My Lust Love

Chapter 4

"My treat," he whispered.

I stiffed for a moment. Napako lang ang tingin ko sa kanya habang nakatingin pa rin siya sa malayo.

I slightly pushed him. "I thought you weren't gonna come." I acted like his presence didn't bother me.

"You thought." He freaking smile a little.

"Oh my gosh, did you just smile?" My eyes widened and my mouth dropped.

He looked at me and raised his can of beer. "Cheers?"

I giggled. I caught him smiled! Para akong nanalo sa lotto. Akala niya siguro hindi ko 'yon makikita. He was way cuter when he smile.

Ngumisi ako. "Cheers." Inangat ko rin 'yong sanmig na inabot niya. We cheered and drank the beer.

I looked at him. "You should smile more," sambit ko at saka muling tumungga ng sanmig.

"Kahit walang dahilan?"

Naningkit ang mga mata ko. Was he joking or was that a sarcasm? Ang hirap nanaman basahin ng emosyon niya.

I took it as a joke. Pinilit kong tumawa kahit hindi talaga ako natawa. "Marunong ka pa lang mag-joke?"

"Sinong nagsabi?" Bumalik nanaman 'yong malamig niyang boses.

I rolled my eyes. Hindi ba obvious na sarcasm 'yong sinabi ko? Ang slow naman nito.

"Si Ruby--" I covered my mouth. I really had a bad habit of thinking out loud. "I mean... it was a sarcasm man." I laughed sardonically.

Para niya nanaman akong papatayin sa titig niya. I knew he heard it. Sana hindi niya masyadong seryosohin, besides it was just a joke kaso hindi nga pala kami close for me to joke like that.

"How did you know her?"

"Ha?" There was uncertainty in my voice. "W-who?"

He rolled his eyes and looked away. "You know who." Tumungga ulit siya sa sanmig niya. My eyes locked on his adam's apple. It perfectly suits his defined jaw.

I flinched nang pumitik siya sa harap ng mukha ko. s**t! I just lost my mind while looking at his jaw, what the hell.

"Ha... ah r-right. You know who." I smirked and looked away. I licked my lips when I felt it dry. Buti na lang nakaisip agad ako ng sagot na hindi ako magmumukhang awkward.

"Right, Paulo." Nakita ko sa gilid ng mata ko na tumungga ulit siya sa sanmig niya. I drank as well. Pati lalamunan ko parang natutuyo na.

The place was surrounded by silence. Tanging kulisap lang ang narinig ko. Tumungga ulit ako sa sanmig. Bitin naman 'yong isang can. I puffed a breath.

"It must be hard ha," I broke the silence without glancing at him. Pinagmasdan ko lang 'yong mga paa kong ginagalaw ko sa tubig ng pool.

"Alin?"

"Come on, Paulo said it already."

I looked at him when I felt him stood. My brows crossed. "Hey where are you going?"

He still continued walking. "Will get some drinks," he said without looking back at me.

Great. I nodded kahit hindi naman siya nakatingin. "Can I request a tequila?!" Buti na lang tanaw ko pa siya when tequila came in my mind.

I pouted when he didn't answer. I hope he heard me. Ang boring naman 'pag sanmig lang.

"Karmina." I looked up and saw Alexis. He was a little bit far away from me. He nodded at tumalikod na ulit. I couldn't really understand his language sometimes. Ang dami kayang pwedeng ibig sabihin ng tango. Ano 'yong tango niya.

Umiling ako at tumayo na lang. I ran towards him. Buti na lang naabutan ko siya; para kasing pagong maglakad.

"Why?" I asked still with a furrow on my brows.

He faced me and look straight into my eyes. Palagi ko talagang napapansin 'yong eyebags niya kapag napapatitig ako sa kanya; though bagay naman sa kanya. Lalong nagiging mapungay 'yong mga mata niya.

"Your place or mine?"

My eyes widened. Parang biglang uminit 'yong malamig na paligid. What was he up to?

"Ah..." I couldn't hide my uncertainty. "W-what... Ah... I'm sorry I'm not interested--"

"You don't want to drink anymore?"

My mouth dropped. What the hell? I couldn't get his point. Ang dami niya pa kasing paligoy-ligoy tapos yung emosyon niya palagi lang namang seryoso.

