The Beta's curse (#1 of the Spike pack)

it's fine

Jamie’s P.O.V.

I was pleasantly surprised, feeling how fast I felt Lana’s breathing become harder and steadier, meaning that she had fallen asleep against my chest. And I couldn’t help the damned smirk that was plastered all over my face after finding that out.

My little mate was close to me.

heck…she was even HOLDING me!

She was letting me hold her!

She was so at ease with me,

that she had fallen asleep against me

Fuck…

I didn’t know if I wanted to be proud and savor the moment by staying quiet, or stand up and start banging on my chest like a freaking gorilla, so every other fool in the area would know that she was mine and mine alone. And I had to confess to myself, I was lucky that Lana was holding on to me right now, because a small minute ago, I had almost completely lost my temper and self-control. The second it clicked to me, that Lana, my sweet and perfect Lana, was running away from something, or even worse, someone, I had almost let my wolf take over. He had started to growl so loudly inside of me, that the sound had almost reached past my lips. Even when I knew that I wasn’t able to do such a thing yet, Lana didn’t even know that I was a wolf to begin with. She would probably think that I was a complete freak, turn around and run for the hills, to never look back at me, once. So, I had tried my best, to try and stay as calm as I could. And as if she knew it, once she had touched me, wrapped her arms around me and had leaned her body into mine, while I knew that mine was built for just that purpose, I had felt myself relax and become calm.

That’s the mate bond right there.

fucking magic at its best

But still…

I need to know what happened to her!

I will find out what happened to her!

I thought about our night, as Lana kept sleeping against me. The last thing I wanted right now, was to wake her up. Hell, I needed to savor this moment. And without even knowing it, I was leaning into her, my nose pressed into her brown hair as I sniffed her sweet coconut scent. And f**k, did she smell perfect. I wanted to take it, put it in a bottle and treasure it forever. And f**k… I would need it, from the second that this date would be over, and I would be forced to leave her, again, I would so f*****g need it.

*Hey buddy, are you busy?* I rolled my eyes, hearing Luke suddenly in my head, as he mind linked me.

*what is it, assface?* I linked back at him, basically hearing him chuckle on the other side

*I don’t want to spoil anything, but think about the drive you still have ahead of you. You know what Ash had said, there is a big chance that tomorrow, we are needed for the fight of our lives. You need to be awake and ready for that, brother. * I swallowed hard. I understood what Luke was saying, he had my best interest at heart. But somehow, having to leave Lana, seemed to be harder on me then ever before, knowing that there might be a chance that it would be the last time I would ever see her, if the fight would go south, and I would be killed.

Get a grip on yourself,

You are doing this for her.

you are doing this fight

to be able to bring her home

We want this!

Fuck, we NEED this!

I lifted my hand, as I slowly started to run my fingers through Lana’s hair. It felt soft like cotton, and I had to fight back the groan that was resting in my throat just by being able to feel it. Everything about her was just so f*****g perfect.

*Ok Luke, I’ll be on my way in the next hour.* I linked back at him, so at least Luke would know where I was. If anything would happen during my drive, or while I would step across our pack borders, at least he would know that something was up if I took too long.

*Good luck Jamie, and be strong. If all goes well, you are driving back tomorrow around this time, to get her and take her home, finally. * I smiled at myself, looking down at the most adorable thing in the world, hoping that that would be true. And I broke the link between Luke and I, so I was able to cherish these last few minutes with my sleeping angel. And when I knew I couldn’t wait another second, I slowly started to wake her back up, by gently running my hand over her back, and feeling how f*****g perfect she felt underneath my fingers.

“Little one, wake up.” I whispered at her, hearing how, at first, she made some sort of noise, letting me know I was annoying her, by trying to wake her up. And I couldn’t help myself, but to laugh at her reaction, and after a few seconds, her eyes softly fluttered, before they opened up wide and she was sitting straight within the next second.

“Oh my God! I fell asleep?” She asked, looking at me as her cheeks turned completely pink.

She is so f*****g beautiful.

So f*****g perfect

“Little one, it's fine.” I smiled at her, unable to stop myself, as my hand ran over her arm, and I saw as her eyes slid over to her arm, looking down at how I was caressing her, before she looked back up at me and smiled the most beautiful smile in the world at me.

“I am so sorry. I guess I was tired. Please, don’t think that I find you boring, because I really don’t. Tonight was absolutely perfect and…” I smiled again, leaning forward and laying my finger on her lips to make her stop talking and start listening to me.

“Little one, I told you, it is absolutely fine. No worries and definitely no apologies.” And Lana swallowed, as I slowly let my hand down, before she nodded at me. And let her doubts fly right out the window.

