Bipolar Attractions

17.

“We can not be having this discussion here,” Jen whispers while glaring hardly at me as she pulls me with one arm to a secluded room and away from the peering eyes that pass us by. “Is this about Romeo? Cause I have seen the way you look at him,” Jen instantly asking me as soon as she shuts the door. 

I don’t respond but take a hand through my hair, while I let out a sigh of frustration.

“You can not let yourself get attached here Laura, that’s why you were chosen for the job and it’s just been a month here…”

“Well it seems I’m not! I’m not the best one for this job. Yes I know it’s just been a month… a month of spending most of my days with them and…Fuck!” I let out another frustrated sigh as I too hear how stupid i sound.

“Is there something I don’t know going on here, or is it just because Agent Kane refused to share the confidentiality of Jacob’s purpose?” Jen stares at me vividly as she watches every movement of my actions, while I can only stare at her not able to say a word here. “f**k Laura! Don’t tell me you’ve slept with him.” Laura curses giving me a disappointing look.

“I haven’t okay? I haven’t.” I tell her as she sighs. “But I almost did.” I say as her eyes go wide. “I…John and I slept together two days ago,” I add.

“Yes, it’s not normal. I know you guys have an affair going on…”

“Except this time it wasn’t normal Jen.” I cut Jeniffer off. “I craved for Romeo, I craved for Romeo to the extent my skin burned. I have never felt such kind of emotions ever before all because of some seductive words he said to me and I couldn’t control myself, that I knocked on John’s apartment by 2am In the morning, begging him to F**k me.” I speak with no filter in my words. “And you know the worst of it all. I wasn’t satisfied, john didn’t satisfy me like the way I craved to be. It was never like this, which is why John and I made this agreement, but two days ago, I…I had to control myself not to call Romeo and F**k him.” All Jen can do is watch me with wide eyes while I end my honest confession to her.

“Sh*t, This is bad.” Jen is now the one to run a hand through her hair.

“I know. It’s f****d up. Here I am wanting to lay in bed with a criminal I’m supposed to bring in.” I state, in disbelieve of my own situation.

“Tell me Laura, is it just an attraction or it’s something more?” Jen asks me solemnly.

“Of course it just a damn attraction. I’m not in love with Romeo. That’s not even happening.” I answer immediately.

“I think you need to take a break from this. We could tell Holloway you have to get yourself fixed up in some s**t and find a good excuse that doesn’t say you want to…do what you want to do.” Jen says, and instantly I nod my head negatively.

“I can’t. There’s too much at stake here Jen…”

“And you are also at stake here. If you can’t control your emotions, everything will fall to jeopardy…” 

“And loose track of Jacob?” I cut Jen off again, as she goes silent. “The plan is going well and I actually don’t give a f**k if Felicity throws Jacob in a gutter, regardless of what orders I have. I have made a promise to you and I am going to fulfill it. I can’t kill Jacob on my own, because it is just what I can not do, that’s not what I swore to do. I swore to protect but it doesn’t mean when karma is finally getting back at Jacob for his bad deeds that I am going to save him. No I’m not going to do that.” I explain to Jen as she still stays silent.

“This isn’t just about me now Jen. The Axe brothers are planning something which we have no f*****g idea what, and Jacob is also there whom I need to keep a close eye on, because Felicity is not planning on letting him go anytime soon. And then there is also bringing the cartel into custody, as per my initial assignment. So, you see all these I can’t leave them based on just a stupid f*****g attraction that will end me in jeopardy, if i do decide to slack.” I let out a tiring sigh, while I feel Jen move close to me.

“So what do we do? You said it yourself, you’re attracted to Romeo, and it is not going to go anywhere because you will basically see him every single day as you will begin working closely with them now. You’re going to have to make a choice.” Jen speaks the truth while I can only stare in oblivion of cluelessness.

“Okay we make a plan then. Our plan.” I nod at Jen while she waits for me to continue. “Felicity is definitely going to need more information from Jacob and once she can’t get it, she kills him. Now that’s where I come in. I would convince her to hand Jacob over to me, wanting to end him for what I told her he did to me, and as a friend of hers, she will unlikely refuse such a request. 

Once I have Jacob in my custody, then we blackmail him with something he can not resist in an option that I save him from the mess he is in and his sister, in return that he doesn’t say a word about you, then I hand him over to the SIU, as per the instructions.”

“This is a shitty plan, Laura.” Jen says and I can’t help but chuckle a little. “And what if Jacob goes back on his words and still speak about me when he is with the SIU, trying to gain another deal. He is a mafia and he will look for every way to save himself only, Laura.” Jen tells me and I reason her words deeply.

“I don’t know what else Jacob knows, and the longer he stays with Felicity the more he will spill out the secrets, which is why, I have to think of something else.” I sigh frustrated.

“And we will. Put Jacob aside, what are you going to do about Romeo?” Jen asks me as my gaze locks back with her and my expression becomes hard.

“If it gets me closer to him, I might as well sleep with the devil.”