"No... no I mean... why do I have to choose between your place and mine?" I was really trying to avoid awkwardness in every situation but this guy was really testing the confidence out of me.

He looked at his watch. "It's already two a.a and you want tequila."

My brows crossed. "So?" Kanina siya 'yong slow, parang biglang nag-reverse card.

Ginulo niya 'yong buhok niya. "I don't want to be drunk outside. Lalo't madaling araw na."

Napangiti na lang ako when I got his point. I bit my lower lip to stop myself from giggling. Slow Karmina, why so slow self.

"What now?"

I flinched when he talked again. I shook my head like crazy. Masyado na atang gabi at nawawala na 'ko sa katinuan ko.

"Y-yours." The word suddenly came out on my mouth, besides I also wanted to see his room. I just wanted to confirm if all boys really have a messy room just like Joma; the moron.

He didn't say any words. He just walked away. Ano ba naman 'to? Kala mo walang bibig minsan.

Linakihan ko 'yong hakbang hanggang sa makasabay na 'ko sa paglakad niya. I glanced at him pero seryoso lang siyang nakatingin sa daan. I couldn't stop myself from chuckling. Mukha nanaman nalugi sa negosyo 'yong hitsura niya.

I was amazed at his room. It was bigger than I expected. It think this was one of the royalty room. The ambiance was very different from my room.

Pagpasok ko ng pinto una 'kong nakita ang puti niyang kama with brown headboard. The bed was big as well. Isa lang naman siya, ang laki pa ng kinuha. I bet he was rich. Sunod kong napansin ang malaking mirror wall sa harap mismo ng kamay niya. Ang sosyal niya naman. Matutulog na lang kaharap pa 'yong salamin. G.g.s.s siguro 'to.

There was also small table with basket of fruits on it. Tapos may sliding door pa na gawa sa salamin. Damn! He had his own terrace. Ganito sana kukunin kong room kaso masyadong mahal. Matutulog lang naman ako.

"Tatayo ka lang diyan?"

I flinched when I heard Alexis' cold voice. Nakaupo siya sa sahig habang nakasandal sa kama niya.

"Sa floor tayo?"

Binuksan niya 'yong bote ng tequila. Hinanda niya rin 'yong mga lemon na nakalagay sa bowl. Meron na ring dalawang shot glass. Confirmed maarte nga talaga. Kami nga ni Joma hati lang sa iisang shot glass, even with my friends salo-salo na 'yong laway, who cares.

"Obviously."

I rolled my eyes. Pwede namang oo na lang ang isagot. Umupo na 'ko sa sahig, kaharap niya. In fairness hindi magalas. So hindi nga totoo na lahat ng lalake makalat sa kwarto, dugyot lang siguro talaga si Joma.

Nagsalin na siya ng tequila sa dalawang shot glass. Inabot niya sa 'kin 'yong isa.

"Wait." I stopped him from drinking it. He looked at me with his confuse face.

I grinned. "For the broken hearted people who have been so strong." I raised my shot glass. "Cheers."

Umirap siya at umiling pero tinaas niya pa rin 'yong baso niya. "Cheers," he almost whispered.

Mariin akong lumunok nang humagod agad sa lalamunan ko 'yong init ng tequila. Kumuha ako ng lemon at sinipsip 'to. I really didn't like the taste of tequila, but I wanted to get drunk as f**k; 'yong tipong hindi ko na mararamdaman 'yong sakit sa puso ko.

Nilapag ko 'yong shot glass ko. "So tell me about it." I really wanted to know their story. I was curious what kind of boyfriend he was. Katulad kaya siya ni Joma?

"Tell you what?" Tagos nanaman 'yong matalim niyang titig sa 'kin. I wonder what he was thinking habang nakatingin. Nakaka-conscious tuloy kung may dumi ba 'ko sa mukha.

"R-Ruby?" I sarcastically said. Alam niya naman kasi tinutukoy ko, pa-suspense pa.

Nagsalin ulit siya ng tequila sa shot glass niya. He signaled me to gave my shot glass to him.

"What about her?"

I rolled my eyes. "Come on Alexis, spill the tea. We're not just gonna drink here and talk about nothing." Kinuha ko 'yong shot glass ko sa kanya at tinungga ito. Muntik pa 'kong mabulunan. I hope he didn't notice.

"Spill your tea then," seryosong sambit niya bago tinungga 'yong tequila.

