The Reincarnated Moon Goddess

Ch14- Powerless to stop it.

Yura Pov.

Fuck Him!

Fuck Kayne who acts like he can come into my life and try and present a solution to my issues just because he had a front row seat to experiencing it for just two and the half days.

Who gave him that right?

He didn’t deserve any answer from me but he attacked when I was weak and already tired.

He wanted an answer. He would get one.

And f**k him for making me talk when it was clear that all I wanted to do was to rest and forget this cluster f**k of a rollercoaster which I am always crushed under which stands as my f*****g life.

“f**k you Kayne. You don’t get to sit there and act frustrated like you are the one who is the pack’s punching bag every day. You have no idea how it feels to be me. Don’t act like you know it all.” I yelled at him.

“I don’t know it all.” He returned in the same tone which I used, same pitch and all. The door of my house opened but I didn’t care that my dad or sister was watching me break down.

“And that is why I want to know why you haven’t fought back. That is the obvious solution but since I don’t know it all, something is preventing you from fighting and I want to know what.”

I scoff at Kayne. “I wonder how it feels to be all powerful and knowing that. Knowing that you will speak and others will listen.” I shook my head. I will not feel sorry for myself. I had passed this stage before my tenth birthday. I had to grow up in ways which my peers wouldn’t understand.

And the irony of it all was that I had to grow up that quickly because of them!

“What does that have to do with anything?” Kayne asked, his brows coming down in confusion.

A part of me, my wolf side wanted me to go easy on him, because he was our mate and savior and also because he is new and didn’t know about me and what I have endured.

But f**k that.

“Spoken like the true elite which you are.” I spat out the words like they were venom then opening his car and jumping out, moving towards the door of my house before I would collapse in tears.

And that was another reason why I don’t speak or allow my situation to get to me.

I always end up in tears and appear weaker. At least with them trying to break me and me showing no emotion, I showed that my will was strong and I couldn’t be broken.

“Oh no, you don’t.” Kayne slammed his own door as he moved to intercept me from running into my house. “We are not going to postpone this conversation. We are going to have it out and you are going to explain what that means.”

“That means Kayne, that I never had that!” I screamed at him. “I never could protect myself, I was always weaker, and two steps behind my fellows. I was never enough to be their standard. You come in and experience three days and think you have the right to judge me for not trying to fight back?

“You were not there when I was five years, I fought back and my arm ended up being fractured in two places. You were not there when I tried to fight back at the age of eight and ended up being tied upside down hanging from a tree and you definitely were not there when I tried to fight back at the age of twelve! And I ended up with a hairline fracture on my skull and all these happened before the extra strength from our animals started to manifest. Extra strength which I did not get!” I yelled.

When I opened my eyes, my vision was a little blurry, I didn’t even know that I was crying until then.

“Yura.” Kayne said softly as he slowly approached me as if he wanted to offer me comfort.

I jumped far away from him.

I knew that if he had his arms around me, I would break down and tell him that he was my mate.

I wouldn’t do that to him. Yes, he might have known the feeling of being powerful all his life but being mate to me would be a weakness which he never foresaw.

I could not do that for my mate. I wanted what was best for him.

And I was not that.

“Go away Kayne, save yourself while you still can.” I forced out of my snot clogged throat before running into my house to escape the person who just wanted to help me.

Whoever made him my mate must be having a laugh at our match right now.

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“Hello Yura.” My father opened my door. It was morning and I had spent the whole afternoon and evening before hiding out in my room.

I was grateful that he even allowed me to hide that much before coming into my room.

“Hello dad.” I returned, pulling myself into a sitting posture when he shut the door with his leg because his hands were filled.

They held one mug cup each, his usual mug and then there was mine, any size which he thinks my mood deserved.

This time, he seem to think my mood deserved the biggest mug cup we have in our house.

I didn’t want to analyze my feelings because I think he guess right about the cup size.

He approached me on the beanie bag which I was sitting on.

“Hot chocolate?” He asked, stretching out the big mug towards me.

“It looks like you are trying to bribe me.” I eyed the cup suspiciously.

“Nothing of sort. I don’t need to bribe you to tell you that you don’t have a choice but to go to school. Now if you want me to change schools for you…”

“The Alpha will not allow that. He has not allowed it throughout the ten years you have been asking for it.” I cut in as I snatched the cup from his hands.

“Then consider homeschooling. Between your elder sister and me, I am sure that we would do better in teaching you more than your teachers at the school.” My father offered.

I didn’t say anything about his offer, just took a sip of my hot chocolate and stared at him.

He sighed. “Yes, that will not work either. If the three of us try to spend the day together, the house will collapse.”

“Not to mention that Hazel has her classes to attend and you have money to work for to ensure that we have enough to keep the family surviving.”

“Then what can I do Yura?” My father asked me, his eyes were dim. “I don’t know what to do to protect you and it is eating at me. My pup is being bullied and there is nothing I can do about it. We could try to move to a different pack…”

“No!” I shut down the offer. I will not let my father uproot his and my sister’s life for me. It was not their fault that I am a freak. They don’t have to suffer for it.

“I will be fine dad. This will end eventually. They can’t remain immature throughout their lives.”

“It is more than immaturity Yura.” My father argued as I shook my head.

“Dad please. I don’t want to leave all that I have known even though it is not friendly. At least it is familiar.” I begged my father.

My father looked torn. This was not the first time we were having this conversation but this was the first time that he was still looking not reassured by my words.

I needed to convince him that it was not as bad as he thought.

“Look Dad, nobody hurt me yesterday, I felt bad because Kayne tried to be my friend and I pushed him away, he was trying to know why I didn’t fight back and I explained it to him. That was what caused the change in my mood, nothing else. I felt sorry for myself. I am fine Dad, I promise you that.”

“So does that mean that I should tell him to get the hell off my property because he is already here and waiting to take you to school?” Dad stated and my eyes widened in surprise.

I didn’t know that he was around.

“No, No dad. He seems like he wants to be friends with me regardless of the fact that I am not normal.” My dad glared at me but I beamed a smile at him. “This is what you wanted right, for me to make a friend. You certainly cannot uproot us from here now.”

My father eyes narrowed at me. “I want you to make a friend which you like, not one that became your friend because he stuck like a leach on you.”

“I didn’t say that I didn’t like him.” I mumbled under my breath and my father looked at me sharply.

“Oh goddess, I think I am going to have grey hairs within the next few weeks.” He tilted his cup and drank everything at once then grimace as the bitterness hits him.

I giggled at his antics. “Well, it was coming, you are already an old man.” I quipped as his eyes narrowed.

“He might be your friend Yura but he needs to watch himself.” He narrowed his eyes. “And I need to watch you two better. I am not ready to start overthinking you and boys….”

“Daddy!” My cheeks were red.

I couldn’t blame the man, he had right to be worried. There is always a chance of teenage wolves getting pregnant by another wolf other than their mate or having another wolf scent intertwined with theirs when they meet their mate.

Both are grounds for rejection and when that happen, the parent of the rejected party bear the full blunt of his child emotions.

I could try and reassure my father.

But what could I say.

That he was my mate and I didn’t want to burden him with me.

If I mistakenly mention that to my father, my father will present me with a bow tied around my neck to Kayne.

Now I have to go downstairs and act like Kayne was just any random individual wanting a friend.