Cleo's Heart Decisions.

"You Came!"

"I know what my heart wants... She doesn't want him to leave me!"

~night, lake~

Cleo’s pov

“You…” I whisper breathless with my skin shivering and Clea howls in excitement.

I can’t believe he is here, I mean…

It has been one year since he came to me. The last time I saw him I hadn’t shifted yet, I wasn’t eighteen and I was at the college… I had gone for a walk in the forest on my own and I was attacked from rogues… Like every other time he appears to me but…

This time there is no rogue, I was alone till some seconds ago and now…

I am with him!

He has been following me the last seven years since I was twelve years old!

The first time I saw him I was here, I had just discovered this place after I had sneaked out of the pack house because of a fight I had with my mom. I wanted to stay alone and it was quite late at the afternoon, I didn’t want any of my friends with me and I came here alone!

I was always a very curious yet energetic child and I was getting mesmerized from the forest so I lost the time’s sense and I never realized when and how I got out of the pack’s territory and I came here! When I saw the lake I got crazy, I wanted to put my feet in the cool water but before I manage to get close to the lake three wolves appeared from the woods behind me and growled ready to attack me but then…

He appeared out of nowhere, jumped in front of me and killed the first one almost immediately while the two others run away after a while scared of losing their lives.

At the beginning I was too shocked to react! I just fell on my knees shaking with my eyes locked on the dead rogue that was lying on the ground some meters away from me with his throat ripped out.

I was terrified, it was the very first time I had seen something like this and I was scared for my life but everything stopped when I felt him rubbing his wet, soft nose on my neck!

He gained my full interest and I know that any other child in my age would have freaked out from it but for a weird reason I didn’t! In fact…

I felt safe and I trusted him immediately!

At first I thought that he was someone from the pack but then I understood that he wasn’t… I had seen no wolf like him before and until now he is unique, he is beautiful and I got sure that he was another rogues as he disappeared in the woods after he had made sure that I close to my pack house…

He had accompanied me till there but no one felt his presence, no one smelled him, no one knew about him, no one had any idea about what had happened to me and I decided to tell nobody about it!

I know I should have told my parents and alphas about the rogue and everything else with the others that tried to kill me but something inside me told me to keep it as a secret and I haven’t regretted it yet, I will never regret it because this rogue, this wolf is important to me and…

He is my savior!

He didn’t save me only once, he did the exact same thing about ten more times during these years and every time he was disappearing after I was completely safe! And also there was one more time that he helped me find my way back to the pack because a storm had come out of nowhere too quickly and I couldn’t find my way back and he was with me…

He never allowed me to touch him although… After that first time he rubbed his nose on my skin he never allowed me to go close to him, he was always stepping back or he was running away! It is clear that he doesn’t me to touch him but I don’t know why and this always hurts me because I want to caress his fur, I need to!

So, as I was saying he has been following me but when I left to go at the college I thought that this would stop and I was sad about it but…

I was wrong because he came to me again that time, the last one! I don’t know how he did it, how he found me but he did and that was the last time he saved my life from not one, two or three rogues but from five!

After that he left and until now I hadn’t seen him again!

The last two years he came to me only this one time and I have to admit I was worried…

I missed him very much, I needed to make sure that he is alright and Clea really wants to see him, she knows about him, I have told her everything and she wants to show him how grateful she is.

For some seconds he stays frozen staring at me in the eyes and I can’t hide my excitement, I am one step away from crying and the more I am observing him the more overwhelmed I become.

He is magnificent!

It’s like he has come from heaven, this is how beautiful he is!

His fur is white, thick, soft and shines under the moonlight like it’s from silver! His body is the most harmonic one I have ever seen, its shape is so perfect and the weird thing is that his size is bigger than even a normal Alpha’s. I have seen only one wolf bigger than him but not much and this wolf is our King’s but for me the most extraordinary thing is his eyes…

They so big and expressive and their color is light grey, almost silver!

I have never seen anything like this and I am way too lost in him, I have missed staring at him, I was dreaming of him very often but it’s not the same thing!

“I can’t believe you are here…” I whisper trembling but even if he is too far away I am sure he can listen to me as he takes one step forward and I stand up appropriately without taking my eyes from him.

