Love Just Ain't Enough (BOOK TWO)

TWENTY: HAPPINESS

I woke up feeling hot. And horny.

Pleasure was drowning me as a throaty moan escaped my lips.

My mind was a bit disoriented. What is happening?

I opened my eyes only to see Alejandro feasted on my puss—er—s*x. My legs were wide open. I gasped. My back arched off the bed and grabbed a handful of his dark brown hair.

Another moan was heard in all corners of the room when I felt his tongue ran up and down my slit then thrust inside me.

"Damnit, Ale..." I scolded him in a weak voice. I pulled his hair forcefully and I knew it must hurt him. But the beast just smirked at me and blew air on my hole.

"Christ!" I muttered in a hiss. My walls started to spasm.

He ate me up as if he's been hungry for a century. Was last night not enough for him? I was so sure I fainted when my orgasm rocked my world for the sixth time. My mind went black. Hindi ko na matandaan kung ano nangyari pagkatapos noon. He probably gave me—finally—the sleep and rest I needed.

"Yes, Ale! Yes, that spot!" I mewled a little wilder.

When his thumb found my clit, giving it a flick, I combusted. Alejandro masterfully teased me with his fingers and when he did that, I completely lost it.

I screamed his name at the top of my lungs as I came around his naughty tongue. This man knows how to drive me crazy—literally and figuratively.

Alejandro licked my sensitive folds one more time before he climbed up, hovering above me.

He's grinning from ear to ear. Those mischievous eyes of his gazed at me with a hint of cockiness.

"Good morning, beautiful." Napapaos nitong sambit kasabay ng paglabas ng dila nito, licking my chin up to my nose.

I giggled. "Aso ka ba at ang hilig mong mandila."

"Kung ikaw ang lagi kong didilaan, why not." He narrowed his eyes. A playful smirk appeared at the corner of his mouth.

"Ang aga-aga, Ale." I rolled my eyes at him.

"Maaga pa ba ang alas diyes sa'yo?"

"Alas diyes na?"

It was his turn to laugh. "Kanina pa kita ginigising. Nakapag-ehersisyo na ako, nakaligo at kakatapos lang ng virtual conference meeting ko, tulog ka pa rin."

"Wala kang binanggit na nakapag-almusal ka na."

"Oh? Right. Actually, I just did. Your p***y is the best."

Kinurot ko ito. "Inaantok pa ako."

"Hmmm..." He dipped down, burying his head on my neck. "Pagod ka pa rin ba ngayon? How sore are you?"

Namula ako. Must he ask? I just had my first orgasm for today and I'm sure by body is ready for him to be taken. It's just that, no matter how sore I am, my body will always respond to him.

Instead of answering him, I ruffled his hair. He's so gorgeous, sexy and handsome and, sigh, too perfect. He is perfection personified.

"I can handle one more orgasm, I guess." I chuckled.

His eyes squinted, looking at me as if he's a man with a mission. "Mouth, fingers or me?"

Oh, God. Can I answer all of the above? But there will probably lots of orgasm coming if I chose all.

"You." I answered breathlessly.

"Good choice, although, I'm still going to finger-f**k you." Sagot nito.

Hindi na ako nakasagot dahil sinalakay na nito ang aking bibig kasabay ng pagtabig nito ng kumot na tumatakip sa aking kahubdan.

Alejandro buried his co—er—thing inside me.

I was panting so hard, our chest rubbing against each other.

"Baby..." His mouth forming an 'O'. He pressed harder into me once again.

"Yes."

"Did I forget to mention that I have addictive personality?"

I bit my lip so hard when he rolled his hips, hitting every spot inside my throbbing s*x. I tightened my thighs against him.

"Ad—addictive—personality?" Putol-putol na salita ko dahil sa paghahabol ng hininga. My eyes rolling back to my head when he thrust deeper and faster. I'm going to c*m for the second time.

"Yes, and guess what?" Alejandro shifted, lifting my legs, and placed them on his shoulders. His hands hooking and holding them in place.

fuck, so deeeeep.

"What? Ah! Gad, Ale!" Napaliyad ako. Hindi ko na maramdaman ang kutson sa aking likod.

"You happened to be my one and only addiction, Beverly Ann. And what we're doing now...." He said in gritted teeth, like he's trying his best to prolong this delicious union between us.

