Beta's Chosen

Chapter 7

Pearl's POV

I cannot sleep. Trevor claimed my mind and body as his. My thoughts are filled with him. I know we agreed on fate and all this bullshit, but I really want to see him right now.

It has been a week. And I don't know how to reach him without my Alpha's permission. Since we are not mates, we don't have a mindlink.

Camila offered me some help but when she was sneaking some information from Maxwell's desk, he lashed out on her. That Asshole! I hope he rots in hell.

"Up for a run, Mist?" I ask her and she eagerly nods.

It is night but I don't mind. I just need to let out all of this emotional tornado that is battling with itself in me. I sigh and put my sneakers on and walk out.

My red hair falls on my face because of the wind. And I throw up into a messy bun again. I want to cut my hair, but I just don't know how to.

I reach the barren lands just a little far from my house and I close my eyes and give all my control to Mist. She howls as she takes the control and I shift in a second.

I don't mind the ripped clothes and being naked after I shift back. It is already mid night and there is no one awake right now. I see Mist sprinting in the woods. Running in whatever direction she wants to. But I also see she is aware of the pack's boundaries.

I shut myself in the back of Mist's mind and drown in thoughts of my life. Of course I don't like who I am right now. I want to be a free spirit. I want to be something to someone.

People would often think living alone must be really cool because you don't have to answer anyone. But that really is not the point when you are actually alone. Being alone is not about answering someone about your deeds. But screaming inside out and still remain unheard. That is how it works.

An hour of running later, Mist stops at the lake. Recently, I have been lucky. Whenever Mist or I make a stop at the lake, we get all the lake to ourselves. Even now .. there is no one.

I sit at the tree. And I recall the night Trevor and I spent here. He made love to me and reminded me that maybe, love still exists.

"I miss him, Mist" I whisper.

"You know what? I miss him too" She says and I sigh.

Mist walks to the lake to drink some water and I see the reflection of a beautiful white wolf. Her hazel eyes shining bright. She is the most beautiful wolf I have ever seen.

I hear a noise from the bushes surrounding the lake. Mist and I look around in completely alert mode. Ready to pounce on whoever jumps out of these thick bushes.

But we both visibly relax when we see a grey wolf. Almost as tall as me, Mist slightly bows to the wolf.

It is Camila's wolf Dawn.

We both shift and I search for any spare clothes left around. I find a basket ball short and a shirt that is too large for my size.

I sit beside Camila and we both just stare at the lake.

"I did not expect to find you here at this odd hour!" I say and she just sighs as a response.

She doesn't say anything and I don't ask her anything too. Because of everyone in this pack, I know what she goes through on a regular basis.

"I love Maxwell, you know" she says out of blue.

I nod my head but don't ask her about this sudden revelation. I know what she means but I don't know why she wanted to say that out loud right now.

"I don't like anything that he is doing right now. With Me. With Violet. With you. He is just being cruel. Probably more cruel than his father ever was. He never cared for me. He doesn't care for Violet too. At least his father bore expenses of your mother as long as he was alive. Maxwell just.. just straight up uses Violet for his s****l needs and the other times, he doesn't even treat her like a person" she says.

We all know that.

"I remember her calling Violet his dog. He called her his s*x toy once. He even mentions her as a slut. I know what she does. But that doesn't mean you can give her whatever names you like. Especially when you are the one she sleeps with" Camila says again.

And I nod again.

"We talk occasionally. Maxwell and I. I don't know if it is because of the matebond or whatever, but when he talks to me ... He smiles. He tries being nice. He shares what is in his heart. He tells me what he is doing for the pack. We actually start to feel like mates then. Then we go to sleep, and he goes back to his usual bastard self once he wakes up" she says and I finally look at her.

I did not know this. I only thought they are just living together. And that they don't have feelings for each other. But I see sometimes they give into matebond. I see there is a reason why Camila still believes he can be tamed. But the point is, her love alone is not enough to tame him. The love should be mutual.

"But recently, I don't know. He is so full of himself now a days. He doesn't know half s**t he makes people feel on a daily basis. I am his mate. The Luna to this pack. Once a mother-" she says and stops mid sentence.

I go still and I look at her. What did she just say.? She looks at me wide eyed and she gulps an imaginary lump or her own saliva.

"What?" I ask her.

She shakes her head.

"No, Camila. What?" I ask her again and tears pool in her eyes at that.

She throws herself in my arms and starts sobbing. I just sit there and let her cry as much as she wants. But I know there must be a really huge reason behind all of this. I knew Camila is someone who doesn't take s**t from anyone else. But when Maxwell is involved, she becomes a completely different person. It is like she does not have it in her to hate him.

Minutes pass by and she finally stops crying. Small sniffles rush out from her but she still doesn't attempt to pull away from my arms. I don't let her too. She absolutely need a shoulder right now.

She pulls away and sits back a few more minutes later and I look into her red and puffy eyes.

"Cami! Whatever it is, you can let it out. You know I wouldn't judge you or tell someone your secret" I say.

"It is not about that. It is because even Maxwell has no idea about this" she whispers.

Maxwell has no idea? This girl is keeping a secret this huge from everyone on the planet.?

"I had a miscarriage. Even Maxwell has no idea. He has no idea that this is because of him. We lost our pup. He only knows I had an early miscarriage. He really has no idea till date, that it was because of him" she whispers.

I don't want to ask her more details because this revelation itself is huge on her part.

"No matter how many times we had s*x since then. No luck. I guess I cannot be a mother. Moon Goddess blessed us with a pup and we lost him" she says.

I did not know she carried this heart wrenching secret within her all these years.

Camila doesn't say anything again and I don't ask her too. She can say anything she want to. I wouldn't force her. She must be in pain all these years with such huge secrets bottled up inside her.

"I see he is sad and mad that we lost our pup. Every time I gather courage to tell him that he is the reason we lost our pup, I couldn't tell him. It would break my heart to see him know it. He had lots of hopes on our pup. It broke me but it would break him too. After all, he is a person. He was a man who was more than ready to become a father" she whispers and I nod.

I know Maxwell. He would definitely break at that. He could simply reject Camila and make whoever he wants as Luna. But deep down, he likes Camila. He wanted a pup. So this would definitely break him.

"Why are you here anyways?" She asks and I look at her

Just how quickly can she jump from one topic to another? She was crying her heart out about her miscarriage just moments ago but now she is concerned about me. But, I decide to divert the topic too. Maybe this is all too much for her.

"I don't know, Cam. I just don't like anything here. I feel all alone" I whisper.

"Trevor?" She asks.

"He believes in fate. And he told me that the next time we meet, he wouldn't let me go" I say and she smiles wide at that.

I don't understand what part of this seems funny to her.

"You know what?" She asks me and I narrow my eyes here.

"Pearl! You don't do anything here anyway. You have no friends except me. No one talks to you. Maxwell treats you as s**t. And you are one decision away from your better life

"And what is that?" I ask her again.

"Run away for your love. Find your happiness"