The scope of love

Chapter 5

I was excited about today. After the other day I stayed away for two days and today I am finally going to go back to see if he actually thought about what I said. I’ve dressed and did my make-up and hair. I went to eat my breakfast with Madison only to go to class and wish the time over until lunch. I went straight to the Aries lunchroom. On my way there I changed my tie, not even bothering to go to the bathroom. I walked into the lunchroom. He was sitting in his usual spot, but staring at the door, the door I just walked through. He got up and started walking over to me. I walked towards him too. He grabbed me and smashed his lips onto mine. He hands were in my hair holding my head against his. I couldn’t believe that he was kissing me so out of the blue. The kiss was intense. It made my heart race and my toes curl. When he finally pulled away I was out of breath. He leaned his forehead against mine.

“If you really don’t care about being serious that would have only been a kiss and you don’t expect anything else from me.” He was testing me which just means that he is interested. He has definitely been thinking about me.I couldn’t believe that he just challenged me like this.

So I did the only thing I could think about, I grabbed his tie and pulled his lips back onto mine. I kissed him with double the enthusiasm that he had kissed me. The kiss was so earnest and rough they my lips actually ached.

“Yeah it was nice, but it didn’t mean anything.” I challenged back, by now everyone was looking at us, I felt my ears heating up from the embarrassment. It’s a good thing that my hair was down or else my ears would have given me away. He narrowed his eyes at me. He clearly thought that he would get the better of me with this stunt. I didn’t expect his next move though he grabbed a girl that was passing by us and kissed her. He wanted to see my reaction, but I wasn’t going to give him the satisfaction. So I walked over to a random guy and sat on his lap. I turned my attention away from Declan.

“Hi I’m Brooke. I’m so delighted to meet you.” I pushed my fingers through his hair. I just hoped that he doesn’t have a girl and if he does that she understands that I wasn’t interested I was just messing with Declan. No one grabbed my hair or pushed me of his lap so I must be safe, but that changed quickly as he started getting handsy. His hand went around my waist holding the side of my ass while his other hand was holding onto my up thigh. It was really uncomfortable, but I had to endure it to win this little battle between me and Declan. Next thing I knew I was being pulled off the guys lap. I settled on my feet before I saw Declan glaring at the guy he grabbed my hand and started to pull me away with him. I won, I managed to care less than him.

“This doesn’t mean anything I just don’t like it when guys take advantage of people.” He is just a big softy with a hard exterior.

“I didn’t say anything.” I said as he pulled me along with him with a big smile on my face We walked over to his seat at the window. He actually pulled me down to sit between his legs. Strangely enough I didn’t feel uncomfortable between his legs or with him touching me.

“You shouldn’t have done that. You don’t know him. You can’t just trust anyone.”

“Right, but it is okay of you do it. You don’t know her, you can’t trust her.” I copied his words. He only sighed. It silly that guys think that they can do things that girls can’t.

“Why is it that I don’t see you around. You only pop up at lunch he asked near my ear, I could feel his breath against my hair. It was giving me goosebumps.

“I’m a special case, think of it like I am visiting. I can’t always be here.”

“Why are you here if you aren’t looking for something serious?”

“I’m here because I’m looking for something that I couldn’t get where I was before and I’m not keen on the program and following the damn rules. I guess that I don’t like being told what to do.”

“If you don’t like the rules and doing following them what are you doing with me. You’re an Gemini and I’m an Aries that is the definition of following the rules.”

“I don’t want to marry you right out of school. You just caught my attention and I wanted to get to know you. It’s as simple as that, there is no ulterior motive here.”

“Fine, you got my attention now so no more sitting on random guys. We’ll try and get to know each other.” I couldn’t help the smile that spread across my face. Finally I found what I’ve been looking for. Someone who wasn’t a Taurus that caught my eye and now we’ll have to see if we are compatible. I leaned more into his chest. It was a nice feeling. For the next couple of days we repeated this. I mostly sat there in silence taking in how he was. I liked the banter between him and his friends, I also like how they could just sit their in silence.

The two of us got comfortable with each other pretty fast, we did jump into physical contact pretty quickly, but that was only because he wanted to test me. It was only a couple days into this flirtation that we finally actually started to talk. It was silly, we talked about the most random stuff. He likes to read so he would ask me about what I like to read. It was an awkward conversation when he was going into detail about books he has read and basically debating it out. The last thing I read was all about horoscopes. He tensed up when I told him that. He was already thinking that I was a girl that wanted to find a husband. I had to quickly explain to him that I did it against the program. I told him I wanted to be more than just one sign, I also wanted to know more about everyone and not just my assigned partner.