He starts walking to me and the closer he gets the more I feel like I am about to pass out from enthusiasm and Clea makes it worse! She is ecstatic and I can understand the way she feels but she is not helping me like this!

Am I so crazy for coming here after so many times I have reached too close to death and for not being scared of him?

I mean… He doesn’t want to hurt me, I am sure! Why would he save my life so many times if he was an enemy?

I observe him getting closer and I take some steps to him but stop at the edge of the rock. I think he is more beautiful than any other time, he is…

I don’t know how to describe him anymore, I have lost my mind and all I feel is blessed I found him again!

He is about three meters away from me when he stops walking and I take one deep breath trying to take his scent but all I smell is the forest and the lake’s scents, he has masked his scent for sure, there is no other explanation and I lower my head disappointed.

I want to know how he smells like…

Some seconds pass like this, I have my head bended and I do my best not to cry from all these emotions that consume me but I can feel his eyes checking me inquisitively and a fire starts building up inside me, my heart is burning but not in a bad way, it’s pleasing!

Some time later I lift my head up and find the wolf looking at my left hand with an angry expression but then he snaps his eyes on my face and he growls opening them widely.

I take one step back instinctually a bit shocked from his reaction and he walks to me with some big, fast steps. I am paralyzed at this point, I don’t move away, he is angry but I am not afraid of him, I just don’t understand his frustration but soon everything makes perfect sense.

Thor’s blood…

He looks at my hand again and his gaze travels up to my face and lips slowly. The way he is staring at me is so intense that I start trembling even more and gasp for air with less than ten inches separating me from him.

Clea howls louder than any other time and then stops waiting for his next move that never comes.

He doesn’t move and my heart breaks as I take it as a rejection I can’t bear!

“You came back… I thought I had lost you!” I whisper breathless doing my best not to burst into sobbing and raise my right hand to touch him but when my hand reaches about an inch away from his head he jumps back and I sigh nervously.

Why is he doing this?

I don’t want to harm him, I just want to touch him!

He takes some more steps back while looking at me deeply in the eyes and turns to leave some moments later.

The pain is too much to take and I fall on my knees with my gaze now locked on his back as he starts walking away. He got mad at me…

He is abandoning me like Thor but with him it’s worse for an unexplained reason!

Clea leaves out a loud, hurt howl that sounds like she is mourning and that’s all I need to break into crying and bury my face in my hands. I can’t believe he is leaving me now as well!

I feel it, I won’t see him again, he won’t come back!

“Please don’t go!” I scream desperate and pull my hands down to look at him but he doesn’t stop…

He keeps on walking away and my fear grows bigger!

“I won’t do it again, I won’t try to touch you! You have my word!” I cry out with my sobs getting worse and the tears fall from my eyes faster than before blurring my vision.

No!

Not him! He is important, I want him, I need him, I…

“I am begging you, I can’t lose you, I want you in my life, I need you!” I scream and lean forward burying my face again in my hands that are shaking more than ever.

I don’t know if I can take so much pain in such a short period of time!

First Thor and now… He!

I don’t even know his name, where he is coming from, who he is, what does he want and why he is doing this but it doesn’t matter me because what matters me is us!

My heart knows what she needs to and everything else is unnecessary right now!

I don’t want him to leave me!

“Not you…” I whisper running out of oxygen and gasp on the edge of having spasms.

“He is leaving us Clea… He doesn’t want us!” I scream devastated and she mourns with me.

“I am sorry…” I whisper feeling my powers leaving my body and put my left hand on the ground to prevent myself from losing my balance and falling down for good.

All this time feels like a century for me and I can’t raise my eyes and see him leaving away anymore, I just can’t bear it! The thought of not meeting him again is like a nightmare!

He… Just won’t come back again.

I continue crying and sobbing for more with my eyes closed and Clea gradually stops. A cool, sudden breeze hits my body from everywhere and I sigh getting ready to try and breathe. I open my eyes slowly and with my right, free hand wipe the tears but I freeze when I see these paws standing some inches away from me.

He… Came back?!

