Alpha's Redemption

Just one night

Joshua POV:

We both reached for the last slice of pizza. When our hands touched, I felt the sparks. I was still perplexed by that. Usually, that only happens with your mate. We both looked up at each other. I felt lost in those indigo pools, drawing me in, closer. The last five years watching her from afar had been a living hell. The past five years flashed across my mind.

Watching her stand at her grandmother's grave, trying to be strong.

Watching those negligent relatives she lived with, seeing the pain they caused her.

Getting rid of most of her would be boyfriends. That was more for me though.

My wolf howled and I knew he was ecstatic to be here with her, to be this near her, that he wanted more, he wanted to mark her, I wanted to mark her, forever mine.

I needed to touch her, even if it was only this one time, I was too weak to push her away from me. I also felt a little clumsy. The last time I had been with a woman was 5 years ago when I f****d some girl in Budapest outside the bar against the wall. I quickly wiped that memory from my mind. From the first time I had seen Emma, all I had wanted was Emma. First, I just wanted to protect her, but that changed. I am now obsessed with her. She had become the center of my being, the reason for me breathing.

I couldn’t hold back any longer. I drew her closer. I only wanted a quick taste. I leaned in and softly took her lips, but as soon as our lips touched, I was unable to stop. I felt possessed, I took her around the waist and picked her up and put her on my lap. Her legs instinctively went around my waist. I needed this, I wanted this.

I felt my body harden. I touched her breast and she arched her back. I wanted more. I tore her shirt from her body and took her bra off. This was almost my undoing. I stared at her perfectly rounded breasts. I lowered my mouth and took each n****e into my mouth. I was burning for her. I wanted only her. I heard a small gasp escape her mouth. I pushed her a little back and took off my own shirt. I wanted to feel her body on mine.

I got up and picked her up, still kissing her. I moved to her bed and put her on it. I pulled her jeans off in one smooth motion. She still stood watching me. I bent down and kissed her again, moving to her n*****s. I kissed her rib-cage. I went even lower and kissed her on the inside of her knee. From there, I moved up until I reached the inside of her thigh. She arched her back and gripped the bed sheets tightly. I ripped off her panties, moved her legs over my shoulder and then tasted her. She twisted on the bed, moaning loudly. The taste of her was intoxicating. It made me drunk with lust and something else. I felt her body clench and knew she was close. I stopped and stood up and quickly removed my pants. I bent and kissed her again. I moved in between her legs and slowly entered her. She inhaled sharply and I knew it was the pain of her virginity. I waited, but it was torture. It took all my willpower. When her body finally relaxed and molded to mine, I started to move again. I reached my climax quickly and spilled my seed into her. I felt ecstatic when I heard her excited cries when she came with me.

I pulled her next to me and just watched her. I wanted to know what she felt at that moment, but I was also scared to ask.

She looked over at me and smiled. Relief flooded my body, but also guilt. I had promised her grandmother that I would leave her alone, but I just couldn’t do that.

“So”

I could hear her heartbeat. “So”

She went up on her elbows and stared down at me “When can we do that again.”

I laughed at her and pulled her on top of me. “Right now”

This woman burned in my blood. She was my obsession and for the last 5 years she was my only reason for living.

Emma’s Pov

There was a sharp pain when he entered me, but after the initial shock, I only felt pure pleasure. I know this wasn’t love, but he made me feel loved.

I watched him as he moved to the fridge. He turned to me.

“Can I get you anything, sweet-cheeks?”

I laughed at the name “Just a water please”

He turned to me and gave me a cheeky smile “and me off course”

I walked over to him and hugged him from behind. I spread my hands over his muscular chest, touching him. I felt the stir of arousal in my lower extremities. I didn’t want this night to end. He turned me around to him and started kissing my neck.

“I can smell your sweetness, you want me.”

I laughed, I mean how could anyone smell arousal?

“You wish” I was hoping to play it cool, but I was afraid my inexperience was showing.

He nibbled at my neck and I felt a little bite. He quickly pushed me away from him. I heard him say more to himself. “I can’t.”

I whispered to him “I’m sorry”. I moved away quickly, grabbing some water from the fridge.

He grabbed my arm. “It’s not you Emma”. I watched him as he searched for the right words.

“It’s me, I made a promise”

I looked at him. “I wasn’t looking for a lifetime commitment if that is what you thought. I only wanted a night where I could forget, a night where I could finally rid myself of my goddamn virginity.”

I laughed before I continued “Maybe now I can have a normal relationship with a man.”

I stared over at him, his back was towards me and he held his arms tight against his body, his fists were clenched and he was breathing loudly.

“Joshua, are you okay?”

He turned around and moved swiftly towards me. “No man will ever touch you, you hear me.”

I was shocked, his attitude confused me, he was blowing hot and cold. He grabbed my upper arms and kissed me. This kiss was aggressive and fiery. I wanted to stop him, but I wanted this to happen, I wanted him to take me again.

He pushed me onto the couch and kissed me. This time our lovemaking was filled with fire. I was already wet when he entered one of his fingers in me. He smiled at me. He picked me up and moved me on top of him and entered me. A sound escaped from the back of his throat as soon as he filled me completely. He guides my hips to intensify the pleasure for both of us. I can feel the pleasure building and grind my hips more. He pulls one of my n*****s into his mouth and that is almost my undoing. I grind harder, until I feel myself explode into a million pieces. He grabs my hips and pushes them down, he empties himself in me and then stares into my eyes.

“You are mine, always and only mine, you understand that.”

I just nodded my head and dropped my head to his chest. I frowned with my eyes closed, something felt wrong, we forgot about something, but what? I let it go and just relaxed into the moment. I couldn't get enough of this man.