Mate worth loving

Chapter 7: Not Enough

*Jason Pov

    "Mother, Father let's talk outside. NOW."

    I turn back to look at Lila and try to give her my most reassuring smile i could muster and kissed her on the top of her head. 

"I will be right back. Okay?"

She gave me a small smile and nod with concern in her eyes. I walked out of the room with my parents right on my tail. I turn back to them as soon as i know we are out of ear shoot from Lila.

    "Both of you explain now. How the hell would you say that in front of her?"

They both looked at each other before my mother started speaking. 

    "Jason. You know your father and i have no problems with her being human. It's the timing of it all. Our pack has been targeted for the last few months by unknown wolves. Once they learn that the new Alpha has a human mate they will see that as a chance to attack you where it hurts most. Her."

    I know everything they are saying is correct but i don't care, I love her and i will be damned if anyone tries to touch a hair on her head. 

"We are concerned Jason. Not only is she human but she is severely, to say as nice as i can 'damaged.' Are you sure you can even heal her wounds? Not just the outside ones but the ones on the inside? Do you know how deep her wounds go? Or anything about her family and how she was raised?"

   I stayed quiet. I have never wanted to hit someone as much as i do right now. I know that they are bringing this up out of a place of love. But it doesn't matter.

    "I think what your mother is trying to say is maybe you should think about rejecting her and taking a second choice mate."

As soon as those words left my fathers mouth all i could see was red.

    *Lila Pov

I followed Jason and his parents out of the room. I'm pretty impressed with myself that they haven't noticed and that i managed to keep up with all of my injuries. They finally stopped walking and Jason turned around and started talking at them. And from the look on his face this isn't a happy conversation they are having. I inch closer hoping to hear what they are saying without being exposed. I stop at the corner of the wall barely able to contain my presence.

"I think what your mother is trying to say is maybe you should think about rejecting her and taking a second choice mate."

    My heart sank at the words that just left his lips. Even though i don't fully understand the meaning behind what he just said but it hurt. Really hurt. Jason looks really upset and his face is starting to go red. 

"I would NEVER REJECT HER! EVER!"

    Jason was really angry, he was yelling right in his parent's faces. I could feel my heart start to swell at the thought of him fighting for me. No one has every tried to fight for me, ever. And as much as i loved hearing him tell them they were wrong, i knew that they were right. He needs someone strong and confident that can help protect him and his people. And i know very well that, that is not me. I am not enough for him. I begin to walk back to my room thinking of a way to make Jason reject me.

    *Jason Pov

"I will NEVER REJECT HER! EVER!"

    All i can see is red, it is taking everything i have to shift from the anger. How dare they tell me what to do with my mate and how dare they suggest that she will be the downfall of the pack. 

    "The moon goddess wouldn't have blessed me with Lila unless she is the very thing that will help this pack. I am not rejecting her and she will be my mate and your Luna. So you better damned well get used to it. I think you have visited enough for one day. I will let you know when you can officially meet her. For today go home."

    I stormed off before i gave them a chance to respond. Who the hell do they think they are telling me who i can and can't not mate with. I will show them all how right she is for me and the pack.

I made it back to the room to find Hayden and Claire sitting on the bed talking to Lila. Lila seems to be enjoying herself in the conversation. She is finally smiling and it is one of the most beautiful things i have ever seen. I would do anything to make sure that smile never fades again. As cheesy as that sounds. I would give the world for my mate and i can only help she will feel the same way.

    "Hey Alpha! We were just keeping Luna company until you got back. Everything okay?"

I look over to Lila and i can tell something is wrong. Maybe my mother's comment put her on edge. Hell i would be, i haven't even had the chance to fully explain everything to her. 

    "Yea just my parents being my parents." I try to laugh it off in the hopes that she knows it was nothing serious. All i need is my parents to see what i see in her. But i don't really know what i see either. All I know is i can feel it. I feel like this girl is my destiny as cheesy as that sounds. 

"Right well if you don't need us we can leave you to love birds alone." Claire basically jumped out of her sit while winking. This girl will be the death of me one day. But i truly hope she and Lila can become close. There isn't anyone else i would trust Lila to be around right now then these two. 

