I was only allowed to see my babies once during the one week I was healing from childbirth. I had speculated they were going to be in bad condition, but to my amazement, they weren't at all. They were being cared for by a personal nurse and it was hard to come to terms that Jaxon could do something like this.
They were fine and well, but my heart still bled. I was their mother and yet, I had no access to them. All I could do was watch them through the tiny creek of the door of the room they were kept in. I disliked the way the nurse gleamed at them. They were still very much young, but I feared they would be more familiar with her than with me.
Numerous questions went through my head each day, questions like. 'if this was going to last forever? Was Jaxon going to hate me forever? Were my
