She Keeps Me Warm

Chapter Nineteen

My mind was all over the place and my whole body felt so numb. She told me she loves me.. she fucken told me she loves me.. what the f**k!

I was mad. Really mad.

But then I started to laugh at myself. Ms Louw was abover 25, fucken hot, beautiful, smart, amazing... why wouldn't she be married or even be in a committed relationship. Why the f**k didn't I think of that?

God! I felt so stupid and so dumb.

I quickly walked behind coach as we made our way to the ground. A hand suddenly pulled me and I turned to.... "Susan?"

"It's actually me..." Jasmine said next to my friend. I gave Susan a 'what the f**k' look and she shrugged, "she insisted"

"Hey..."

I smiled a bit, "hey.."

She checked me out without even being discreet about it. From my toes up to my face, she smiled when she saw me lookinh at her, "you always this hot? Or am I in deep shit..?"

I laughed and took her in, she was wearing skinny jeans and a tank with sneakers... "you don't look bad yourself... oh and I think you're in deep shit."

She bit her lower lip, "you gotta take me out.. or else I'll burn in this shit.."

I smiled, Jasmine knew her shit..

"Jas I have a game.."

"And I'm here to watch you play..."

"Can I go now..." she touched my hand, "watch that number 10 cheek, she's the only thing they have...the rest are just... what do you guys call them? Cows?"

I laughed, "you're an idiot..."

Sandra came passing next to me and Jas and this girl was still holding my hand. I tried to pull it away from she refused.

"Lin in the locker right now!" Sandra ordered and I nodded, "sure captain.."

"I have to go Jas..."

She winked, "I'll be watching okay... see you when you are done.."

And then she left me. I started joining my teammates going to the locker with them.

"I have to be honest, Jasmine and you looked very cute holding hands."

"Jas and I don't look cute at all..."

"Come on you and her could make a killer couple you know..." Anna chipped in.

"Yeah and I heard that on that Friday at the party you..."

"Everyone fucken knows what she and Jasmine did to my party.. so can we get back to the game that we have to play right now..!" Sandra yelled and everyone kept quiet..

"Thank fuck... so, now I was Zanele and Queen to pay attention to that number six..." she tried to continue but I cut her off by lifting my hand up. She sighed, "what Olwethu!"

"I'm sorry for disturbing, I just want to tell you that they should actually look into Jersey number 10.. She's the only thing they have there..."

Sandra looked at me, "are you testing my patience Olwethu? Are you always going to go against everything I say..."

I shrugged, "not everything.. just when I don't agree with it... and this time you're wrong. I told you before, I do not lose okay... so I won't test you here.."

She rolled her eyes and pulled me to the side.

"Don't fucken do that to me in front of my team..."

I sighed, "Sandra we are all a team here okay, and if we aren't allowed to make suggestions or talk then fucken say that so I can get out of the team. I won't sit by and let us lose. Heck to the no."

"Guys.. guys come closer.." coach said walking in and we obliged, "I want us to look at number 10, she is good and the rest we have them.. I'll start with Lin.. and then take her out at half time... Sandra you'll be in after the first half."

We all agreed and I went to the field.

The play was fucken good.. people on the chairs were going insane and when I looked around I saw them.. the beautiful married couple standing there next to coach. It made me want to puke and actually started pissing me off.

We started playing.. and I channeled all my anger to ball. By 30 minutes I had scored four goals and Anna scored one, they still were on Zero..

The crowd was going insane shouting my name.

Everytime when I got a ball I made sure I was going forward and I kicked it so much...

Anna came to me when I scored another goal, "what the fuck... where is that beast coming from..."

I shook my head, "I'm tired.. I wanna fucken go sleep forever.."

She laughed and hugged me, "I love you too..."

I looked at coach snd shook my head asking her to exchange me and put someone else in.

She shook her head no.

I sighed and kept on playing.. scoring another one.. so when It was jalf time, the score was 7-0 with me scoring 6.

I was tired as fuck..

I kept on pushing myself... until the half time whistle made noise and I laid in the ground..

I felt hands pull me up..

"Get up..." Anna said and I whined, "I'm tired let me sleep here..."

Zanele laughed and pulled me up, "Come on.. let's go..."

I got up into my feet and lifted Anna up as we walked off the ground.

She laughed and kicked her legs in the air until I put her down.

"What the hell was that for..."

"For making me score six goals.. I mean those passes were magnificent..."

She winked, "you pulled three long ranges and you scored them all.. I wanna be you when I grow up.."

I laughed as we made our way to the lockers.. when I walked in with Anna they all clapped their hands. God! I hated the spotlight so much.. so I pushed Anna to the front and went to sit down.

"Lin come on.. that was a beautiful game..." coach said and I shrugged, "Anna just kept on feeding me... I had to make her proud."

Anna winked at me, "you know..."

Coach smiled, she was proud and the game wasn't even over.