"I'm gonna need more of this...want lots of this...fucking you... loving you.... worshipping you. I'm gonna demand more of this from you."

He slammed into me harder, faster and deeper.

"Take what you want, Alejandro. I'm surrendering myself to you, completely."

"And I'm gonna take you, selfishly." He answered in a ragged breathing.

And one more deep thrust, Alejandro brought me once again to an unknown place. He trembled above me as I felt his seed shooting inside me.

We were both catching our breaths and in a matter of minutes, we were able to relax. I snuggled closer to his warm body. I like waking up in the morning kung ganito lagi ang kasarap ang gigising sa akin.

I let my fingers ran across his hairy chest, playing and tugging them softly. Paano kung naging mahina ang lalake at hindi nalagpasan ang mga pagsubok sa buhay nito? Paano kung hindi ito bumalik sa buhay ko? Paano kung huli na ang lahat bago ko malaman ang katotohanan? Am I going to spend the rest of my life hating the man I truly love? No, that's not the right question. The right question is, how am I going to continue living without him?

"Ale..."

"Hmm..." Ang mga daliri nito ay busy din sa paghaplos sa aking braso.

I pressed my cheek against his chest. "Natatakot ako."

He placed a finger under my chin and tilt my head up so our eyes would meet. "Why?"

"Sobrang saya ko pero natatakot akong baka may kapalit na lungkot ang ganitong kaligayahan."

Humugot ito ng malalim na hininga. "If there's one thing that I learned and understand from what I went through these past years, it is that it's okay if our life spirals out of control. There are things we won't be able to figure out, things we won't be able to put restraint. Things that we won't be able to handle. Sometimes, you just have to let it go and let the world guide you. Trust that the heavens know what's best for you. And if this time we're going to face another trial, we will face it heads-on, together. Trust me when I say that I'm going to be standing next to you and protect you with all I have. I failed to do that before, pero ngayon, tinitiyak kong hindi na kita bibiguin pa, Bea."

I leaned forward to kiss him. "That was so sweet of you, Ale. At natutuwa akong malaman na may natutunan kang aral sa mga pinagdaanan mo noon. "

"Marami kang mga sinabi sa akin noon na pinagbawalang-bahala ako. I remember you told me once that I was disabled physically and that I shouldn't be disabled spiritually. Nakinig sana ako sa'yo noon."

"It's okay. Aminado naman ako na napakadaldal ko nga noon at walang preno ang aking bibig. Tsaka isa pa, sa una ka lang naman hindi nakinig sa akin, later on, ako nalang lagi ang pinapakinggan mo sa lahat ng taong nakapalibot sa'yo."

"Boses mo lang kasi ang gusto kong marinig." He smiled.

"Yun yun, e." I grinned at him.

"Ale..." Hinaplos ko ng banayad ang kanyang dibdib.

"Hmm?"

"Make me yours."

"You are mine." Nagsalubong ang kilay nito. Tila nalito ito sandali sa sinabi ko.

"Will you..." I rolled over on top of him. I sat on his stomach. ".... remind me again."

It only took seconds before his eyes glittered with desire, finally understood what I was trying to say. "Oh, f**k, yes."

But I squealed when he pushed me, my back pressing against the mattress. And when I thought he would hover above me, he flipped me over that I was now lying on my stomach, my face buried against the bed.

I yelped when Alejandro drove his hard manhood into my wet core from behind. God yes, we could do this forever.

*********

Alejandro and I took a shower together in his bathroom. Since ang mga gamit ko ay nasa kabilang kwarto, tanging roba lamang ang isinuot ko nang matapos kami.

His phone vibrated. His face lit up once he's done checking the message he received. He looked at me. "Take your time changing your clothes, baby. I'll wait you at the dining hall and let's have lunch together. I just need to check few things first."

Tumango ako. "Okay."

Nang makapasok ako sa kwartong inilaan sa akin, ganun na lang din ang singhap ko nang mapansing may mga kahon sa gilid. Kagabi ay wala naman ang mga ito.

Pero kahit hindi ko pa buksan ang mga kahon ay mukhang may hinala na ako kung ano ang meron sa loob ng mga ito. I filled my lungs with air. Hmm...Amoy mamahalin.