I stand on my knees again and lift my head like a flash and find him standing in front of me with a calm, warm expression and his big eyes filled with adoration. I sigh again heavily and we stare at each other for a while with Clea now moving in my mind impatiently making me dizzy.

Before I realize what is happening the wolf touches his forehead on mine and I just lose my mind, my heart is beating ready to explode in my chest, I can’t take even the shortest breath, my body starts getting hot and my skin is shuddering.

He just touched me!

I close my eyes again, relax my tensed muscles and I listen to him purring while pressing his forehead more on mine. His fur is like silk, that’s how soft it is and he is enormous compared to me, so tall and with board chest and shoulders.

I smile sniffling and manage to take a long breath that helps me a lot to calm down but I don’t move or try to touch him again afraid of annoying him.

“Thank you, I won’t do it again, I promise!” I whisper emotional and open my eyes the moment he pulls back and looks right into mine inquisitively like he is trying to see and think something at the same time.

I give him a big smile feeling my eyes ready to get wet from tears for once more and he leans on my left, covered with Thor’s blood hand and starts licking it sending chills all over my body. I gasp shocked and open my palm more giving him full access to it and the feeling of his big, hot tongue on my bare skin leads my heart to an emotional explosion I had never thought or imagined that could happen.

This is redeemer!

“What are you doing to me? Who are you?” I murmur amused and he purrs again but moves his head above my hand and presses it like…

“Are you asking me to touch you?” I ask surprised and he purrs louder than before while moving closer to me.

“YES!” Clea screams ecstatic and I take a deep breath to touch him between his ears that are perked but not in alert.

I start caressing his fur and he sits down right in front of me but he quickly raises his enormous paw and places it on my chest right above my heart. His eyes are never leaving mine and I smile emotional unable to talk or react.

It feels… Different!

His paw is like it made the sound of my heartbeat stronger and I can listen to it ever more now, it’s echoing!

“You are something…” I state louder than any other time before and he moves closer to my face to lick the blood that is mixed with my salty tears from my cheeks.

And suddenly everything feels great like I have felt no pain in my life, like I am in heaven and he was always with me and we were born to be together! I don’t know how else to describe it but to me it feels like everything I had been living was preparing me for this moment and I am glad that I am living it now!

In my mind there is only he, I, this place and moment! The past is gone, the times he saved me from death are far too gone, his absence this one year is erased and Thor doesn’t exist, the pain he made me feel is nowhere, it never happened…

“I missed you very much!” I mutter and bury my face in his neck with my hands being wrapped around him in any way there is.

At first he freezes, I feel him and I get worried about getting him mad but soon he relaxes and places one paw on my back like he is hugging me and I feel him moving his nose in my hair.

This is amazing!

This wolf is my personal angel!

“Your heart is beating faster and stronger than mine…” I murmur and try to move lower in order to be closer to his heart and listen better.

Clea lets out some low, pleased noises and I smile excited as he allows me rest my head above his heart.

I am so mesmerized that I forget how many things I want to tell him and I have no idea how we end up sitting on the edge of the rock admiring the full moon. He is sitting next to me without moving with his left side touching my entire right and we exchange gazes that make me blush.

I don’t know why I feel this way with him!

I mean, I don’t know him at all or maybe I don’t know his human but my heart tells me that he’s special and I agree.

It’s not the fact that he saved me so many times or that he follows me everywhere but that I feel something different with him. It’s like we have a connection, like I know him from before but I don’t know from where!

I know that being here with him is wrong because he is rogue and I should tell Thor about it but I am never going to reveal such a thing. As I mentioned before I can’t lose him, I don’t want to and he is not a threat, at least for me… I don’t know how he would react with someone else but he never tried to get close to the pack so I don’t think that there is any problem with that, right?

I give him a discreet look and smile as I see him staring at the moon above us with his eyes shining. The more I am observing him the more I find it difficult to take my eyes off him but I am not trying so much and it’s not a problem for me…

“I am glad you came, I needed you…” I say in a low tone breaking the silence and he turns to me and shakes his head like he agrees with me.

Okay, at least he reacts and I am not talking on my own…

“It is my first day back… Things didn’t go as I had expected…” I continue and his expression gets wilder with his eyes landing again on my left hand.

Does he know? How?

