Love Just Ain't Enough (BOOK TWO)

NINETEEN: PROMISE

“We’re not going to do it here.” Anas nito sa aking tainga. Ang mga daliri nito ay gumagawa ng masasarap na haplos sa aking likod.

Kumagat-labi ako habang nakatitig sa kanyang mga labi. I wanted to lean forward to capture his lips, but I felt shy for doing so. And to think I was completely naked in front of him. Alejandro raked his eyes on me once again and the fire flickered in them was enough to send me to the heights of unbearable desire. My breathing labored as his hands seductively went up to cup my breasts. A soft moan fell from my lips. My breasts were getting perky and I could feel the intense throbbing of my s*x. I felt like it was my first time experiencing this kind of feeling. I felt everything was brand new.

“You want me, baby?” Ale murmured on my neck. Napatingala ako.

“Yes…yes. Ale. Please…” I was practically begging. Kahit nakaluhod kaming dalawa, pakiramdam ko’y bibigay pa rin ang katawan ko. I couldn’t control the trembling of my flesh. I don’t think I could last another minute if he kept on stroking my sensitive skin. His soft touches were enough to send me to orgasm. And he hasn’t even penetrated me yet.

Alejandro’s hardness was poking against my belly. Binaba ko ang kamay ko mula sa pagkakahawak sa kanyang balikat para sakupin ang pagkalalake nito. He stirred in my touch and a groan vibrated against his throat.

“Damn it.” He ground his teeth as his eyes rolling back to his head. Bumaba ang kanyang ulo upang sakupin ng kanyang labi ang tuktok ng aking dibdib. One flick of his tongue against my n****e and I flinched. My clit clenching, desperate for more attacks from him.

Nakakapanghina ang ginagawa niya sa aking katawan ngayon. It made me feel so frustrated.

“Let’s move to the bedroom.” He uttered. Thank heavens! Tumayo ito at maingat na hinila ako. My knees wobbled but Alejandro instantly wrapped his arm around my waist. He reached to his back to turn the shower faucet off. Marahas na hinablot nito ang towel at binalot niya iyon sa akin. He dried me first bago nito patuyuin ang sarili. Hinagis niya ang tuwalya sa hamper at ganun na lang ang tili ko nang binuhat niya ako.

“I’m heavy.” Reklamo ko. I know he’s being romantic, but I was worried my weight might cause injury to his knee.

Umiling ito. “Ang gaan mo. I don’t like to think that you’re not getting enough food for yourself because you’ve been saving up. Okay lang na magtipid ka sa ibang bagay pero wag mong tipirin ang sarili mo pagdating sa pagkain. How will you able to work if your stomach is empty? Tss. From now on, I will keep on feeding you until you feel like throwing up.” He said as he stepped out of the shower.

I giggled as I slapped him on the chest. “What are you, my parent? Talo mo pa si lola kung pagsabihan ako.”

“I just don’t want you to get sick. Tama nang ang isa sa atin ang may sakit.” He retaliated.

“Wala ka naman nang sakit, di ba? You’re completely healed, right Ale?”

“Sa ngayon. But I can’t let my guards down. Cancer is a relentless traitor. It might come again.”

I trembled. I clung to his nape tighter and buried my face on the crook of his neck. Weariness and uneasiness suddenly engulfed me. “Please don’t get sick, Ale.”

“Hey, don’t worry about it. I’m stronger than you think.” He smirked.

“But it’s okay.” I replied. “If you get sick again, I’ll take care of you. After all, I was your carer and I am happy to announce that I’m officially back to serve you.”

Alejandro chuckled. We reached his king-size bed and he slowly put me down. I tried to drag my stare away from his, but I had no strength to do so. Alejandro once again raked his eyes on my whole body, and I blushed.

“f**k baby, you’re gorgeous.”

 Ganun din ang ginawa ko sa kanya. Alejandro looked absolutely beautiful. He’s enchanting, distracting and his physique is positively terrifying. Sa kabila ng mga marka sa kanyang katawan, resulta ng kanyang mga pinagdaanang operasyon, hindi iyon naging hadlang para mabawasan ang kanyang kakisigan. He is imperfectly perfect in my eyes and he’s mine.

“You look incredible, Ale.” It was an understatement of the century.

Physically, he changed a lot. He’s bigger and wider now. He told me he’s been hitting the gym ever since he finally got back on his feet. But looking at him now, I realized something. I smiled at myself, pleased of the thought.