Una kong binuksan ang kahon na may Gucci na tatak. Katulad ng inaasahan ko, mga damit, sapatos at bags ang loob niyon. I opened the next box with a Chanel brand imprinted on it. Mga damit din ang loob nito.

Humalukipkip ako at napailing na lang. Hindi ko bubuksan pa ang pangatlong box na may Versace ang tatak. Ang pang-apat naman ay Victoria Secret at tiyak akong puro lingerie ang laman nito.

I huffed out a breath that blew loose strands of my hair out of my face. Tinalikdan ko ang mga box na iyon at hinarap ang maleta kong nakatayo sa kabilang sulok. Hinig ako iyon sa sahig at binuksan ang zipper.

Kumunot ang noo ko nang tumambad ang laman. Hindi ko naman mga damit ito!

Kinuha ko ang isang blouse at nalaglag ang aking panga nang mapansing may tag pang nakasabit dito. Sino nga ulit ang nag-pack ng gamit ko?

Natampal ko ang aking noo. Mariel. Great.

Laylay ang mga balikat na iniisa-isa ko ang loob ng maleta at naghanap ang damit na pwedeng isuot na pambahay. Goodness! Ang halaga ng isang damit ay halos katumbas na ng sahod ko sa agency!

Siguro ang naisip ni Mariel habang nakatitig sa closet ko ay basura lahat ng nandun. Napatigil ako nang may makapa sa ilalim ng maleta. Kinuha ko iyon at napasinghap na lamang ako.

Mariel found the box. Napangiti ako at umusal ng pasasalamat. Nawala sa isip ko ito. Buti na lang talaga at hindi tuluyang nalooban ang apartment dahil tiyak akong mahahanap nila ang kwentas na bigay ni Ale at tangayin.

This necklace is a piece of me. Kapag may pagkakataong nagbabalik-tanaw ako sa mga magagandang alaala namin ni Alejandro noon, lagi ko itong yakap dahil pakiramdam ko, yakap-yakap ko rin ang lalakeng nagbigay nito sa akin. Binalik ko ang kahon sa maleta. Mamaya ay ipapakita ko ay Alejandro ito.

Pinili kong suotin ang denim shorts at white tank top na siyang pinakasimple at pinakamura sa lahat. Naglagay ako ng konting make-up at pinatuyong maigi ang aking may kahabaan na buhok.

When I felt satisfied about how I look, lumabas ako sa silid at nagtungo sa dining hall na sinasabi ni Alejandro. Nasa bukana pa lang ako ay rinig ko na agad ang mga boses ng tao sa loob. Those voices were so familiar!

Mabibilis ang aking hakbang hanggang sa tumapat ako sa entrada ng dining hall. Natigil silang lahat at ang mga mata ay nakatitig sa akin.

"Beverly Ann, hindi ka na nahiya kay Alejandro. Tanghaling tapat na ay ngayon ka pa lang bumaba." Pumalatak si lola na may hawak na bowl na may lamang ulam. "Umupo ka na dine at nang makakain na."

"Mommy!" Faye appeared from the dirty kitchen. Karga-karga ito ni Alejandro. Pumiglas si Faye at maingat na binaba ito ng lalake. Nanakbo ang bata sa aking direksiyon.

I folded my knees and spread my arms, waiting for my little angel to throw herself at me. I rained kisses on her chubby cheeks and neck. She smelled so good. Bagong ligo lang ang aking anak dahil amoy na amoy ko pa ang sabong panligo nito: Pink Safeguard.

"Miss kita, Mommy!" Hinalik-halikan din ng aking anak ang aking pisngi.

"Mas miss ka ni Mommy. Sorry kung hindi nakatawag si Mommy kahapon sa inyo."

"Okay lang Mommy. Maramai naman ikaw pasalubong sa akin."

Napatda ako. Pasalubong? Hindi ko nagawang makapamili.

"Hinatid ni Tito Ale sa bahay kaninang umaga. Maraming toys at chocolates."

Napilitan akong ngumisi. "Hahaha. Oo nga pala. Nawala sa isip ko." Sinulyapan ko si Alejandro na prenteng nakasandal lamang sa sulok. A proud smirk lurking at the corner of his mouth.

Naningkit ang mata nito at alam ko na agad ang nais nitong sabihin.

