Psyche and Psycho

Chapter 11

“I wanted to be free and happy that’s why I am here.” I sincerely told her.

Maureen looked like she is about to cry luckily dumating na yung orders naming kaya na udlot ang pagdadrama nya.

Like I said I want to be happy and free from now on. I want to free and be whoever or what ever I want to be in life, and I want to be genuinely happy yung tipo ng say ana hindi ako nagiguilty pagkatapos yung saya na hindi panandalian. I want to be able to wake up in the morning and just feel nothing but happiness and peace.

“Thanks kuya.” I said to the delivery boy as I get our orders.

Nilagay ko kaagad sa table sa harap naming ni Mau yung foods.

Agada gad naman syang nagbukas ng beer at kumuha ng glazed friedchicken.

“Hoy dahan dahan naman sa pagkain wala naman humahabol sayo baka mabilaukan ka jan.” awat ko sa kanya.

She just looked at me as if sobrang frustrated nya.

“Psyche I am honestly happy for you I want to so much to avoid myself from crying I am just so happy for you that you finally chose yourself. After all these years finally, you chose yourself. I am beyond happy that you finally realize that your mistakes doesn’t define who you and more so it should not hold you back.” Maureen honestly said.

Na pa tango naman ako sa kanya.

“Yeah it took me some time to finally figure that out, or maybe I already know about that its just that it makes me guilty so much pakiramdam ko wala akong karapatan na maging masaya. It took me a lot of courage to do this napuno lang din talaga ako I was planning this like for a couple of months or a year pa sana bago ako magresign,” I said to her.

“ But Dad is getting more stubborn as time passes by lalo syang lumalala pakiramdam ko pag hindi pa ako umalis madami pang madadamay na tao sa galit nya sa akin and I don’t want that to happen. Ayoko na, I hate the feeling everytime na nagtatanggal sya ng tao dahil lang sa galit nya sa akin. Na madagdagan pa yung mga tao na masisira ang buhay indirectly because of me.” I continued.

Maureen sadly tapped my shoulder.

“Don’t worry sometimes you can find peace and comfort more in a place that is new to you and you can explore. I am just so happy for you Psyche finally you can get a life for yourself now. So what are you planning?” tanong nya sa akin.

I inhaled deeply.

“Sa totoo lang wala pa but I want to try something new uhm modelling perhaps? I remember during my highschool days I had some minor gigs sa mga local magazines sa Cebu. I just want to try it and then also I am going to look for a full time job I guess? And then eventually start a business of my own.” I said to her.

Matagal ko din pinagisipan kung ano nga ba ang plano kong gawin sa buhay ko rito and I looked back on those times na I still had some dreams. And then I thought to myself that maybe I can continue chasing my dreams now and be someone I wanted myself to be.

“Oh God! Yes! Of course you can be a model! Kahit nga siguro magbeauty queen pwede ka! Do you want to try being a beauty queen?! I have some friends who can help you! Hindi ka mahihirapan I am sure sa ganda at sexy mong yan friend taob lahat sayo!” masayang masayang sabi nya sa akin.

Natawa naman ako sa reaction nya para bang mas excited pa sya sa akin.

“No! I don’t want to be a beauty queen for Christ’s sake! Ayoko okay na siguro ako sa modelling I will probably look for some modelling agency kapag okay na tong condo I still have to shop for a lot of things. Ni wala pa akong pagkain and I will probably contact Lianna to send me all the things that I need to finalize for the company and once its settled saka ako mag-aapply as a model and then probably look for a full time job.” Sagot ko sa kanya.

Natawa naman sya sa sinagot ko.

“Ano ka ba baka pag nagbeauty queet ka maiuwi mo ang korona ng Miss Universe! Oh well typical you who hates the lime light but loves the camera. Bakit ka pa mag-aapply? I can send your picture in my agency and for sure they’ll die to have you! Sino ba naman ang hindi gugustong kuhanin ang isang Psyche Estella Trinidad?” super confident na sabi nya sa akin.

I couldn’t help but laugh at Maureen’s remarks.

Maureen didn’t spend the night here she went home at 10 pm and said na maaga pa kasi syang pupunta sa kompanya ng pinsan nya. She bid her goodbyes and then went home.

I woke up at around seven in the morning, I did my morning rituals and then decided to go out to have some breakfast and then do some groceries.

I was walking towards the elevator when I bumped into someone. Busy kasi ako sa kakahanap ng susi ng sasakyan ko dahil hindi ko sure kung nabitbit ko ba.

I looked up and saw his familiar face.

It’s him. Mr. P*rvert.

He just looked at me as if he saw a ghost pero most probably ganon din ang itsura ko sa itsura nya kasi sino ba naman ang magaakala na sa luwang ng pilipinas eh magkikita pa kami ditong dalawa right?

He didn’t said a word to me but nung pumasok kami sa elevator I can still feel his stare at my back.

It felt lilke the longest elevator ride that I have ever had in my entire life, hindi ko maintindihan kung bakit ba asiwang asiwa ako whenever he’s around.

Pagbaba ng elevator sa parking lot mabilis ako lumabas at walang lingon likod na naglakad pa punta sa kotse ko. I was about to open my car when I heard his familiar voice again.

“You dropped your purse Miss,” maikling sabi nya sa akin at saka iniabot ang purse na nahulog ko.

I looked at him and saw that he was actually holding my pink chanel purse.

Aabotin ko n asana yung purse ko kaya lang bigla nyang binawi yung kamay nya.

Ugh! This brute!

“Give me that. That’s mine.” Seryosong sabi ko sa kanya habang naka tingin ng masama.

He laughed a little but then hindi nya pa din ibinalik sa akin yong purse ko.

He leaned on my car and then looked at me with his eyes that is so irritating.

“How sure are you that it’s yours?” tanong nya sa akin habang naka taas ang kilay

Natawa naman ako sa sinabi at saka siya sinamaan ng tingin.

“Bobo ka ba ha? Ikaw ang nagsabi di ba that I dropped that purse umeffort ka pang sumunod sakin dito sa parking lot tapos tatanongin mo ko nyan nahihibang ka ba?” nabubwiset na sagot ko sa kanya.

Di ba?! Napaka non sense! Sya nan ga mismo ang nagsabi na I dropped my purse tapos sasabihin nya sa akin na pano syang makakasiguro na sa akin na purse yon.

Oh God!

He was about to answer me but then his phone rings.

“Hello? Yes Thalia yes why?” sabi nya sa kausap nya.

Oh Thalia must be the name of her girlfriend the blonde one.

“Okay I am on my way, please tell Wayne to f*****g stay there and don’t f*****g move. I am on my way.” Sagot nya ulit sa kabilang linya at saka ito mabilis na pinatay.