"So.. Sandra will go in and Lin out.. I expect you guys to still keep it up.. Lucia in and Zanele out... the rest keep it up. You're making me proud.

I took my jacket and put it on then coach pulled me to the side, "wooow.. whoever unleashed the beats in you is amazing. I'm loving what I saw..."

"It's nothing..."

She smiled and pulled me close as we all walked back to the field. I went to join Jargua and others on the bench.

Ms Louw... or should I say MRS Louw was standing there next to her wife. She couldn't even look at me.

The wife was talking to her and laughing. f**k! Her wife was fucken beautiful. I watched her slowly as she removed the stray of her hair from her eye and put it behind her ear... then Louw whispered Something to the wife and she laughed.

Fuck them...

I looked away and tried to concentrate on the match but my mind was f****d up now, I couldn't concentrate, and for some reason I was thankful that I already played my part in the match. I'd be f****d up right now.

I sighed... my mind was there.. on her. She was standing there fucken playing happy family while I was here hurting. She had some fucken nerve. She honestly was pissing me off.

I got up before I could think until my mind blew.

"What's up?" Coach asked and I looked away, "can I go use the bathroom..."

"Yeah sure hun.. hurry so you won't miss out much... Anna scored again.." coach said and I nodded and left her since I was now close to tears.

I ran to the bathroom and got inside the stall. I felt like crying, but I wasn't going to do that here.. no, I'd do it comfortably at the comfort of my bed....not at the f**k school..

My chest hurt. So these two months she kept me in the dark.. and never not even once thought about telling me about being fucken married.. she made me trust her.. and then confide my feelings for her.. and she fucken f****d me.... literally broke my virginity... she then fucken lied... told me that she loves me.. loves ME? she's fucken married and looks happy to me. Fucken married to a Godess if I might add...

I got out of the stall and washed my hands.

I took in one deep breath and then let it out. I got out of the bathroom and went to my class. I was debating going back out there. I felt sick to my stomach. I couldn't bare watching them.. it was just too much for me.

I heard noise in the ground and knew that we scored again. This team is fucken weak.. we were just walking.

I jumped a bit when I heard the door open. I turned to her standing there..

Oh hellllllll no!

I stood up and walked towards the door..

"Please don't go, can we talk?" She said and I shook my head before continuing towards the door.. I fucken regretted how I decided to go sit at the back off the class.. it was so stupid coz now she was there by the door and still talking..

"Lin listen baby i am sorry......."

I stopped walking and looked at her and if she had just slapped me on my face, "you're fucken sorry?"

"I really honestly wanted to tell you but i was scared of losing you..."

I looked at her shocked. She was f*****g with me, she was seriously f*****g with me. She didn't just fucken say she was scared of losing me.. the f**k!

I walked closer to the door, which she was standing next to. As I was about to go past her she held my hand, "Look please Lin wait..."

"What?"

"I am inlove with you Olwethu......" she said and I snatched my hand from hers, "is this a fucken joke Valentia...? am I being pranked here?"

"No.."

"Don't f**k with me like this.. don't..." I said going past her and she spoke, "please wait! Baby.... Lin.... Can I just explain things to you?"

I shook my head, "you had two fucken months to do that Ms Louw.. or my bad MRS LOUW... but you decided otherwise.. so please.. don't bullshit me... I'm not stupid!"

And I left her there.

I was so angry right now, so angry I ever believed all this s**t that was happening. I should have known, or thought about it. But I was so caught up with my feelings for her.

Fuck her...

My whole body was shaking. I was mad at myself.

I tried to calm me down and then went tk join the team.

"Where the f**k were you... the final score is 9-0..Sandra and Anna scored..."

I smiled, "great..."

I went in to actually hug the rest of my teammates.. "you guyd did good.."

"Hey Lin.. you didn't have to do that to us dude.. like whyyyyy?" Number 10 from OLX asked me and one girl screamed, "you i***t Jasmine will kill you there.. that's her girl.."

"Shut upppppp.." the girl next to me said and I laughed, "idiot.. listen to your friend.."

"So it's for real..? Jasmine is tapping you?"

"She is.. now disappear..." a voice behind me said and I turned to Jas herself.

She opened her arms and I went in for a hug, "heeeeey my superstar.."

I laughed, "you are not going to give up on this are you..."

She kissed my neck and pulled away to look at me, "I have all the time in the world..."

I laughed and she smiled, "people are taking pictures of us.."

"Did you see the face.."

"f*******: post?" She cut me off, "yeah... apparently some girl at the party saw us and is shipping us... I'm shipping us too.."

"She caught feelings..."

"She doesn't often.. but this time she loved the touch and the taste of the lips..."

"Oh God Jasmine.. can you mot be sooooo..."

"Open? Come on pumpkin... don't be like that.. I like you.. a lot..."

"Lin! Lin!" My teammates said and Jas took my hand to her lips and kissed it, "I'll go wait with my real wife.. Barbie is here..." then she ran off before I could even say a word.