"You owe me an orgasm."

I smirked. "Yes, Sir."

Lumapit ako kay lola at niyakap ito. Ganun din si Nadine na palipat-lipat ang tingin sa aming dalawa ni Alejandro. Pasimple akong lumapit kay Alejandro at bumulong.

"Thank you for this."

"Anything for you, baby." He whispered above my head as he secretly pinched my butt cheek.

"Don't tell them about what happened sa apartment." Alam kong hindi pa nito nababanggit ang nangyari dahil kung magkagayunman ay tiyak akong yun agad ang ibubungad ni lola sa akin.

"I know. Don't worry about it."

"Okay lang ba talaga na nandito sila? Hindi ba nakakahiya?"

He tilted his head. "At kanino naman kayo mahihiya? I'm owner of this overrated house and I invited them myself. They can even start living here kung gugustuhin mo pero alam kong hindi mo iyon ikakatuwa."

"Bakit kami titira dito kung meron naman kaming sariling tirahan? Speaking of tirahan, kailangan kong maghanap ng mauupuhan sa Davao. I can't stay in your penthouse forever, Ale."

Mas lalong nanliit ang mga mata nito sa akin. His nose flared. Oppss. I think I unintentionally stepped on his toe. "How could you say that? Wala bang forever sa ating dalawa, Beverly Ann?"

If he starts calling me Beverly Ann, that would mean a s**t is about to go down. Oh boy, he's pissed. I was sure he'd go ballistic the moment I'd told him I needed to go back to Davao before Monday.

"That's not I meant, Ale."

"Kayong dalawa ba ay magbubulungan na lamang ba diyan? Kahit hindi ko ito bahay ay magagalit pa rin ako dahil masamang pinaghihintay ang pagkain." Lola's voice interrupted us. Nanliliit ang mga mata nito sa amin. Si Nadine ay bumungisngis sa gilid.

Napakamot sa batok si Alejandro at ako'y nahihiyang nakangiti sa kanila. Mahaba-habang ekplenasyon ang magaganap nito mamaya.

"We're gonna talk about this, Bea." Anas nito sa aking tainga bago ito naupo sa kabisera.

Bandang hapon nang maisipang umuwi nila lola. Gustong magpaiwan ni Faye at gusto ko ring katabing matulog ang bata pero tumutol ang matanda.

"Marami pa kayong pag-uusapan ni Alejandro, Beverly. Maano bang ilaan n'yo ang ilang araw na magkasama? Total, ilang taon din kayong nawalay sa piling ng bawat isa." She sighed. "Ngayon ko higit naintindihan kung bakit sa nakalipas na mga taon ay tila nawalan ka ng sigla at nanlamig. Pero ngayon, pakiwari ko'y unti-unti nang bumabalik ang tototong Beverly Ann. Ang tagal kong inasam na makita ulit ang kislap sa mga mata mo, apo. Natutuwa akong nakikita ko na sila ngayon. Siguro naman ngayon, pwede ka nang magdahan-dahan. Hindi mo na kailangang patayin ang sarili mo sa kakatrabaho para lang makalimot. At gusto kong sabihin na sa kabila ng pinagdaanan mo, ninyong dalawa, nagpapasalamat ako na nagawa mong magpatawad. Hindi ko man lagi itong sinasabi sa'yo, pero ipinagmamalaki kita, apo."

Balde-baldeng luha siguro ang nailuha ko sa pag-uusap namin na iyon ni lola. Ngayon, kaya ko nang huminga ng maluwag. Kaya ko nang ngumiti ng tunay. Yung hindi peke at hindi pwersado.

Masaya ako. Sobrang saya ko.

At sana, hindi na matatapos ang ganitong klaseng kaligayahan.

*********

"What? Pupunta sila dito?"

"You heard me."

"Kung pupunta si Sir James kasama ang kanyang pamilya, ibig sabihin ay kailangan ko nang bumalik sa bar, Ale. Tiyak akong kailangan nila ako doon."

"Ano?" He pulled himself and leaned his back against the headrest of the bed. He crossed his arms over his chest, pouting at me. "Paano ako? Kailangan din kita, Bea."

