Blind to love

Mistake

matt pov

They said everything happens for a reason and I'm grateful for all the lessons I learnt as I wont be repeating some of them a second time back but as I look at the mother of my child all the lesson I learnt come rushing back and it feels like I been hit by a brick wall, a very solid brick wall. Needing to comfort my problems I do the exact opposite and walk the other way not ready to have the conversation that she wants, i'm a grown a*s man and I'm afraid of a five foot six women, what has my life come too. Hiding in the back room off my garage I'm hoping she doesn't have it in her to trespass but who am I kidding this women would do anything for what she wants apart from be a mother to see her Harley that she hasn't seen in years and the mother of the year goes to her, round of applause. Thinking off all the hurtful words I could say to her I don't as I'm the bigger person needing space to think properly and not be ambush like this. Using the back door I quietly make my way to the pick up truck needing a little drive to calm myself down not sure how she has such big balls coming to me and ambushing me like that, what happened to the money she took out my bank to disappear, probably on plastic surgery I seen she has bigger bombs and completely looks different with all those implants but I can spot a b***h from a mile away, they all smell the same, like a desperate b***h. 

Following my heart to lend me to where I need to go I end up at the park where Harley meet his first friend and as I pull up it takes me less then five seconds to know that Harley is my happiness and I don't need the she devil in my life, I know our boy is old enough to decide but the need for a mother would cloud his judgement and as a parent I have to protect him even if that means i'm the bad parent and he hate me, I can live with that as long as he doesn't get hurt. Sitting in the car thinking I finally head back to the garage but on my way back I see a car at the side of the road, looks like its broken down. Pulling up behind the car I climb out ready to help with my tools in my pick up truck, walking around to the hood, I spot the blonde hair straight away taking a step back noting the car, knowing straight away who it is I start to get nervous, I haven't seen her since she stopped at the garage and spoke to my son, she surely left an impression on him as he talks about her all the time makes me wonder what they actually spoke about. 

"You need any help?" I ask observing her as she looks at her engine trying to figure out what's wrong, I know she might know a bit about cars but ill feel a lot safer if I looked over the car as I don't want her driving a car that could drop at any moment or her being left darkness at the side of the road, its not safe for anyone. Bringing her face to mine I can't help but stare at her blue eyes, they are her best feature and she knows it as she looks me up and down 

"The battery has gone, how about a jump start" nodding my head to her question I head back to my truck and moving it to be in front of her car, it shocked me to know it took her less time to know the problem but I would still love to look over the car. Giving a helping hand to Callie I can't help but watch her as she looks like she knows what she's doing, I would like to know more about her but seeing how guarded she is i'm not sure thats the best idea, she was open on the plane but we never really spoke about her she always skipped around the question, what is making her tick. 

"Thank you" Callie says as she closes the hood on her car but it was my pleasure if I got to see her again and a smile on her face, although I am curious as she's been here more then a week, is this vacation longer then a week or is she going back to deployment. I want to ask the question but I don't want to over step, it could be a touchy subject. 

Giving back the jump leads I don't say anything else not wanting to over step but ill get my hands on her car one way or another, watching her leave I climb back in my truck heading back to the garage hoping that the she devil has gone, I have work to finish and not enough hours in the day as i'm down a employee as David has class today. Making it back I don't spot her car and a sign of relief leaves my mouth, I thought I had a little longer before she came round. I know it makes me a p***y trying to avoid my ex but I cant help it, I thought I had more time before she came running back into our life, I'm not even sure what she wants but I know one thing and thats she's not getting her crawls into my son, she's literally the devil. 

Callie pov 

Having the little jump start I know my little car will need more work as it wasn't only the battery and now i'm stuck with two cars that need attention, like i'm spoiled for choice. Just making it home I look between the car wondering where I'm starting, I'm lucky the shops are in jogging distance well everything is really is in jogging distance if I don't think about it. Pushing myself inside I pick my letter up from the floor not evening looking at them, I know how long letters take to come and go depending on where the guys are stationed so I just know I don't have one from them yet. Going though each room for something, I don't hear the door bell ring, taking a second I know I haven't told anyone where I live, the only person who could possibly know is my father. Standing at the door I look though the small hole but as the person stands with the back towards me I know for one thing that its not my father or brother. Opening the door the person turns around only for Zoey to stand at the door, I didn't realise she knew where I live, I guess I should of expected this conversation especially when I left her with the information that I enlisted then ran for it, why am I being a coward so much since I got back. 

"You can't just say that to me and then disappear do you know everything that went though my mind when you said that, you could off been killed, you still can. what was you thinking" I understand she's mad about me enlisting and telling no one but I did it for my own reasons even if it hurt everyone In the process, I came out stronger and with a great bunch of friends. Looking at Zoey and how she worried she is I move out the way of the door and invite her in I don't need the whole street hearing the drama, welcoming her in I know my apartment is pretty empty as I don't spend much time in here, I'm more of a outside person 

"I left the army, I'm back for good" I say seeing Zoey face lighten up but leaving out that the soldier remains in me thats apart of me now and I would enlist without a doubt if the boys needed me, no man left behind. Taking a stool in the kitchen Zoey helps herself to a glass of water beating me to ask if she wanted a drink, well she hasn't changed. We might not have spoke for eight year but she treats my place like her own like nothing happened.

"I wonder what made you leave" I hear her whisper under her breath but I still understood her clearly and i'm annoyed she can't come out and ask what she wants, she didn't just turn up at my door for a glass of water, its been eight years if we could go back to how we was I would jump to it as I have missed her. 

"I left because my fiancé was killed, killed in front of me, happy?" I say spitting it out as she sits there all high and mighty looking down at me, I couldn't stand it no more. Walking off upstairs I leave her downstairs needing a couple of minutes to control my emotions. Counting to ten trying to calm myself down before I walk back downstairs needing that alone time but as I walk into the kitchen Zoey has a photo in her hands and right away I know it's the one of me and the boys happy, I miss those times where everything was perfect and we was happy but god had other ideas, taking my happiness away. 

"I'm sorry I never wanted to overstep but I'm sorry about your fiancé. You all look like a family in this photo, I miss you Callie. It hurt when you left but I never thought about you and your feeling, why didn't you tell us you wasn't happy? I could of been there for you" hearing the words from her mouth that she misses me makes me a little happy inside but I couldn't tell them I was unhappy as everyone around me seemed to be where they wanted to be apart from me, I should of wrote, I should of done a lot of things but I didn't and I can't just rewind the past and make up for lost time as it doesn't work out like that, because if it did I would rewind to the day I mother died and told her how much I loved her before she walked out the door and gave her a hug goodbye but I couldn't, It took my forever to learn that she's not hear and now I have to repeat the progress with my fiancé wishing he was still here. 

"I guess I took the cowards way out, I can't rewind time and make up for the eight years but I work on our future, I missed you too" I say making sure she heard my last words but as they leave my mouth Zoey has her arms around me wrapping me into a strong hug, I'm not sure what I'm suppose to do but I hug her back. The first person I wanted to talk to and tell them a little about my past was my brother, why is the world against me right now but I'm glad Zoey now knows as we can build our relationship. 

Talking to Zoey about forgiveness I know I have at least gained a friend back but all I can think is about my brother and how I want his forgiveness the most, I hurt him the most and I can't build up the courage to tell him how sorry I am to his face and tell him I love him. Since loosing my fiancé, I barely tell anyone I love them apart from the boys with them being by my side though it all, I wanted them to know how much I appreciate them. When I say ' I love you' I can't stop myself from thinking about kai and how he would tell me every night how much he loved me and couldn't wait to wake up and start the day again, he was my knight.