He seemed to believe me and it wasn’t a lie completely. As the days went by I started to feel bad that I was lying to him. We were getting to know each other, but he wasn’t getting to know me. The problem is that I don’t know how he would react to what I am doing. I’ll hold off on telling him, until I am a bit more sure about it all. I know that I don’t have to worry about him wanting to register us as a couple because he doesn’t want to be a couple, we are jut hanging out. His need not to be in a relationship is making this a bit easier for me.

I got in the lunch room and got some food before walking over to Declan. I sat down with my sandwich.

“Do you want to go sit at a table. You must be sick of sitting here with me on the floor. We can upgrade to a table, if you like.” He was willing to give up he to cool for a table attitude. I was glad that he was willing to do it for me. It made me wonder if he is ready to make this a bit more serious.

“Yeah I would like that, then I can get more food and then I don’t need to take a sandwich every day.” I told him very excited t the idea of not sitting on the ground with him. I was sad that I wouldn’t be sitting between his legs. I’ll miss that heat.

“Aww, baby you sacrificed good food to sit with me, I’m honored.” He teased me. I lightly hit his shoulder.

“I’m excited to have you on my lap when we sit at the table. I must say I’ve been jealous of the guy whose lap you sat on.” I felt giddy because one he was jealous and two I was glad that there would still be contact between us. We got up and moved to a table. Everyone's eyes were following us. We were the only gossip that seemed to be on everyone's lips. I didn’t sit on his lap since I felt a bit shy to just do it. Even if we had just spoken about it. I sat next to him and started to eat my sandwich, but just as I took a bit he pulled me closer to him. I looked up shocked at him completely forgetting about the sandwich that was halfway to my mouth. He bend forward at took a bit of my sandwich. He smile all to cocky at me before falling back into a conversation with Hayes, his best friend. It was hot how he stole a bit of my sandwich while maintaining eye contact, his eyes had a gleam to him. I should have known h was up to something. From that moment on my food wasn’t safe. The next day I was about t eat a cookie and he bit into my thumb holding the cookie. I was so shocked that I didn’t see his other hand coming up and taking the cookie out of my hand. The next day I bought him a cookie of his own, but he didn’t want it he claimed it didn’t look as good as my food. Some days I sat on his lap and other days I would sit next to him with his arm around my shoulders or my back. Other times he would hold my hand on the table. The holding hands came a bit later and I saw it as more of a couple thing. It felt more intimate, but I wasn’t going to complain about it.    

After about two weeks he seemed to change he had become more quiet and distant. It was strange since he was very touchy the day before. I wondered if he was getting bored of me. He did say he didn’t want a relationship and we have been acting like a couple. My nerves was eating at me like crazy. If this fails then my whole experiment is over. Then I go back to my normal boring life. I’ve really started to like him, a lot more than I would have thought that I could in such a short time span.

“Okay what the hell is wrong with you, you have been of for two days now!” I couldn’t keep it in anymore, I was overthinking everything. I needed to know if he was just off or if it was over before us, before it really even started.

“I think we should register as a pairing.” As the words left his mouth every head at the table shot up. I wished that I didn’t ask him. This was a disaster. I thought he wanted to end this, not make it official. I thought he didn’t want a girlfriend.

“No.” I said and jumped up leaving the room as fast as I could my heart was beating way to fast. I didn’t know what I could do.

Book Entry: Complication

I didn’t know what to do in the moment he basically asked me to be his girlfriend. I wanted it badly. I wanted it more than anything I had wanted in a while, but I couldn’t. I wasn’t a Gemini. We wouldn’t be able to register and we wouldn’t be able to be together outside of that room, that room had became our bubble and I wasn’t ready to step put of the bubble. When those words left his mouth he had popped my bubble and reality set in. I knew that I was starting to fall in love with him and I didn’t want to lose him. It’s what I wanted to happen. Then it actually happened and I wished more than anything that it wouldn’t. I didn’t know what to tell him. I didn’t even know if I should go back. I was afraid of his reaction. He put himself out there and then I shut him down completely and ran out on him. I wouldn’t have wanted to see me again.