“What are you smiling about?” His hooded eyes met mine.

I grinned. “Wala naman. May na-realize lang ako.”

He climbed in all fours and hovered above me. “And what is that?”

I reached for his hair and let my fingers ran through the smoothness of it. Tinitigan kong mabuti ang kanyang abohing mga mata. “Na-realize ko lang na kung bumalik ka ulit sa buhay ko at katulad ka pa rin ng dati, hindi nakakalakad at may kapayatan, tingin ko’y mamahalin pa rin kita ngayon katulad nang pagmamahal ko sa’yo noon. In other words, nakakalakad ka man o hindi, maskulado ka man o payat, wala pa ring magbabago sa pagmamahal ko sa’yo. Mahal na mahal pa rin kita, Alejandro. At hindi na siguro iyon magbabago pa.”

“And I love you too, Bea. It won’t matter to me even if you’re the poorest person in the world. Even if you’re jobless and outcast. It won’t matter to me even if there’s not a single drop of royal blood running through your veins. I will love you just the same. You are my world. My air that I breathe. My reason for waking up in the morning. You are my everything, baby.”

I grinned as my eyes started to get misty. “My sweet-talker Alejandro. Will you stop talking and just start moving?” I bit my lip as moved my hands to pinch his butt cheeks.

Alejandro narrowed his eyes on me. “I don’t want to hear you complaining about being sore tomorrow. You asked for this.”

I whispered against his ear. “Bring it on.”

Alejandro clasped my chin between his thumb and index, forcing me to tilt my head up.

“Do you trust me, baby?”

I nodded. “Always.”

He then dipped down and captured my lips, giving me a blistering kiss. His kisses were not rough, in fact, they were slow as if savoring every part of my mouth. My hands wrapped around his back, jerking him closer to me until there was no space left between us. I love feeling his weight on me.

I kissed Alejandro back, darting my tongue out. He masterfully captured it and sucked hard that I groaned deliciously. I fumbled my hands against the softness of his hair.

Alejandro started to go lower, taking my right n****e between his lips and sucked it deep into his mouth. I moaned as I grabbed a handful of his hair. It felt incredible. It was more intense compared to what he did before.

He took my other hand from yanking out his hair and circled it around his c**k…er…hardness.

“Ale… goodness, you’re so hard and huge.” I panted.

I remembered him being big but this time, he’s even bigger. I don’t think it would fit me.

Alejandro chuckled while latching onto my right breast. “It has finally reached its full potential, baby.”

Nanlaki ang mata ko sa kanya. “It wasn’t before?”

He laughed lightly. “Hmm…let’s say, it was only like 60 percent then.”

“What? Are you kidding me? You’re going to kill me with that thing then.” I gripped his manhood. Christ, it’s so thick!

He continued laughing and went up to kiss me on the lips. “It will fit. Trust me.”

Alejandro dropped his hand to my s*x, sliding up and down my slit as he continued kissing a path down my throat. My back arched when he inserted one finger.

“f*****g, hell, you’re tight and soaked.” He murmured between the valley of my mounds.

He then inserted another finger and started thrusting into me, working me up. My hands flew back to his hair, grabbing a handful as my head fell back against the pillow. I couldn’t take it anymore. I couldn’t keep his foreplay up much without combusting.

“More…” I moaned, surprised at myself.

“You want more, huh.”

He thrusted his two digits into me faster. I was glad he wasn’t treating me like I was made of China, easily get bruised or broken. I wanted him to be confident, rough and savage. I wanted him to give his all to me as I was giving my all to him as well.

I held tighter on my pillows as my walls started clenching on its own.

“Please, Ale…” I groaned.

“Hmm…” He licked his way down my stomach to my belly button. And he went down further. I started trembling when I felt his tongue there. Goodness. His hot tongue dipping into my wet flesh.

“Alejandro…”

“What does my baby want?” He whispered against my flesh, licking me as if I was a damn treat.

“You…inside me…” My eyes rolling back to my head. My back arching up from the mattress.

Alejandro rose to his knees as one of his hand went up to cup my swelling breast, the other touching my inner thigh. He parted my legs wider as he positioned himself, angling his manhood toward my center.

He leaned down to kiss me savagely. I moaned against his lips, our tongue seeking each other. Sinampay ko ang aking mga braso sa kanyang leeg, naghahanda sa kanyang pagpasok sa akin.

“When I’m inside you, don’t you dare close your eyes, Beverly Ann.” He muttered.