“I think it is time for me to take you home for tonight.” I told her, feeling how my heart was hurting over this. How it was breaking over my own words.

“Oh.” Lana brought out, pulling her hair behind her ear. Giving me a look as if that news made her sad.

me too, little one

me too

It hurts me, so much more than you will ever know.

“Can I come and pick you up again? For date number two?” I asked her, seeing how her lips turned into the most vibrant smile, almost immediately after I had asked.

“I would love that, Jamie.”

We got back inside the truck, as I drove her back home towards Redwater. I parked my car at the bar, but insisted that I would at least walk her towards her front door this time. No way in hell, I was letting her walk alone in the dark. She was mine, and I needed to spend every second with her that I could. And I needed to protect her with every fiber in my damned body. Especially when I knew that there was something wrong, something that I needed to find out about her, fast. She had smiled and nodded, as she crossed the street, picking up her keys from her purse, playing with them in her hand before she looked up at me. Looking nervous, once again.

“I had a really nice time tonight, Jamie. Thank you for that.” She confessed to me, and it made my chest swell with pride.

I had made her happy.

I had made my mate happy.

I nodded back in response. Feeling how this time, time was running out on us fast, and I honestly panicked. I didn’t want to leave her, s**t…I wanted to stay, I wanted to hold her, I wanted to feel her body against mine again. I needed to do something. Anything!

What if I died tomorrow?

Did I really want to die,

not knowing how my mate would feel like?

Taste like?

And so, as Lana reached for the doorknob, I scooped my hands in fast, and before the both of us really knew it, I had my arms wrapped around her completely, as her hands were both resting against my chest, and it made me wonder if she could feel my racing heart right now. A heart that was racing for her, and that was beating just for her, and would remain so, until the day that I would die. And with one final ‘f**k IT’ inside of my head, I leaned in and pressed my lips against hers. Setting off fireworks deep inside of me, like it was the freaking fourth of July.

Her lips were soft, begging me for more, and it made me wonder if they would swell fast, if I would kiss her hard. I sure as hell wanted to find out. But the only thing I could feel right now, was her, and as she lifted her hands and grabbed ahold of my neck, I knew that she gave me permission to keep kissing her, as I sneaked my tongue in, and tasted her for the very first time, feeling immediately, how utterly f****d I really was. And knowing I would never be able to do anything in my life again, other than to keep kissing her.

I pulled her body even deeper into mine, and a small moan escaped from her sweet mouth, setting off a massive hard one in my pants, and I already knew walking to my truck in a few minutes, would feel like a total b***h. But still, I didn’t stop. I would never get enough of this. How could I?

“f**k, I wanted to do this for such a long time.” I groaned into her mouth, feeling how my words made her shiver with joy.

“Then why didn’t you?” She asked me, as my lips left hers for a second, needing to know what the skin of her neck tasted like, felt like, as my lips started to explore further.

“I didn’t want to scare you off.” I confessed between pecks and long kisses against her delicious flesh.

“Am I so hard to read, then?” She asked me, leaning back, so she was looking directly at me.

“Little one, the last thing I want, is for me to scare you off… you are…”

my mate

SAY IT!

YOU ARE MY MATE!

The other half of my soul!

The center of my universe!

My heaven and hell!

“…special to me.” I weighed in my words, feeling how a frown formed on my forehead. Knowing that those stupid words didn’t even come close to my true feelings for her. But despite my stupidity, she smiled, and she looked genuinely happy about what I had just said to her.

“Promise me.” She sighed out, making me look right into her gorgeous grey eyes.

“What, little one? Tell me what you need or want. Anything, it is yours.” I told her, feeling how my wolf was starting to crawl up, wanting to mark and mate her right this second. Right against her front door.

“Promise me, you will not disappear from me for another four months after tonight.” She told me, no, almost begged me. And the only thing that I could do, was shake my head at her.

“I promise you on my life, little one. I wouldn’t even be able to. I swear.” And because of that, Lana seemed to relax, as she smiled and nodded her head at me.

“ OK, then I will see you soon for date number two.” She smiled at me, as I leaned back and kissed her again, until I felt that someone was trying to mind link me. So I forced myself to stop.

One more day

Just one more day

One f*****g day

24 hours

and this s**t will be over with

FUCK!

“Until date number two.” I promised her, knowing I would do anything in my power, to make it a reality. And as I leaned up and cupped Lana’s cheek, she leaned into my touch, and it was the most beautiful thing in the world that I had ever seen.

“Until date number two.” She sighed, before she opened the door and walked up. And I was forced to leave her, for which, hopefully, would be the last time, ever.