I glared at him. "What about my tea? Bakit napasa sa 'kin?"

"You said we're not just gonna drink here."

Mariin kong pinikit 'yong mga mata ko. This guy was getting into my nerves. Ang hirap niyang kakwentuhan. He was making everything a sarcasm. Nakakagigil.

It took me a minute to open my eyes and it widened when I saw his face so close to mine. I felt my heart beating fast. He was breathtaking, I couldn't even move. Naglapat ang ilong namin at parang may kuryenteng dumaloy mula doon papunta sa tiyan ko.

"You said we're not just gonna drink here," he whispered. Malapit ng maglapat ang mga labi namin. I could f*****g feel his warm breath and I couldn't even move.

Nilamig ako kanina pero parang biglang uminit at pakiramdam ko tutulo na 'yong pawis sa sentido ko. For the first time, I didn't know what to say.

"What are we suppose to do?" I saw his lips moved when he talked; I felt like I was being seduce. He moved his nose through my nose. It was getting hotter. Even his nose felt hot to mine.

Damn! I couldn't even talk. Hinabol ko lang 'yong hininga ko. I bit my lower lip when I felt a tingling sensation down there.

I stiffed when I felt his luscious lips touch mine. Lalo akong hindi nakagalaw. I didn't even blink. Tinignan ko lang ang nakapikit niyang mata.

Our lips parted but his face was still close to mine. I felt like my cells were burning my nerves. His eyes felt like it was burning my eyes. Ang talim ng titig niya sa mga mata ko. Gayonpaman, kita ko pa rin na may lungkot sa mata niya.

Nalipat ang tingin ko sa malambot niyang labi when it moved. "Are we just gonna drink or what?"

I didn't know what possessed me to pull his face on to mine. I pressed my lips against his. My body felt hotter and I could feel the butterflies in my stomach.

He started moving his warm lips. Hindi ako nagpatalo at nakipagsabayan ako sa bawat galaw ng labi niya. I stroked his hair habang nakakapit ako sa batok niya. I parted my lips to gave him full access to my mouth. My sensitive area tingled when I felt his hot palms cupped my face to deepened our kiss.

Naging mapusok ang bawat galaw ng labi namin. I bit his lower lips, he moaned. I felt hotter. His moan sounded so good. He slid his tongue inside my mouth. I welcomed it with pleasure running around my body.

I felt his warm hand slid inside my shirt. Nakakapaso sa sarap ang init ng kapit niya sa 'kin. I suppressed a moan when he reached my bust. It felt heaven when he massaged it thoroughly. I felt my panty getting wet; it made me want to feel more.

I held his shorts and placed my hand near his groin. I bit his lower lips when I felt something hard. Kahit may shorts pa, naramdaman ko ng malaki ito. My sensitive area felt the hunger. Basang-basa na 'yong panty ko and I badly wants to removed it.

I was about to removed his shorts when a door bell startled us. I moved away from him. I found myself catching my breath. It was so damn hot.

I took a deep breath bago tumayo. Inayos ko 'yong nagulo kong damit at buhok. I fixed my posture at umupo sa malambot niyang kama like nothing happened.

Tumayo rin siya. I still felt hot. Lalo kong nakita ang magandang built ng katawan niya pati ng tindig niya. He was also tall. Siguro kasing tangkad niya lang si Joma since hanggang itaas ng tainga nila ang tangkad ko. He was five eight, I guess.

He stroked his messy hair. He looked at me at hindi ko nanaman mabasa 'yong nais iparating ng mukha niya. Nalipat ang tingin ko sa pinto nang may nag-doorbell ulit.

"Hindi mo bubuksan?" I acted like what happened didn't bother me. I still managed to look straight into his eyes.

He gasped and stroked his hair once again. Nagtungo siya sa pinto at binuksan ito.

"Bro sabi mo mag-jo-jogging tayo." My eyes widened when Paulo entered his room like he owned it.

Napahinto siya sa paglakad nang makita ako. Namilog pa ang mga mata niya. Nagpalipat-lipat ang tingin niya sa akin at kay Alexis. "Ay naabala ko nanaman ata kayo." He gave us a peace sign and an awkward smile. "Sorry."

"No hindi... a-ano nag-iinom lang kami." Tinuro ko sa kanya 'yung bote ng tequila sa sahig. "Where's Wendy? Tara join us!"