I giggled at naupo ako sa kanyang tabi. Hinila ko ang kumot para takpan ang aking kahubdan. "Ang cute cute naman talaga ng baby Alejandro ko." I pinched his cheek. "Kailangan ko nang bumalik sa trabaho sa agency at sa bar, Ser. Katulad ng lagi kong sinasabi sa'yo, magkaiba ang estado ng buhay natin. Hindi ako papayag na maging palamunin mo. Normal ako at malakas ang pangangatawan. Sanay akong magbanat ng buto. At hindi mo ako mapapahinahod na wag nang magtrabaho, Ale, dahil tiyak kong hindi tayo magkakasundo."

"Hindi kita kokontrahin sa bagay na yan pero gusto kong malaman mo na hindi ako natutuwa sa desisyon mong yan. I can feed a whole community or a province if I'd want to, Bea and it won't be enough to even make me poor. I'm earning hundreds of thousands per hour. I have enough fortune to last me three lifetime pero ikaw..." He shook his head. "You have knocked me sideways by this decision of yours."

"I know that you are larger than life, Ale, but please understand me. Don't be upset. Intindihin mo rin ang sitwasyon ko. Ayokong pag-awayan natin ito." Lumabi ako.

"Whatever." He huffed.

I chuckled. Alam ko namang hindi nito ipipilit ang gusto sa akin. Kahit mahirap ako, may prinsipyo ako at malinis ang aking dangal. At yan ang mga bagay na hinding-hindi makukuwestiyon ng sinuman sa akin. Mga bagay na kaya kong ipagmalaki sa sinumang gustong umapak sa pagkatao ko.

"It's time!" Pumalakpak ako. I got out of bed and wore my shorts and T-shirt. Umiiling na nakasunod ang mga tingin ni Alejandro sa akin.

"Don't cheat." He uttered.

"I am not a cheater, baka ikaw."

He flinched. "I'm not." He cleared his throat as he reached for the notepad and pen that was placed on the side table. "Remember our rules, baby. You only get to read five letters a day."

Ngumuso ako. "Pwedeng sampu? Kasi hindi ako makakabasa pagbalik ko sa Davao. Or pwede akong magbaon?" My eyes fluttered at him.

Mabilis na umiling ito. "My letters for you will remain in our pad. You will get to read them in our pad. That's my golden rule."

"Oo na. See you later."

"Don't come back with puffy eyes. I didn't write them to make you cry."

Kagabi kasi ay sobra akong naiyak sa nabasa kong sulat niya. In that letter, he told me how he felt when he stumbled and there was one around him to help him get up. He was knock cold on the solid ground for hours, sweating and crying for help. But instead of calling any person who could help him, he called my name instead.

Alejandro's letters broke my heart into pieces. I wept on the floor last night. Then he came to me. It's funny though. In that letter, it was him who cried for help but it in reality, he was the one who picked me up.

"Hey, Ale." Ani ko nang nasa pinto na ako.

Ale was already busy writing for his entry today. He looked up to me. "Hmm?"

"Can I bring some letters back to the city?" Baka makasulot ngayon.

"Nope." He dismissed me.

"Why?"

"So that you have a reason to come back to the island."

I chuckled. "Kahit walang mga sulat o kahit hindi na dito nakatira sa isla ang pamilya ko, babalik at babalik pa rin ako dito. Alam mo kung bakit?"

He shrugged his shoulders. "Enlighten me, Miss Samaniego."

"Because this island is all about you. And I happen to love everything about you."

"Wrong. The island is all about us, baby. It will always be about us. By the way, how about helping me paint our newly acquired yacht tomorrow?" He c****d his eyebrow.

Whenever he uses the word "our" to everything he owns, nanlalambot ako na natutunaw na naiiyak. Talagang tiyak na tiyak ito na hindi na ako makakawala pa sa kanya. Oh well, ganun din naman ako sa kanya. Pinapangako kong wala nang makakapaghiwalay pa sa amin. Even death can't tear us apart. I will die with him.

Kumagat-labi ako. "Hmmm...."

"Hey! That's not right! Don't bite your lip. Come back here and get naked." He said teasingly.

Humalakhak akong kumakaway sa kanya. "Laters, baby." I winked at him.

"Beverly Ann! Letters or me!"

"Both!" I yelled and blew him a kiss before I closed the door behind me. I could still hear him calling my name in frustration.

Ah, happiness overload.