Agad na tumango ako sa kanya. I won’t dare, Ale.

He cursed as he drove an inch into me, groaning and hissing at the friction of our movement.

“God, I’ve been waiting for this for so long….” Ani nito.

“Me too. Don’t hesitate, Ale. Do whatever you please. I’m all yours.” I dropped my hands and transferred them to his waist, urging him to go deeper. I want him to go deep and deeper. I want all of him in me.

“Fuck.” He hissed as he slid in forcefully.

I cried out when a sharp pain sliced through me. I had to grab his arms to make him stop from moving. Lord, why does it hurt like the first time?

“You’re so tight. Am I hurting you, baby?” He whispered.

“A little. It’s been so long since we did this…” I answered truthfully. Hindi ko inaasahan na makakaramdam pa rin pala ako ng sakit kahit na ginawa na namin ito noon.

Alejandro kissed my forehead, giving me a contented look. “I’m glad.”

My eyes questioning him. “You’re glad because?”

“I’m glad to know that I am the only one. You are mine, Bea. You better start getting used to the fact that you’re mine and mine alone.”

I crinkled my nose. “I’m aware of that, silly. Though, I had tried doing bad things.”

He narrowed his eyes on me, but I flicked his forehead. “I said tried.” I sighed. “You left a big hole in my heart, Ale. I thought that if I’d let someone in, start building relationship with him…”

“Him you mean, Tyler.” He rolled his eyes on me.

I giggled. “Yes. Tyler. Pero…hindi ko kaya. Kahit anong galit at sama ng loob ko sa’yo, hindi ko kayang ibigay ang sarili ko sa iba dahil kahit ang pira-pirasong bubog ng puso kong wasak ay ikaw pa rin ang inaasam.”

“Thank you.” He gave me a chaste kiss. “Are you okay now?”

I nodded. “I’m okay. You can start moving.”

“Are you sure? Cause baby, I want to move so damn much I’m gonna blow up.”

I held onto his arms just in case the pain came back when he started to move. “Go on, Ale. I want you to move now, please.”

“Hell, yeah.” He groaned and began moving. I could feel his manhood throbbing and pulsating inside me. I shivered in his arms, and I knew I was close.

“Ale…oh my god.” I grabbed his face and lowered his head. I kissed him roughly as he found my clit between us and rubbing in circle motions. I closed my eyes.

“Bea…” He groaned. “Eyes on me, baby.”

I popped my eyes open and the rawness of emotions I saw in his eyes melted my heart. I couldn’t help but to admire him even more, seeing how much he’d been through. How’d he come back swinging, strong and lively.

Alejandro isn’t just a warrior, he’s also a survivor.

My Alejandro.

“I love you.” I said as I clenched around his thing so hard that the rest of my body started to convulse.

“I love you.” He replied, his blazing eyes locked with mine.

“I’m….” I started spamming.

“Comin.” He continued as both of us experienced the most intense orgasm we’d ever had.

Alejandro cried out my name as I held onto him while we rocked each other’s body. I was panting heavily and so was he. My body slowly drifted back down to earth. He pinned me down with the heaviness of his weight, but I did not care. I like feeling his hard body on top of me. I splayed my hands on his back as my breathing started to become normal.

We stayed that way for several minutes and Alejandro would press tiny kisses to my cheek and neck. His hot breath fanning across my skin soothed me.

Alejandro pressed his arms against the mattress and pulled himself away from me. “Stay here.” He spoke.

Tuluyan itong tumayo at umalis sa kama. He didn’t bother to wear any clothes to cover his nakedness. He walked towards the bathroom door and disappeared. It didn’t take a while before I spotted him coming back to the bed, one hand holding a damp cloth.

He spread my legs apart from each other and he cleaned me there. I smiled inwardly. His expression was so serious. The same expression I saw in him when he was studying the reports, I sent to him.

“I’m fine, Ale.” I chuckled.

“Just because you’re fine doesn’t mean you didn’t feel the pain. I was rough.”

“I know. But I like it. I enjoyed it. I love it when you’re being rough.”

He sighed as he gave me one lingering look. He threw the damp cloth somewhere and climbed onto the bed. He settled himself beside me, pulling me closer to his body. He pulled the duvet up to cover our nakedness.

I rested my cheek on his chest, breathing his manly scent that I loved about him.

May naalala ako. “We didn’t use protection.”

I felt him shaking his head. “It’s okay. I won’t get you pregnant.”