He acts like he knows about Thor but maybe it’s my imagination and he just thinks I mentioned this for the blood. There is no way he knows about us being mates, he doesn’t belong in our pack so he is just thinking of the blood or…

“Did you listen to us before?” I ask nervously and he does nothing in order to answer me.

He stares at me for a while with a blank expression and then turns to look at the moon ignoring my question completely and I guess I took my answer or I think I do.

Maybe he really listened to us but how did he know about it, how did he find us again and how did he come in our territory without anyone noticing him?

Even Thor realized nothing and he is the Alpha! He is stronger than everyone and his senses are better than ours, he should have sensed him and…

I? Why don’t I feel him? What is he doing?

“In three days I am becoming my pack’s new Beta…” I state after some seconds with no move from him and he turns and licks my cheek again happily.

“I am not going to tell them about you, I can’t! I don’t want to lose you…” I continue and he moves lower on me rubbing his nose on the crock of my neck where Thor’s mark should be and I jump back shocked from the sensation of his touch.

It’s…

That was intense!

“How… What is happening?” I ask him trembling and he stands up and bows letting me know what this means…

He does this every time he is about to leave…

“Why are you leaving? What happened now?” I ask standing up but he looks determinate to leave and this makes me feel panicked.

“I will see you again, right?” I ask worried and he nods so I sigh relieved and smile.

He gives me a warm look that makes my heart melt and steps back slowly as I observe him in silence. I can’t hide the fact that I already miss him and it hurts me somehow to watch him leaving but…

I know that this is the right thing, I just missed him a lot and I would like some more time with him…

Anyway, I will see him again so I have to be patient!

After he gets about three meters away from me he turns around and starts running away to the direction where he came from but once he reaches at the woods he turns, gives me one last look and then disappears living me breathless.

“There is something about him Cleo…” Clea murmurs thoughtfully and I sigh heavily as I get sure that he is not coming back again.

“You mean… When he touched our neck?” I ask her dizzy and she groans in frustration troubled.

“I don’t know, generally! I felt what you did, I know everything you had told me, we felt different when he touched our neck but it’s not like Thor and you know it!” she replies quickly and I nod.

“He is not our mate, I know… The feeling is not so strong but what could it be?”

“I think we will never know…” she murmurs and I shake my head worried.

And now that we are alone again…

“Clea…” I start and she perks her ears nervously reading my tone and what this is supposed t mean.

“Yeah?”

“I know that you want us to stay here the more we can, do our best to prevent everyone from knowing about us and Thor, you are hurt and mad at him but what about what William told us? I mean… About making him jealous…” I say and she stiffens thoughtfully.

“You don’t want to try and make him jealous Cleo and I agree with you! If he wants to get jealous with no amends from us then let him feel this way but I don’t like trying to gain someone’s interest and so do you! There is no reason to prove him who we are! I don’t care what reason he has for doing all these, the thing is what he does and it’s enough for me to want him away! Mate or not I don’t care anymore, he chose someone else and especially that useless b***h!” she replies with pure anger and I nod in agreement.

I mean, come on!

Lillian?

She loves no one except from herself, money and power! How can she be a Luna when she feels no love for the pack?

I am sure that if Thor was not the Alpha then she wouldn’t have been with him and that asshole says he loves her!

This is…

FUCK!

“And I have no idea why he changed his mind about us six months after he found out that we are mates! Those six months he was crazy for us! Do you remember? What did I do wrong?” I ask her nervously and she rolls her eyes showing me her teeth.

“YOU DID NOTHING WRONG! HE IS JUST AN ASSHOLE!” she roars and I shake my head in desperation.

I don’t know what on earth happened to him but does it matter now?

I lost him and it’s pointless to wonder what has gone wrong!

“And don’t forget to get rid of the blood before you go back…” she whispers in annoyance and I bite my lower lip thoughtfully.

Hmm…

“We will go back when it’s too late and there is no one awake! I have no idea what the asshole did to get rid of it but I am not in mood for swimming now… I am bored!” I say and she looks surprised.

“And are we just going to sit here?” she asks me with complaint and I groan ironically rolling my eyes as an idea pops in my mind.

