99 Days With My Alpha

Chapter 4

Alana’s POV

I would rather die than get married to that man. When he told my parents that he was going to marry me, I expected a stronger reaction. I had thought that they would fight for me, but all it took was one damn sentence to convince them to make them let me go. They have always favoured their sons, and it was too damn evident now. When I got to my room, Nancy was strolling behind me. She has been my maid since I was ten years old, and had basically grown up with me even though she was older.

“Alana, what is wrong?” She asked once we were in the confines of my room.

I sat down on the bed as hot tears continued to stream down my cheeks. I hated Ronan, and I hated my parents even more for allowing this to happen to me. I closed my eyes as I thought of the way to end it all, and then I remembered the sleeping pills in my drawer. I turned to face Nancy, wiping the tears on my face and giving her a fake smile.

“Nothing. Can you get me some water?” I asked.

She narrowed her eyes at me, suspecting that I was up to something, but she couldn’t stay back because I gave her an order, so she turned around and left. Immediately the door closed behind her, I opened the drawer and the pills were no were to be found. I checked all of the drawers and my medicine cabinet, but they were all empty. It seemed like someone knew I was going to do this, and they took it away.

I headed into my dressing room and there, I knew that I had poison somewhere hidden. Cami and I used to experiment with nature. We had both dreamt of becoming doctors, so we would often catch animals to give them poison and then immediately inject an antidote, then we would observe them. Most of the time they survive and other times, they don't. When the rate of survival started to decrease, we decided to stop the experiments for a while until we actually became real doctors.

Now, not only that Cami wouldn’t ever graduate school, but I wouldn’t. I was going to be married to some notorious man that killed everyone I cared about. Over my dead body, literally. I searched for the poison in one of my drawers, and I found it almost immediately. I let in a breath before I opened the lid. I closed my eyes as I raised it to pour it in, but someone yanked it away from my hand right before the liquid was about to drop into my mouth.

I opened my eyes and I met my mother standing in front of me, her eyes wide with horror, “What the hell do you think you are doing?” She asked.

“Killing myself. What else?” I spat, turning away from her. “I know I will be dead sooner or later when you marry me off to that man. I am just speeding up the process.” She shrugged.

“Darling...” She said in a soft voice, but I raised my hand to stop her from speaking.

“You didn't even try to stop him.” I shook my head, not believing that a day like this was ever going to come into my life. The day when my parents openly chose their other kids over my life.

“Because he has the future of this pack in his hands, Alana. There is nothing we can do about it,” she shook her head. “Please don’t speak like you think we are doing this because we want to, because we are not. You are never going to get over Silas.”

“Then let me stay back in my father’s house and live the rest of my life,” I yelled. “I don’t want to marry him.”

“You cannot stay back.” She shook her head, the first set of tears leaving her eyes.

“And why is that?”

“Because if you don’t get married, no one is going to marry your sisters. You are not only saving the pack when you get married to Ronan, my dear. Don’t take it like I want to do this, because I don’t. I hate the man more than everyone because he was the one that separated me from my son.” She choked out.

I swallowed and folded my arms on my chest. Maybe I was wrong to think that she didn't care. She lost a child after all, but I lost a best friend, a brother, and my boyfriend to him. She didn't understand.

“Even if you don’t agree to this, your father has already promised you to him. I thought I could talk him out of it when he left, but he didn’t listen to me.” She added.

“You did?” I asked as I felt the anger start to subside. At least I had a parent on my side.

“Yes, of course.” She said with a shake of her head.

“I can’t do this, mum. I can’t stand him. This is all too much happening to me in the span of two days.” I choked out.

She hugged me to my chest and I cried on her, my body shaking.

“I am so sorry. I wish there was something I could do.” She sniffed.

We stayed in that position until my father sent a guard to call us. Apparently, he couldn’t wait a day to let the entire thing settle down. He wanted to send me away as soon as he could. I decided to accept the situation and move on. On my way to his office, I realised that if I stayed back, I was going to be tempted to do what I wanted to do a while ago, and it wouldn’t be fair for my mother to lose another child again.

So, that was it. I was going to be getting married to my worst enemy, and there was nothing I could do about it. The mere thought of it made me want to cry from anger and pain. I wanted to switch off my feelings and emotions, but I couldn’t and I had to deal with them. If he got me married now, I wouldn’t be able to attend Cami’s funeral.

I didn’t know if I even wanted to. I wouldn’t be able to stand strong. Maybe it was better if I was not around. Knowing Cami, she wouldn’t want me to stay back knowing that something in me was going to be permanently shattered when I see her being lowered into the ground. My whole world was going to come crashing down. Even though it already was, I was afraid I couldn’t survive any more of it.