Blind to love

I love you

Callie pov 

Laying in bed thinking about the conversation I had with Zoey last night makes me wonder if my brother could forgive me as quick as she did but knowing him it probably wont, I have a lot of making up to do. Not wanting to get out of bed I lay on my side thinking about kai. We would go weeks without seeing each other whenever we was deployed but when we both returned we spent every second with each other, there was this one time he came back before me and I surprised him 

-flashback- 

Packing away my tent and bag ready for the flight home I'm excited to see kai, its been three weeks since I last seen him and got a proper hug, I have missed his hug especially when he would hug me from behind. Picking up the pictures of us both together I stare at them missing him more, he has the biggest smile on his face as I kiss his cheek. Putting them all in my bag apart from one I finally cleaned up my mess and ready for a ride back home, the weather here is killing me the most, I can't wait to feel the cold air on my cheeks or at least the rain. 

"come on Edwards, don't you want to get home" Jacob shouts using my last name knowing its going to be changing soon to kai last name, the boys are over the moon for the wedding as we can get drunk without having a limit like we do when we are off for a day, I'm the first one to get married in the group and everyone excited. With my bag over the shoulders I run over to the boys where they are all smiling, we are all ready to go back home. 

"The plane leaves in a hour, you ready" Ryan nudges me slinging a arm around my shoulder excited to see his parents, but I'm mainly excited to be in kai arms, we have wrote to each other since he has got home and I can't wait to surprise him, I haven't told him I'm coming home yet as I wanted to surprise him. Wrapping my free hand around around Ryan i can't wait to be apart from them for at least a day before they start getting bored, we have love messing with each other since coming out here and I don't know what its going to be like not having them to annoy me every moment they can. 

The short bus ride to the cargo plane that taking us home Im more excited to be back even if its a short break I know I need it and where ever I'm sent off next I know I look forward to being back with the boys. Taking my sit I pull out the photo of me and kai and think about how I can't wait to get my arms around him and squeeze him, we have both waited to get married and in a couple of months we can, I have waited since the day he purpose to get married and I can't wait to walk down the isle seeing kai smile on the other side, he's the other half of me, like night and day. As Jacob takes a seat next to me he tells me all about his visit to his parents telling me to come down with kai, Jacob parents miss having us all under their roof, his mother can cook and she makes sure we know it. Lending against Jacob I close my eyes hoping when I open them we be touching ground, I have missed home and its weather we have, no more sun twenty four seven. 

"come on Callie we are here" opening my eyes we have finally touched down and my nerves are getting the best of me as I think about kai and how excited he will be when he finds out I'm home. Walking off the plane Im looking forward to his face but not seeing the boys for a while, I'm hoping they don't get up to any trouble without me, with my bag over my shoulder I make my way back to the operation base where I know he will be either training or doing something he shouldn't. As I make it too the base the weather changes and it starts raining, I haven't seen rain in weeks, smiling to myself knowing I can't wait to get out there and feel the rain on my body and a hot shower without needing to hurry. Hearing his voice I turn the corner to him talking to a brother, creeping up behind him I put a finger to my lips silencing a member of his team, I want to do this. Finally behind him I place my hands over his eyes standing on my tip toes but he turns around before I can say guess who and picking me up off my feet spinning me around 

"oh god I have missed you princess" kai says finally stop spinning me around and now in a tight hug, its good to talk and feel him in person, the phone calls aren't the same when I have him in front of me, hugging tight I hear him whisper in my ear those words I have missed hearing from him 'I love you' whispering it back I kiss him needing his touch before we pull apart, only just noticing we are still in a hallway where everyone can see. It's good to feel him again. 

-end of flashback-

Thinking of that moment I realise it was the only time we both came home together, I'm still hoping that he's going to walk though the door any moment but I know he's not and there's nothing else I can do, I just want to see his face again and feel his body pressed against mine, why is the world so cruel. Finally getting out of bed needing to stop thinking about the past I grab a bottle of water on my way downstairs needing a little fresh air, even if I'm still wearing a pair of shorts and sports b*a with bed hair, I couldn't care. Sitting on the steps I let the wind hit my neck needing this but as I lend back the clouds above have other ideas and it starts raining, not wanting to move I take the rain in smiling to myself. Kai knew how much I enjoyed standing in the rain, we would jog in it all the time. 

"I love you kai"  

Soaked from bottom to top I finally decide to go in but as I climb up the steps I see the sweet little boy from the garage starts walking up my street, looking around for his parents I don't spot none, we are both soaked but my head wondering where the hell is his parents, I can't remember how far the garage is from here as right now all I can think about is what is the boy doing. Waiting for the little boy to get closer I walk down the steps, ready to comfort him for wondering off as I still don't see his parents and my car is still broke. 

"Where is your father little man" I ask once he sees me and when he does the sad look thats in his eyes light up and he has a little grin on his face, we both start looking around for his parents but I still can't see anyone, he still looks young to be wondering around on his own and in this weather looking at the boy I see he's soaked like me. I wonder if he knows his father number by heart and could give him a ring. 

"I don't know, probably at work" wow wasn't the response I was looking for, walking back upstairs to my apartment, the little child follows. I know I shouldn't let him in my apartment as stranger danger but I cant let him keep walking around in the rain especially when he looks freezing cold, telling him to stay for a second, I change out my wet clothes for a t-shirt and another pair of shorts that cover my arse, grabbing a towel for the kid to dry off 

"ok, what's your name? and maybe we could give your father a call telling him where you are?" as he nods his head I slide my phone to him and a letter with my address and learn his name Harley. its an adorable name but now I'm hoping this isn't going to be a repeat as I'm not some house he can go for when he doesn't want to be at home. Looking though the fridge as he's on the phone I pull out some food to quickly whip up, it be rude of me off me not to feed him while he's here waiting, grabbing a water I put it on the counter knowing he take the seat in front of me. 

Preparing meatballs and spaghetti I listen to as Harley talks about his life at school and his life at home telling me how his mother isn't in the picture because she left him, no child should know that there mother didn't want them but at least he has a father in his life from what I can tell his father loves him, I didn't know how relaxing it was listening to him talk, he has a lot to say for a child but when he spotted my photo with the boys I quickly changed the subject, we didn't talk about me or my lack of making this place look like a home. Plating the food up I place the plate in front of him but before I could sit down and eat there's a knock at the door and I know right away its his father or someone to collect little man, walking over Harley doesn't move from his spot and carries on eating, shaking my head I open the door to matt who stands there a little scared he didn't know where his son was, moving aside he starts looking around my apartment looking for his son who too busy enjoying his food. 

"I'm sorry about this, he doesn't normally disappear on me. You didn't have to fed him" shutting the door behind him I tell him to take a seat and I plated him a plate, at least have a meal with your son before you go. Taking his coat off he doesn't ask instead just nods his head, men are so easy, they love food. Finally taking my seat I enjoy the food I cook needing it but needing a shower more, the clothes are beginning to stick to me.