“Why don’t we go at my grandma’s house? I have the keys with me and I want to see its condition! I am planning to fix everything, clean it and maybe spend some time there. After this thing with Thor I am sure we are going to need to stay away from him very often!” I reply and she starts shaking her tail in excitement.

“Yes!” she screams and I laugh as I walk to the woods.

I stop behind one of the first trees and take off my dress. I already have my boots and jacket next to me and when I am naked I put everything together and shift in my wolf form.

I give Clea full control, she takes my clothes in our mouth and then she starts running to our north where my grandma’s house is.

It is going to take me about an hour or less to reach there because it is quite away and deep inside the forest close to the mountains and the territories’ border is less than ten minutes away from her house but believe me it’s amazing!

I always loved going there and unfortunately that wasn’t happening very often because as I told you my mom and dad didn’t want my grandma so much! I was spending less than an hour with her and we were never alone but I loved being next to her! She was very sweet and calm, extremely wise and her advices were always right!

Clea keeps on running, she is unstoppable and she is looking around us while running as we have missed every corner of this forest we know so well! I have to say that everything is peaceful and the weather is perfect! I am also impressed that I have seen no guards till now, probably Thor has a strange idea of getting sure that the pack’s territory is safe and my father is taking his side but once I take his place everything is going to change.

Usually guarding is the Delta’s job, he is responsible for the program and the guards but looks like Finn is more useless and lazy than I had thought and this is getting on my nerves!

Just wait, three days, three f*****g days and then I am going to kill them all with duties! When Richard was Alpha nothing of these was happening and everything was perfect with every pack member having its duties and now…

Do you know what?

Thor’s perfect image is being dissolved gradually and this is something I had never thought because back then he was perfect and very logical. I don’t know what changed now but as the next Beta my duty will be to take care of everything even if he is lazy as well and he doesn’t want to spend some of his time to make sure that everything is perfect and the pack is safe!

Usually the Alpha is giving his Beta orders and then the Beta is taking care of everything and in the end gives full report to him but from what I understand Thor is very loose and my dad is surprisingly not so willing to take more decisions and this is something against his nature. In the past he was the ‘beast’ of perfection and my mom was helping him run everything he had to do and now…

Anyway, this is going to change soon!

About an hour pass way too easily and now we are finally watching the house’s roof as the trees around the house are not so dense and Clea slows down to go behind a tree and shift. Alright, there is no one around but let’s be typical!

She leaves my clothes down on the ground and then smirks giving me full control. I think myself in my human form and some seconds later I am taking my dress to put it on and next come my boots. After I am done I take my jacket but I am not cold to wear it so I walk to the house and stop when I pass by the last trees.

I narrow my eyes putting lots of efforts not to cry as the memories of my grandma and our moments together come in my mind again and I exhale in a try to get rid of my pain and the sudden weight I feel on my shoulders.

I am here… Finally!

I take some steps to the house and I can’t stop myself from noticing the broken windows, the small chair she had with the wooden table that are down on the wooden floor of her small porch and I walk up the three steps to stop a meter away from her door.

My body trembles for a moment and I open my jacket’s pocket to take the keys and open it because from what I see the lock is fixed even though the rogues had broken into the house as my mother told me. Probably she or my father did it for me but I think I am going to change it and put a better one…

I take the keys and close the zipper as I have my phone still inside and I take two big steps getting ready to open the door when another wave of a cold breeze comes and I open my eyes widely.

I turn around instantly with my gaze traveling all around and Clea howls outraged asking from me to give her full control again.

They are above five and they are close… I don’t know them, I am sure!

Some loud howls sound from somewhere on my left making me growl loudly and my eyes turn black as I leave my jacket fall down and my hands turn into fists.

I was expecting it but I don’t know why me… Again!

“ROGUES!”

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Hello everyone!

This is the 4rd chapter and the mysterious wolf seems like is stealling Cleo's heart!

Welcome all and thanks for reading this special to me chapter!

I am really curious to know your opinions about it and your thoughts about what is going to happen next so please let me know!

What do you think about Cleo's behavior? Who is this wolf, what does he want? Why is he saving her, how does he looks to know all these things? Why are rogues trying to kill her? Is it a coincidence or not? Is Cleo going to make it?

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