The Beta's curse (#1 of the Spike pack)

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Jamie’s P.O.V.

I groaned, as I finally had made my way back towards my truck. And I forced myself to close the f*****g door, start the damn car and drive off, even though every fiber in my body was telling me not to do it. And my wolf Kiran was inside of my head, screaming at me to go back and mark and claim my mate. Even when we both knew that our Alpha needed us in the pack right now.

NOT YET, KIRAN!

Fuck!

I growled back at him, trying my best to fight over dominance. Even though I secretly wanted the same thing, just as badly as him. But I got reminded of a small thug in my brain, telling me that, once again, someone was trying to get to me, and I opened up the mind link this time.

*Beta, where are you?* And I sighed, hearing Ash’s voice, my true Alpha, inside of my head.

*just leaving to come back home.*I linked back.

* OK buddy, be safe. I’ll see you soon.* And with that, the link broke back up. I knew Ash, he was sparing me right now. He knew how badly I was struggling right this second, and he knew damn well that right now, the best way to deal with me, was to just shut up and let me be. All the ride back home, my thoughts had been on Lana, and nothing else. I had thought about texting her, but then changed my mind, not wanting to force myself onto her too hard. I needed to weigh in every decision I wanted to make, and make it more ‘human’. But slowly, it started to annoy the s**t out of me. And I honestly didn’t know how long I would be able to wait, before my wolf Kiran would have the upper hand and claim what was rightfully his. It was one thing for a werewolf to wait for his mate, but with me, being a f*****g Beta along with it, it was torture times 100.

After a couple of hours, I drove my truck over the Spike pack borders. And I knew I was home, or hell, as I still liked to call it and would stay calling it as long as Alpha Michael was still breathing. I didn’t even care that some guards saw me as I drove by. I used to keep my guard up, trying to be sneaky, but by now I had had it completely. So, I just rushed towards the pack house, nodded at Luke who was still downstairs, and made my way up to my room without talking to anybody. Where I slammed the door shut and let myself fall into my bed, hoping to the Moon Goddess herself, that I would be able to get some sleep tonight, since my heart was hurting and longing for my sweet Lana, more than ever before.

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“Morning.” A voice woke me up. I groaned, as I turned around on my bed and pulled my pillow over my face. I was not ready to face anyone just yet.

“Luke, I love you like a brother, but leave me the f**k alone right now.” I growled, after I had been tossing and turning in my bed all night long. I felt drained, sick even, I was in physical pain over not being with Lana. And it was slowly killing me from the inside out.

“Sorry Jamie, but you need to get up.” Luke spoke softly, making me growl again, as I leaned up to look at him, seeing that he was reaching out a big mug of coffee towards me.

“What time is it?” I asked him, making him turn to look at his watch.

“It’s already 4.30 man, you slept all f*****g day.” I shook my head as I took the coffee from him. It felt as if I hadn’t slept for a f*****g second. Hell, I couldn’t remember when I had ever felt as miserable as I had been right now.

“The f**k?” I asked myself, as I took the mug and drank from it, sighing hard afterwards and giving Luke a thankful nod for the beverage.

“When will this whole madness start?” I asked Luke, who shrugged back at me.

“I will make sure to be ready in an hour or so.” He answered me, walking over and leaning against my bedroom wall.

“So, how did the date go?” He asked me, sounding genuinely interested.

“Fine.” I spoke, nodding my head.

“Too fine, actually.” I sighed, running my hand through my hair.

“Did something happen between the two of you?” Luke asked me, as one of his eyebrows rose up.

“She fell asleep against me.” I smiled, remembering the feeling of her touch

“And before I left back home, we kissed.” I swallowed hard, as I stared at the mug in my hand.

“Ouch. How are you holding up?” Luke asked me, and thank God, the guy didn’t judge me for being so miserable right now. If anyone knew what I was going through right now, it was him. He was, after all, mated to the pack’s slut, Francesca. And she had rejected him on day one, since, in her words, ‘A Gamma wasn’t ranked highly enough for her’… The stupid cunt. She didn’t even know by half how lucky she had been to be mated to Luke in the first place. It was her loss really, but I still felt sorry for my best friend. Luke did not deserve such a rejection in any way. The guy was a freaking saint. But truth be told, after being rejected, he had started a war against Francesca, making sure to f**k every other she-wolf who would have him. I even used to be a good wingman for him. That was before I had laid my eyes on Lana, of course. Nobody even came close to her now, nor would they ever again. I honestly believed there wasn’t one woman on this planet that could get me hard, ever again, while I was a walking brick by just seeing Lana, let alone feel her or kiss her. And just by that thought, I was sporting wood while I wasn’t even fully awake yet.