Ngumiti si Paulo nang makahulugan. He looked at his watch. "Inuman at three a.m in the morning. Mukhang masaya nga ah."

I laughed sardonically. "It was fun actually, try mo. Tara."

"Inaantok na 'ko." Napatingin kami ni Paulo kay Alexis. Puno nanaman ng lamig ang mga mata niya at lalo nga itong pumungay; wala pa nga pala kaming tulog.

"Sige ayos lang. Mag-jogging na lang ako mag-isa. Matulog na kayong dalawa riyan." Parang may iba pang ibig sabihin ang boses ni Paulo. He was grinning like crazy.

"Ah no..." I looked at my watch pretending I also have plans. "Oo nga 'no three a.m na. I was about to jogging din eh." I stood up and looked at Alexis. "Hindi ka sasama 'no?" I assured. I wanted to breathe away from him for a while. Nabigla rin ako nang balikan ng utak ko 'yong mga nangyari.

Umiling lang siya.

I smiled as if I didn't feel awkward with him. "Great. Sleep well." I waved my hands before going outside. Tumango lang ako kay Paulo nang daanan ko ito.

"Di ka talaga sasama?" I heard Paulo asked. Ang kulit ni Paulo. Ayaw nga eh.

"Bukas na lang siguro ako sama. Antok na talaga 'ko bro." Aba parang hindi gaanong malamig 'yong boses niya nung si Paulo ang kausap niya. May bias ata. Unfair.

"Si Wendy?" I asked nang makalabas na rin si Paulo sa room ni suplado.

"Tulog pa 'yon. Tamad 'yon mag-jogging." He laughed. Nakitawa na lang din ako. Mukhang mahiyain si Paulo kapag hindi siya kilala ng tao. Siya 'yong tipong mapagkakamalan kong bakla kung hindi ko pala siya kilala. Medyo mahinhin kasi gumalaw pero medyo magaling din sa kalokohan lalo na kapag si Wendy 'yong inaasar niya.

Napatingin ako sa suot niyang plain white shirt and gray sweatpants tapos naka black rubber shoes. I realized I was just wearing a slippers.

"I will change my shoes pala muna. Pwede ka ng mauna if you want." I hoped he would buy my scam. Para hindi na rin ako mag-jogging. Bigla akong nakaramdam ng pagod at katamaran.

"Okay lang. Hintayin na kita."

I smiled kahit deep inside gusto ng bumagsak ng balikat ko. I didn't want to sound talk s**t kaya go na lang ako, besides I need friends here and I was lucky to found the three of them kaya makikisama na lang talaga ako nang bongga.

Unti-unti ng sumisikat ang araw. Binagsak ko 'yong katawan ko sa buhangin when I felt my body giving up. Humiga ako roon at pinagmasdan lang ang langit.

Napatingin ako kay Paulo when he sat beside me. Nakatingin lang siya sa kawalan. Naglaway ako bigla nang makita siyang may hawak na tumbler at umiinom. I gasped. Why didn't I bring my own water. First time ko lang mag-jogging dito tapos wala pa 'kong tulog.

Ayos lang para mamaya matutulog na lang ako maghapon at hindi ko na iisipin pa si Joma.

"Hey!" I called him nang maramdamang tuyong-tuyo na talaga 'yong lalamunan ko.

"Bakit?"

"Can I have... w-water?" Hindi ko na lang didikit 'yong bibig ko sa tumbler niya. Baka maselan din 'to parang si Alexis.

"Ah sige."

Umupo ako nang inabot niya ito. Hinayaan ko lang bumagsak 'yong tubig sa bibig ko nang hindi dinidikit 'yong tubigan.

"Thanks." Binalik ko agad 'to sa kanya. I gasped. My lungs felt better.

Lumiwanag na ang paligid at natuwa lang din ako sa mga ibong nagliparan sa himpapawid.

"What's the secret?" Bigla na lang pumasok sa isip kong tanongin siya. Nakatitig pa rin ako sa kawalan habang yakap ko na ang mga binti ko.

"Ha?"

I looked at him. Nakakunot ang makapal niyang kilay. Sumikip nanaman 'yong dibdib ko. My memories with Joma kep flashing back on my mind.

"For strong relationship? What's the secret?"