    "Actually Hayden can i borrow you for a few minutes? Claire if you don't mind can you keep Lila company while i borrow your mate for a few minutes?"

    "Of course! I would love to get to know Lila better."

"Why?"

    We all snapped our heads over to Lila who looks sincerely confused at the thought someone wants to get to know her. 

"Trust me she is in good hands Alpha."

    I simply nod and walk out of the hospital room with Hayden looking back one final time at my beautiful scared mate.

*Lila Pov

    I really don't understand why they are all fusing around me. It's a mistake i know it is. I am not the girl destined for him. I probably shouldn't even be alive. But since i met him by accident he has saved my life in more ways than one. He is the first person to show me true kindness but i feel like me accepting his kindness comes with a heavy price. Accepting a role i know i am not meant for.

    "I will ask again Claire. Why do you want to get to know me? Because i am his supposed mate? Who says that i am? Why me? He is an amazing person i am just some low-

"Whoa whoa whoa Lila stop! Breathe!! Calm down, take a few big deep breath's." 

    I stop talking and realize i am full freaking out. I feel like i am having a panic attack, which only agitates my injuries. I don't know what to do! I feel so powerless and i truly believe that if he is with me i will only drag him and his family through the mud.

"Feel better?"

    "No. I will feel better when this whole mess is over and done with."

Claire looks slightly hurt and really confused at my comment. I don't want to hurt anyone but i feel like no one is listening to me. 

"Claire i really think you all have the wrong person. I am not a leader, i am not your 'Luna.' My only family can't even love me. Why should he?"

    "Lila i can't answer that for you. But what i can tell you is Jason most defiantly has the right person. You are his soulmate. You two were literally made for each other. But-"

"But what?"

    "Jason might kill me for telling you this but he can reject him if that is what you want. But Lila you said your own family couldn't love you. But why not change that now? Aiden can be your family and show you what love looks like and feels like. Jason is one of the most gentle, caring, loving and just straight up a great guy. You could definitely do a lot worse."

If i didn't know any better i would say she was the one in love with him. Oh my god am i jealous? I am jealous over two strangers that have obliviously known each other a long time. What the hell is wrong with me. 

Before i could say anything else i felt the tears fall from the corner of my eyes, i didn't really realize i was crying until the tear drops started to fall on my hand. Claire looks completely freaked out, that's understandable i would be to. I must look like a psycho right now. 

    After a few more seconds of awkward silence Jason came busting through the door looking extremely angry towards Claire. Like he knew everything we were saying. My god does he know everything we were saying? Has he been listening this entire time? 

    "What the hell Claire. I ask you to keep her company not making her cry. What did you say to her?"

A massive wave of relief washes over me, either he knows what we were talking about and is a really good actor or he has no idea. 

    "It's not what you think! I don't know what happened. I'm sorry Lila if i went to far in the conversation and made you uncomfortable."

Before i could respond she rushed out of the room and walked off with i am assuming Hayden. What the hell is wrong with today and everyone. Nothing makes any sense. I just want to fall asleep and try again. I want to wake up in a less crazy world and go back to being invisible. 

    Jason came over and sat on the bed next to me and started stroking my cheek with the back of his hand. All i could feel was tingly and sparks all throughout my body. Maybe this was the connection everyone was talking about. My entire body and being just wants to hold on to him and never let go. I am so confused on my this thought keeps coming into my mind. But i feel safe with him. Safer than i have ever felt and just the thought of that made me cry even harder. 

    "Oh love please don't cry. Whatever Claire said i don't think she meant to be mean or-    

"No Jason she didn't say anything wrong. I-I just feel so safe and comfortable with you. Like i want to fall in your arms and never let go."

    I push Jason back a little bit so i can look at his face and he has the biggest smile on his face. His bright smiling face just washes all the negativity from me. But ever since i met him he has done nothing but help me. And what have i given him? A possibly wedge between him and his family and possibly his pack?

"Jason i need you to do something for me?"

    "Anything! Whatever you need just tell me and i will do everything in my power to make it happen.!"

I look down at my hands and started to take a couple of deep breathes. I gather all my courage and look up at Aiden and say "You Jason need to reject me as your mate."