Always You

Chapter 21

Lily PoV

What letters James and Natasha was talking about? I don't remember I received it, even once.

I looked at James for confirmation and he just nods at me. So, he was writing letters to me but where are the letters? Why did I not receive them?

I'm about to ask him when my phone rings, it's Mira.

"Hmm... excuse me," I said bringing my empty plate and put it in the sink.

"Why did you say that? I told you not to tell her." I heard James before I left them in the kitchen.

"Hey." I greeted.

"I'm just wondering if you are okay," Mira said from the other line.

"I am," I answered.

"Are you sure? What happened between you and James, Lily? Why was he there?" I know she would ask me about it earlier.

"He just wanted to talk to me."

"About what?" Mira wanted details.

"Remember about what I told you last time? Natasha is not his girlfriend but his cousin." I shared with Mira.

"How on earth did that happened?" Mira asked confused.

"They pretended. A crazy idea to play with my emotion."

"What?" Mira asked in tone to defend me.

"It's not James' idea." I don't think I can let Mira hate James when Natasha already admitted it.

"And were you caught by them? Did he know that you like him?"

"Sssh. Mira! Can you please, don't say that aloud? What if someone can hear you?" I warned her and check my surroundings.

"Aha, he did not know yet," Mira said as if she was also in relief.

"But there is a problem. He said that he likes me." I can't help to share it too with Mira.

His words keep on replaying in my head.

"Oh my god! And what did you say to him?" Mira asked she was obviously happy from the other line.

"You think, I can believe him?" I said but deep inside of me knew that I did as I can't let his words out from my head.

"Why not? I'm happy your feelings are mutual." She beamed.

"I don't think, I can let myself be hurt again by trusting him. Ten years is already enough Mira. I don't know why he needed to show up just now." I can't help myself to worry.

"I was bearly holding each day and he happened to be back and I'm in mess again. "

"I thought, you wanted to see him again, even just once?"

"I realized, seeing him again makes it difficult," I said.

"Girl, it's not difficult but you are just afraid. Why don't you try?" She suggested.

"I don't think, I will be okay for the rest of my life if I do. He will just leave me again just like he did ten years ago." I sadly stated.

"I don't think, I can be of any help Lily. But, why won't you give him a chance? Stop dwelling in the past." Mira always told me that but I can't simply stop.

"We will see." Was my only reply as I saw James' back.

I don't think he was listening.