mind would tell him that they are interested in me now.  

“I don’t think that is a good plan. I think you could probably just be on the look out for someone who stares to long at me or who follows me. Something like that, but you can’t go around asking people if they are interested in me. That is the worst thing you could possibly do. What if my stalker is in the crowd and he gets upset because He doesn’t want others to be interested in me or he knows we are trying to find him so that I could get away from him. At the moment I’m doing what he tells me, because I’m scared to my core of him and what he will do. I tried ignoring him and he got worst. I can’t do worse than this I’m hardly sleeping as is. I’d rather sleep in the day than at night. At night I sit in my bed with a knife, when I sleep I sleep with a knife under my pillow. He is promising me that we will see each other, that I will be his when the moment comes where we meet face to face I do not want him to be angry.” Everyone was staring at me. I wanted to crawl in a dark hole and hide away. Just then the waiter returned to take our food orders. No one knew what to say to me so they rather turned their attentions to their menu’s. No one really knew what they wanted so they gave what ever they saw first. I ordered a half portion of chicken fillet with cheese sauce. I don’t think I can eat a full portion, especially not with the looks of sympathy that I’m getting. No one said anything else about the stalker situation they all just started making small talk. I was grateful for that. Our food came and we ate it up in silence. We made our way to the arcade and I could feel how the atmosphere stared to become better. Everyone was distracted by the liveliness of it all. For me it hand another effect completely. There was just to many people and too many faces. I felt very overwhelmed by it all. My stalker could for alll I know be anyone of them. He could be hiding anywhere here. I still placed a smile on my face and tried to ignore the feeling of fear bubbling up in me. It all went south when Shane suddenly grabbed me from behind me, hugging me. I screamed out in fear. He instantly let me go and started to apologize. He then excused us and drove me home.

“I’m coming in with you. You said that you aren’t sleeping at night, so I’ll keep you company.” I was not about to tell him no. I was terrified of the night and I’d rather have him here than sit awake in my bed afraid that my stalker will show up. The two of us laid down on my bed and watch videos on his phone. He was holding the phone in his one hand while he his other arm was around my body. My head was resting on his chest. I felt safe and before I knew it I fell asleep in his warm arms.