My brows furrowed. He sounded so sure. Tiningala ko ito.

“Ganun ka kasigurado?”

Alejandro looked at me with a blank expression. “Let’s talk about your daughter.”

“Uhm, well.” I stiffened. “She’s not really my daughter.”

“I know.”

“How did you find out?”

He grinned. “You just told me a while ago that I was the only one.”

I rolled my eyes and slapped his chiseled chest. “Kaya pala wagas kang makangisi diyan. Tuwang tuwa ka niyan, Ser? Pero tiyak ako, hindi lang ako ang nag-iisang babae sa buhay mo.”

He heaved a sigh. His fingers making lazy stoke at my back. “You’re the only one for me, Bea.”

I cleared my throat. I believe him. “Si Faye ay pamangkin ko. Iniwan siya ni ate sa akin. You know my ate Becky? Siya yung….”

“Nasa video.” His jaw locked and I felt him tense.

“It’s okay. We should talk about the past from time to time, Ale. It may not be comfortable at first, but at least we are now in the process of healing our wounds. Ang mahalaga sa akin ngayon ay kapiling na natin ang isa’t isa at napatawad na kita. Don’t be too hard on yourself. Hindi mo ginusto ang nangyari sa akin noon. I’m sorry if there’s a point in my life that I blamed you for it. What I went through was nothing compared to what happened to you.”

“Don’t say that. My intention was to hurt you.”

“Yes, but you were also hurt by that drastic decision you made. Nagdusa ka rin, Ale. At alam kong sa ating dalawa, mas naapektuhan ka sa paghihiwalay nating iyon. But it’s true though. Hindi ko kayang isipin ang hirap ng pinagdaanan mo, Ale. Mula nang maaksidente ka hanggang sa na-diagnose ka ng cancer. I mean, only few people would have survived in that situation. At hindi ako magsasawang sabihin sa’yo na sobrang proud ako na nalagpasan mo lahat ng iyon, Ale. Buong buhay akong magpapasalamat sa Diyos na hindi ka Niya pinabayaan.” My voice faltered. Nagiging emotional na naman ako.

“Don’t cry, baby.” He kissed me on the forehead at mas lalong humigpit ang yakap sa akin. “I’m ashamed to admit that in those trying times, I never prayed to God or asked Him to heal me. In all those years, the only reason that motivated me to keep going was you. My mind, my heart is full of memories of you. When I feel pain, pipikit lang ako at iisipin ang nakangiti mong mukha, nawawala na ang sakit. You have no idea how much you’ve helped me overcome my illness, Bea.”

I sobbed. “I wish I were there, Ale. I wish I were there to support you or to witness your first step.”

“Speaking of which…” He reached something to his side. Pulling a drawer, may kinuha itong CD mula roon. Binigay niya iyon sa akin.

“What’s this?” Tanong ko nang tinanggap ko iyon.

“Jayden made a documentary about my everyday life in the rehabilitation center. You know, physical therapy sessions and such. Nasa loob ng bala na yan ang lahat ng mga pinagdaanan ko para makalakad muli. Hindi ko pa yan napanood at wala akong balak na panoorin dahil according to Karina, it might not be a good idea. One of the triggers of my depression is the traumatic, hellish experience I went through during the rehabilitation process.” He informed me.

“I want to watch it.” The words slipped through my lips on their own. But I mean it. Gusto kong makita at malaman kung anong klaseng paghihirap ang pinagdaanan nito. I was not being a masochist, but I wanted to understand him more. Understand his pain and maybe I could somehow find a way to ease it or at least lessen it.

“Are you sure?”

Tumitig ako sa kanyang mga mata. “You’re not the only one who is strong here, Ale. You can lean on me. You can depend on me. I promise you; I’ll be there to catch you when you fall. I’ll be there to pick you up when you’re feeling down.”

“I know, baby. I know.” He titled his head up, hiding his tears from me.

I smiled as I kissed the part of his chest where I could feel the fast beating of his heart.

Alejandro’s POV

“Aren’t you hungry?” I asked her while we’re heading towards the media room.

“Actually, medyo.” Nag-alanganin ito sa pagsagot.

I chuckled and clutched her waist, pressing her soft body to my side. “You’re adorable.”

“I know, right.” She winked at me.

Damn it. I’ve never been so happy in my life. Having her next to me was like a dream come true. I’ve been looking forward to this moment. The moment when she finally realized that she still loves me and forgives me. Wala na siguro akong hihilingin pa sa mundong ito. Si Bea lang, sobrang sapat na.