“Jamie, are you OK?” Luke asked me again, pulling me out of my daydream.

“Yeah, I’ll be fine. I just have to make it through today, so tomorrow, everything will be just fine.” I nodded, drinking my mug empty, before I placed it on my nightstand, where my phone was lying.

“Call her, so you can hear her voice. It will do you good Jamie. You and your wolf” Luke spoke to me, nodding at my phone.

“Do me good? I feel like all I want to do is run to my car and drive back to her.” I groaned.

“Her voice will give you the strength that you need to pull through.” Luke smiled at me.

“And once you are done calling her, get your smelly ass out of bed and take a decent shower. You can’t go into war smelling like a homeless person. Your enemies will just run away from you and your stench, instead of fighting against you.” Luke grinned wide at me, making me roll my eyes at the fool.

“I’ll go and check up on Lottie. I’ll be back in a few.” He laughed, as he opened my bedroom door and walked out, and a couple of seconds after, I heard my front door closing, while my eyes were still pinned on my phone, as if it would come alive any second and Lana would crawl out of it.

I swallowed hard, deciding to, for once, listen to Luke. I knew he always had my best interest at heart. And f**k, I just really needed to hear her voice right now. So, I took a deep breath as I pressed on her name and listened, waited, for someone to answer on the other side.

“Hello, security guy.” A happy, bubbly voice sounded on the other side, and I couldn’t help the smirk that spread over my face.

“Hiyah, pretty lady.” I countered, hearing her giggle, and my heart jumped at hearing the most beautiful sound in the world.

“Are you already regretting our date, by now?” I asked her with a grin on my face.

“Of course not, you little jerk. I only regret falling asleep during it.” She giggled back at me. And I could only smile wider, not feeling bad about her little nap at all. While she was lying against me, her arms around me, and her scent covering me.

“Sooo… what are you up to today?” She asked me after a few seconds of silence, making me frown. Because I knew very well, I couldn’t tell her we were about to kill our Alpha. That would definitely scare her away from me.

“Today is the big day.” I sighed, nodding at myself and being happy with my choice of words.

“Oh…” Lana spoke, and I could basically see her biting her bottom lip through the phone.

“Will it be dangerous?” She asked me, as I laid myself back on my bed. Only having attention to her sweet voice.

“ Honestly, it’s not without danger. But it needs to be done, and after that, I’m all clear.” I smiled, knowing how true my own words were right now, and I found myself wanting it to be over. We had worked hard enough for this, and f**k… we had waited long enough as well.

“Please, promise me you’ll be safe, Jamie. I’d really like to go on that second date.” She spoke to me, and I could tell she was smiling on the other side of the phone, her words were all coated in happiness.

Fuck

I want to see that smile again.

“On my scout's honor. I promise you, that everything will be fine.” I answered her, wondering myself what she was doing right now on the other side of the phone.

“ You were a scout’s boy when you were a kid?” She asked me, sounding surprised.

“Uhm… no, actually.” And she started to laugh hard, making me grin so hard to the point that my face was about to split in half.

“You are such a goof!” She laughed.

“Just trying to impress you, that’s all really.” I sighed, and once again, I could almost see her biting her lip through the phone. And f**k, I wanted to do that so badly.

“Are you at the bar tonight?” I asked her, trying to change the subject, to which she hummed.

“Yeah, but it’s a weekday, so it won’t be such a long night tonight.” And I nodded, not that she would be able to see it anyway.

“Can you please text me, or let me know when your job is done? So I at least will know that you are actually safe and still breathing?” She asked me, and I grinned wide, hearing how worried my mate was over me and my safety.

“Of course, it will be the first thing I do, once I am done,” I promised her.

“Well, you better.” She giggled back at me.

“ OK, well, I’ll see you soon, little one. I have to get ready.” I told her, f**k no, I promised her. I would do anything in my power for it to be this way. I would see her again, soon. I would make sure of it.

“ OK, great. See you soon, sweet Jamie.” She answered me, to which I ended the call and dropped my phone on the bed. I closed my eyes and just let the warmth of my heart flow through my body, after hearing her sweet voice. And feeling how it powered up my entire body, preparing me for the fight of my life. A fight that I had to fight, in order to get my mate here. To give my mate the life that she deserved. To give both of us the life that we deserved. Together.