I sighed and went to mt teammates who started picking me up and singing songs to celebrate.

I laughed until my eyes met with hers. Then everything changed. I sighed and they put me down. I realized the more I was seeing Louw and her unbearably hot wife.. I was going to be sick.

We celebrated and coach told us we have to be at Steers to tomorrow at 11am, sharp to properly celebrate..

I went to my family which I had no idea it was here..

"Hey guys..."

"Wooooow I saw you score goalsssssss.." my little sister said and I laughed, "come here.."

She shook her head, "no Jazz has me..."

God! And yes she was sitting on Jasmine.

"That was a great game there.. you never disappoint.." my father said and I shrugged, "it was just a game..."

"So I already told your parents that I am stealing you.. I'll return you back home if you want but my friend has a party and I want to bring a friend... I can't go alone.." Jasmine said and I looked at my father who was smiling, "you can go"

The f**k! I didn't want to go, s**t would be awkward with Jas trying to get me and me crying over a married woman.

"Dad.. I don't have clothes..."

Jas laughed, "you and I are the same size.. so worry not about that..."

Wow! She's really determined. But this will help me forget about the woman I'm madly in love with.. so I might as well.

"Fine.. as long as I'll be home by 9pm..."

She smiled and turned to mt parents, "she'll be home by nine.."

"Good.. lizzie honey lets go..."

Lizzie held on to Jasmine, "I wanna go with Jazz."

Shit! This wasn't happening.

"Barbie maybe next time you can come.. right now your sister needs to go with her friends..." mom said and Lizzie started to cry.

I was about to budge in but Jas whispered Something to my little sister and she kept quiet and listened. She kept on and I saw a smile appear on my sister's face.

"Really?" Lizzie asked and Jas nodded, "I promise okay..."

Lizzie got up and ran to my mom.

I took my phone and gave the parents ny bag before actually saying bye to them and heading to Jasmine's car.. people were already leaving and the rest ahd left already. So you could see people and recognize them.

"What did you say to my sister..."

Jas smiled, "I don't kiss and tell."

"Come on Jas.. whaT did you say?"

She laughed, "nope.. my lips are sealed."

Jasmine opened the door for me, I was about to go in when I saw Valentia looking at me. She stood there and watched me. Looking all broken and s**t. I shook my head and got inside the car and closed the door. She had no fucken right to look sad or anything.. she f****d with me.. she f****d me and then with my feelings.. I had the right to look sad. I'm not the married one.

"You okay pumpkin?" Jas asked taking me from my thoughts, I laughed at the pat name, "yeah I'll be fine.. just going through shit.."

"Like..."

"Like finding out that the person you love isn't who you thought they were..."

"Someone broke my pumpkin's heart?" She asked starting to drive.

I sighed, "It's nothing Jas.. I just wanna get drunk and forget today ever happened.."

"Please don't f**k anyone... if you rather.. just let it be me..."

I laughed.. she was an idiot.. but I was going to have a good time... and forget about Valentia fucken Louw...

..

On Saturday at 9am I was feeling like s**t. And I was hangover.

"Wake up.. you have to join the team for celebrating at the mall..."

Before you know I was joining everyone. They made noise about the obvious. Talked the girls tournament that was coming and girls. God.. these girls were gay..

"Soooo Olwethu and Jasmine..." coach said taking a sip on her drink and I shook my head, "there's no Olwethu and Jasmine.."

"Oh there is.. she kissed your neck.. and we have pictures to prove it.." Anna argued and I rolled my eyes, "she's a fucken friend..."

The table laughed and they spoke. Different girls. It was fun and very nice.. again. I forgot about the teacher I was in love with..

..

The week started off good, I fucken ignored Valentia like hell.

I didn't look at her in class but I listened.

I was tired.. so tired and thank God Jasmine was fetching me everyday. She was a good friend lately and very helpful.

So eveday it would be classes, practice and then home.

On Thursday Ms Louw asked to talk to me in front of the class.. those moments I hated because I couldn't avoid them..

"Yes MRS Louw.."

She shook her head, "I just want to talk to you and tell you everything.."

"Could have done that two months ago.."

"It's so hard Olwethu.. because I am falling for you.. already am in love with you.. s**t is complicated.."

"You could have fucken told me Valentia.. you know how I feel right now? Like you fucken used me."

She shook her head, "I'd never.."

"Yes you did... I look at youe wife and think of f**k what am I? Why the f**k did she pick me?"

"Because I love you ."

"No! No! Because I was such a fucken vulnerable thing to you.. an easy target.... you f****d with my feelings.. made me fall for you and then you f**k me..took my virginity!"

"Olwethu please just hear me out. Please.." she begged but I shook my head and tears fell from my eyes, "you had all the time. All of it.. you took everything I had... you fucken used me... God how could I have been so stupid... please stop this... you're my teacher.. that's final.."

"Lin please..."

"I can't.. I can't even look at you..."