Nang makarating kami sa media room, I opened the door for her. I let her walk past me. I smirked when I saw her jaw dropped to the floor. I turned on the thermostat air conditioner that was placed on the wall.

“Wow!” Bulalas nito. “Parang cinema lang!”

I chuckled. God, she’s really adorable. I led her to one of the comfy seats in the front row of the room.

“Hindi ko alam na may ganitong room pala dito, Ale.”

“I’m sorry if I wasn’t able to tour you around the house. There are some areas which are not accessible by wheelchair.”

Her expression changed. “Hindi ko naisip yun.” Inosente nitong sagot. I laughed again. This woman.

“I’m going to make use every room in this oversized house.” Determinado nitong sambit na mas lalong ikinangisi ko.

“Baby, are you sure about that? There are at least fifteen bedrooms here. Three kitchens, one dining hall, three libraries, the ballroom, the gym—”

“Oo na, oo na.” She threw her hands up in the air.

When I finished setting up everything, sinalang ko ang DVD. I spun around to face her. “I will leave you alone for a while. I’ll just check few emails in the library. Magpapahanda na rin ako ng simpleng hapunan natin.”

She beamed at me. “Okay. Thank you, Ale.”

I kissed the top of her head bago ako lumabas ng media room.

Dumiretso agad ako sa common kitchen. Mula nang iwan nila Mama at Papa ang kastilyo at mas piniling manirahan sa ibang bansa, marami akong inalis sa bahay na ito.

Ang mga katulong ay ilag sa akin. Kaya kapag nandito ako sa isla, madalas ay wala sila. Tanging si June—my butler, isang kusinero at dalawang matandang katulong ang madalas na naiiwan.

“Sir, gutom na ba kayo?’ Salubong ni June sa akin. Madalas ay dito sila sa kusina tumatambay kapag wala ng ginagawa.

I nodded. “If you have baked mac and cheese, I’d love to have it. When the food is ready, pakidala nalang sa media room tapos pakisabihan ako.”

“Yes, Sir.” he replied in a stern voice.

I gave him a nod at umalis na doon.

Napapalatak ako nang maalalang hindi ko dala ang aking cellphone at naiwan sa kwarto. Plano ko pa naman sanang tawagan si Matt. I replied few emails at hindi na ako nagtagal sa library. I wondered what my baby was doing right now—rather feeling right now.

Sa hallway ay nasalubong ko si June. Kakatapos lang siguro nitong iwan ang pagkain sa loob ng media room,

Nanliit ang mata ko. He looked bothered. “What is it?” Matigas na tonong sambit ko.

“Medyo nag-aalala lang ako sa girlfriend n’yo, Sir.”

Hindi ko na hinintay na madugtungan pa nito ang sasabihin. Mabilis kong binuksan ang pintuan ng media room.

Nagtama ang mga mata namin. My heart broke when I saw how frightened she was. Her face full of tears. Her hiccups were making my chest burned in pain.

My poor baby girl.

Malalaki ang hakbang na ginawa ko. Tinaas ni Bea ang kanyang mga braso and I knew immediately what she wanted me to do with her.

She wanted me to hold her. To assure her that I was real.

As soon as I had reached her, I picked her up. She threw her arms around my neck and kissed me on the lips.

“I can’t finish it. It’s too much.” She cried against my neck.

“It’s okay, baby. It’s okay.” Pag-aalo ko sa kanya.

“Ale…”

“Hmm?”

“Hold me. Love me.”

My chest heaved up and down. “Holding and loving you are the only things I’d love to do with you.” I murmured above her head.

I carried her back to our bedroom. The food could wait.

We slowly undressed each other. Kissing and nipping. Touching every sensitive part of our body.

“Alejandro, promise me one thing.” She whispered.

Tumango ako, urging her to continue.

“Choose to live your life, with or without me in it.”

I stiffened. Didn’t expect her to say that. I wanted to say no. How did she expect me to live without her? But her eyes were pleading me.

I nodded. “I promise.”

Bea smiled but kept on crying. And I cried with her. This moment was different. We were pouring out our soul for each other. Displaying each other’s truths. And as I thrust into her, I felt it.

I felt her soul. I felt her love.

A love that is kind. A love that is forgiving. A love that is selfless.

As we moaned and screamed each other’s names, I hoped to the heavens above that she felt mine, too.